My typical Life

2011-04-28T22:31:00.000-07:00

Its been sometime since I have last blog. Life was as usual as it is, monotonous and dull in color. May be the new color that have been added to my life is the current General Election Rally/Speech.

All along, I share the same sentiment with people who thinks that is just propaganda in their speech/rally which I am not interested to hear. But this year, it seem that everyone is digging on what lies, propaganda the previous party had mention.

The few key topics which interest me is definitely on jobs, housing, transportation and foreign talent.

In 2-3 years time, I am going to start a whole new chapter of my life, entering the workforce. Who want to compete with foreign talent for a job which they will stand a higher chance due to their low salary/wages. We have lost 2 years of our time serving the nation which we can actually spend it on working/study which we can gain more experience/knowledge to command a higher pay. So who is going to guarantee that we will have a higher priority to get a job which is paid for a more comfortable survival in the Singapore city or who is going to force us to leave to other country to look for jobs, be their foreign talent, settle down and eventually give up out Singapore Citizenship?

Housing. How much would you spend just to RENT (if yo do not know that HDB flat will be yours for only 99 years and after that it will be back to the government) a place to live in. $400K for a 4 room flat which cost only $200K a few years back? $500K for a 5 room, 25 years of age? This is the current price for the current situation. For just a couple of years, the price shot up to a SKY ROCKET price which is not beneficial to the citizen and to the younger citizen. In future, you might need to spend $1 million just to get a 3 room flat and take 40 years to pay off your payment and then have to work till your death as there isn't any money left for your retirement. Everyone knows that Singapore is a small country with very little land space but that does not mean that the price of housing should be at such a high price which the citizen might not be able to afford.
Firstly, our wage/salary grade haven't catch up with the rising cost demands for transportation, food, groceries and even rising a kid. You need around close to $1K extra to have a kid as the infant care, milk powder, pampers, vaccine and much more need $.
Secondly, Singapore as what they had said is a small country. Having a limited land area yet a very ambitious plan to increasing our population worsen the demand supply of housing. We, Singaporean will eventually suffer due to the the low supply of housing due to the large demand for housing. Its the government plan to increase the population without factoring housing, transportation and even jobs demands. Due to their poor judgement, the citizen in turn have to pay for what extra cost which shouldn't even be added.
Thirdly, there are income ceiling which decide on the smallest possible type of flat you can purchase. If 1 couple both earn a comfortable $5 K a month wants to buy a HDB flat, they can only buy a 5 room flat. 2 person in a 5 room flat is firstly a complete waste of space, secondly, forcing the couple to pay for the unnecessary space required by them which result in having less saving which eventually affect the couple decision of having a baby.
Fourthly, why do we still have to pay interest for the public housing which is too expensive resulting citizen to have no options but to loan from the CPF. The interest is not few hundred dollars but thousands of dollar which add on the burden of the flat owner.

How about transportation. It just worries me that you have to squeeze into trains and buses every single day just to go to other places which is too far/long for the person to walk. If the cost of the transportation is kept low, we won't have much rights to expect a very comfortable ride. But the transportation fees is getting higher and higher while the comfort level get lower and lower. Most of the people had no choice but to take public transportation to work. If want to travel slightly more comfortable, CAB would be an option. But paying for $20-35 just to get to work seem to have taken up almost 30% of the days pay. Getting an MC seem to be a better option. The next option is Driving. Kiss $30K good bye even before you get your key to your car! Pay so much for the metal but you can only drive for maximum 20 years. No subsidies for petrol unlike neighboring countries which even require to fork out more money due to the large population.

Foreign Talent. They command a lower salary as compared to a singaporean with the similar qualifications and experience. They became the priority of employers choice of worker to fill up empty vacancy, the took up the low supply of housing leaving people having lesser chance to get a roof above their head. They add on to the massive squeeze every morning on public transports. The only thing they does is increase the population as what the government wants.

Wonder this time who will win. Just pray hard there are more opposition in the parliament to have a better decision/policy making.

Sadly I won't be able to vote due to the fact that I am AWAY on the voting day. Can't vote =(

2011-03-12T16:15:00.001-08:00

Weekend always passes so quickly. Sadly I have to return camp today for duty. That feeling sucks but what make it worst is the constant "feel like shitting" feeling made it worst. Had this problem whenever I wake up early and that is one of the reason that always make me leave the house super early or need me to take cab as after buisness and I still take train or bus I surely will be late.

5 more days to book out as I took leave on Friday. Few 2 more weeks to start of april, this means I am nearing my ORD (4 more months), to my overseas exercise in MAY and Taiwan trip in June! But sadly to be able to get to april, I still have to pass this 2 weeks.

This week is quite a hetic week for me. Need to complete my univeristy application by this weekend, so is my scholarship application. Will be taking safety audit course this Friday and Saturday, going for what close door party on Saturday night and A05 gethering on Sunday!! Still, will be absent from my cousin wedding as I will be in camp. Have 2 wedding to attend this month and for both I will and be absent!

Anyway, I went to NTU open house yesterday and was SIAN 0.5 when I step into the compound. Took around 5-9 minutes to drive up to the school campus for CBE and the course does not seems to be so interesting. I am so gonna wait for my admission to SIT!!.

2011-03-05T04:20:00.001-08:00

Went out of camp to sit open house which was held at MOE building today. Brose through the small area which is kind of super small for open house.

Was looking around and was interested in New castle university and TUM. Both uni are tepting as both offer chemical engineering and for diploma it just take 2 to 2.5 years to complete. New castle university (NU) is the one that attract me the most. 2 years with honours and the course fee is just $19,170 not inclusive of the compulsory 1 month school in NU n UK.

And guess what... the degree programme will be held in ngee ann polytechnic which is where I am from! This means I am able to start school in a familiar environment and able to experience overseas learning/teaching environment. The school even follow UK calender for its semester/break/vacation. Now the problem is whether I should give up my NTU placing to go to NU which will allow me to enter the working world earlier.

Lucky SIT or NU accept CPF payment. if not it might not be that affordable. Now pray hard that I am able to persuade my parent to let me switch university if I can get into NU.

What more there will be a moltivation to save money for the trip over there which is super attractive. 1 month away from home and in Uk to study. NTU oversea attachment seem to be longer. Just don't really like the feeling of being away from home for super long time.

So how? anyone willing to enlighten me?

2011-03-02T06:51:00.001-08:00

Guess what... after so long I have finally manage to use blogger on my phone... been so long since I blogged and log into gmail on this phone. Life haven't really been good recently.. people are just bear personal grudge on me.. kind of a childish move by the person.

Well I really do not know what exactly is he thinking. Must praise for his high IQ but have low EQ which kind of irritate me. He just think too highly of himself. So what if he is from reputated JC but unable to accept people from other school/institution. Can't accept to lose will always land him into deep shit. Just wait and see okay.

This week will be a long week as weekend need to stay in camp. But is okay... going to have 2 more off days! Don't think I will be going out much as I have spend a large amount of of money last month till my dad message me a long essay which made me feel so bad.

This month budget.. 300 hope I am able to do it...

2011-02-05T20:51:00.000-08:00

Today is the 4th day of the Lunar Calender and I finally decide to blog the first entry of this lunar year. May be I will start with what those astrologer says about the luck of those people born in the year of SNAKE. SUX! Therefore, I decided that I will not elaborate it further as it will be very disappointing.

This year new year was slightly more boring as I only visit my paternal relatives as my maternal grandmother had just died like less then 100 days yet. May be next year new year will be a BANG! Hopefully!

After 9 days of OUT CAMP day is ending today in a few hours time. Felt so EMO since yesterday night. Wonder when will be the next time I will be able to enjoy such a long holiday. On the brighter side, I am going to celebrate my mum's birthday later. We are going to Punggol Seafood at Marina Country Club! Hope the food isn't disappointing.

I am starting to count down to the next book out day! Can't wait.....

2011-01-02T21:37:00.000-08:00

I am totally sick and tired of you nonsense! Please make up your mind fast don't keep changing your views. If you can't then simply just leave!

2011-01-02T21:21:00.001-08:00

2011 had finally arrived! Happy new year to all. Hope everyone had a good start!

Last day of 2010 was a OFF day for me. No army, No Duty, No Camp! Didn't had any event/activities planned and was kind of emotional about it. Think its the first count down with out any activity plan after the initial count down plan was cancelled. Shared my EMO-ING on facebook and got quite a few invites! Thanks to technology I am able to have a few last minute activities. Went out with Christopher for dinner before meeting Spencer and Eunice for count down at Clarke Quay then CU!

Count down was okay but the place we were at was kind of wrong as almost 50% of the fireworks were being blocked. 3.5 minutes of fireworks means Thousand and Thousand of money were being fired and explode in mid air. This explain the recent exponential height in the COE price, housing price and the constant HIGH tobacco TAX!

Luckily CU SO happening on new year day! Think its the second or third time it was so happening. Enjoyed every moment from the start till I left the place despite some things happened which kind of make me DU LAN.

But no matter what I had a good start for new year... HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! HUAT AR

2010-12-18T21:53:00.001-08:00

Christmas is coming soon. 1 more weeks to go before everyone will be celebrating Christmas with their loves one. 2 more weeks before year 2010 is coming to an end. 8 more month before I ORD and start my second phase of my life; to study for my degree.

This year Christmas lighting seem quite boring! Wonder how Singapore can be voted one of the 10 best place to view Christmas lighting in the world. FAINT! To me looking at all the display and lighting seem to be an emotional moment. Every time when I am on the way to school, it will always rain, the bus is always cold, my stomach is always growling and my MP3 is always playing some NOT so HAPPY songs. Looking out of the blurred glass of the bus, looking at the PURPLE lighting (this year Christmas color theme seem to be purple), looking at the crowd underneath all the bright and shimmering Christmas decoration and lightings is always made me feel so BLUE.

Wanted to start doing one of my assignment which is due in 2 weeks time but just don't feel like it. The "just nice" weather is the main excuse I am using to convince myself that its worth not doing anything today and enjoy the wonderful weather. Don't even feel like going out! May be had quite a fun time yesterday which result in a very "NUA" me today!

Went out with Hwee Ching yesterday to celebrate her be-LATED birthday. Went to buy Rapunzel's ticket which had quite a lousy timing at 7.15pm, 3 hours before the show start which will eat into our dinner time. We decide to go for our super early dinner at Otooya (orchard Central). Simply love the food there. After dinner we went all the way back to Cathay and realize that we are still early for the show and we decide to go to POMO for a short walk. Went to cold storage and saw this mini Christmas tree which was kind of ideal for a mini Christmas decoration.

After the movie, we went to Marina Square, Marina Bay Sands before we decided to end our day at Quality Hotel. WAIT WAIT WAIT!!! Don't think dirty! We were there to have our supper buffet which was later my cousins join us.

Going out to meet Astro to get my glasses back. my LOOOOONG-sighted glasses. Wanted to drive there but my sister took the car. Most likely will be taking train to town as don't think I want to go down to Tampinese to take the car.

All right I need to go now.... C ya

2010-12-10T20:21:00.000-08:00

A hectic week for me. Trying to complete my assignment which need to be submitted this friday. And guess what, I am not even starting it today even tomorrow I will be on duty. Most likely I will try to complete it while I am on duty since I am doing nothing in camp on sunday. It will help me kill the time and even make the day pass faster.

Had a battalion cohesion at wild wild wet yesterday. It was awesome! Initially I do not even want to get myself wet but in the end I was in the water for almost all the time! Even the rides was limited but overall it was quite fun. The "U" slide was the worst! I just felt that I was dropping down from a great height! Potter was damn funny, he started screaming even before we slide down.

Next week will be a super long week for me. Its my grandmother 49th day after her death and my best friend's operation day. Just hope I am able to claim my off on either of this day. The best would definitely be both days!

Don't want to spend so much time blogging now. Need to do my stuff now!

2010-12-04T23:54:00.000-08:00

This week wasn't a very good week. A very long week with so many things happening. Had a test on Wednesday which was kind of stressful as we were trying to meet the timing. Had a new module on Friday which made me felt so demoralize. Totally lost with what the lecturer is saying despite I paid 101% attention to him. Saw the assignment which gave me a big headaches as I totally have no ideal what I am going to fill in. Wonder whether I am able to complete this module/this level successfully. No matter what I will try to persevere as long as I can.

I think I am super in love with cheeseburger as I alighted half way to school just to get a cheeseburger to satisfy my craving. Because of it, I was late for my class.

why do i need a tittle

2010-11-25T01:45:00.000-08:00

Just downloaded this apps on my itouch and trying to type my very forst post using it...

Feeling kind of bored now. Woke up not long ago and swallowed a plate of wonderful wanton noodle. Shouldn't i be feeling happy/ contented? But sadly i wasn't. Not very sure what had gotten into me that i am feeling restless almost everyday, every moment.

Will be booking out later. Isn't sure what will i be doing before i go for my class at 7 pm. hope i am able to meet someone for dinner or sort. Somehow some problem had surfaced and kind of will cause me to miss my lesson on wednessday. Having a test that day and it will be so difficult to skip it. How? Can anybody tell me?

December is coming and don't have much of the holiday mood. Just too many uncertainty which make you find that planning anything is like almost impossible. Every now and then you will hear different plans which make you feel abit pissed! But on the bright side, i am left with just 9 month to ORD. Fast! Still remember the first day when i enlist, pop, posted to this unit and so on and on. So many thing had happen in a short period.

Wonder how would it be like after ORD. Just hope life after ORD will be smooth. Study then start working. Just hope 2012 wouldn't be the end of the world. Or else what i wouldn't be able to see the result for all the things i have done for the 21 years or 22 years in exact.

i am feeling tired now... Time for me to yake a short nap now!

2010-11-17T02:37:00.001-08:00

Just got back home after meeting spencer and eunice for coffee at vivo. Got a very bad scolding when I reach home as I gotten myself into unnecessary shit by getting into an accident while driving.

For godness sake, please look at where you are turning into and the incoming car before you turn into the main road. Because some fucker who don't even bother to follow the rule, almost cause his life if I didn't manage to swerve my car in time. In the end it was just a minor collision. Not really minor actually. My left headlamp was crashed, my bumper was severely dented in and my ear will get deaf my my mother unreasonable scolding. What ever she say was totally illogical. HELLO! As if the accident was cause by me, as if I know that I will have an accident just now! She said even more mean words that I don't feel like commenting in this blog. Its totally just so mean that I almost wanted to leave the house, drive the car and bang myself to death. After all isn't that is thebest way to keep her shut up!

Will be going to the workshop tomorrow. Don't really know how to handle this issue. Don't think my dad will have the time to go as he is being held on by work. Just pray hard that the person will really co-operate with me. Don't even know how long will this whole thing take! 3 hours? 4 hours? or even days! Fuck the driver really.

This is what the other party have done to my car

A close up view

2010-11-15T18:20:00.000-08:00

Just woke up to a bright yet cooling morning! Kind of love the chilling feeling when the wind blow and the warm feeling hiding under the towel or hugging the pillow. Slept quite late yesterday as i went back camp late as dispite my class ended early. I was still enjoying my burger king meal when its night out timing.... And because of the meal i slept super late as i felt too full to sleep.

Yesterday course wasn't that bad as the people there are starting to open up more and more. Sometimes its just stress to be the youngest in the class. Everyone will just non-stop telling you their experience over and over again. All ypu can do is just nod and just reply " hmm, ahh, orh". It will be rude i you ask them to shut up as afterall they are nagging for my own good.

Wouldn't be having class tomorrow but will have a test on friday! Yawn! Saturday will be celebrating samatha birthfay and sunday will be spend rotting at home :( as i need to book in that night. Wondering how many book in i still have before i ord in august! Next year will be tiring year for me. Going exercise after exercise! SIAN

2010-11-12T08:04:00.000-08:00

Finally weekend is here. This week past kind of fast for me as there were pretty much booking in and out of camp for course.

Course was okay but the people there wasn't as fun as those in level a. But its still hard to judge with just 3 lessons. After all there are still lots of lesson fpr us to go through together. After attending this course, it kind of put me in a situation. I am totally lost in deciding what i want to be in future. To be a safety officer if i pass my level c or to be a chemical engineer. Both sounds good and both seem to have a bright future. Its just that if i am focusing on working towards a sqfety officer, wouldn't it be a waste to spend 4 long years in university as 2 years of school is good enough to get a degree. Do i really need to spend the extra time and money? Wonder who should i really talk to and who is able to give me a good advice.

Guess what? I am hungry now! Was feeling kind of full despite having an early dinner and that the reason i didn't eat during my break time. I really need to mention my wonderful dinner at this cafe/restaurant/bar it was totally awsome and filling. Good food, good ambience and reasonable price! Its call oreole (something like that) And its located at panpacific suite and 313 building. Its opposite the chinese cafe Central. Its yummy and i am looking forward to visit it again!

2010-11-07T02:46:00.000-08:00

EXCITED EXCITED! Tomorrow will be the start of my course! Happy that its finally starting. Hope its easy or may be manageable if not I wonder how am I able to manage. May be its a good trial for me to see whether I am able to study and WORK (all right its not consider work for now) at the same time. May be in future I can opt to study part time instead of full time.

To get to tomorrow, first I must pass the remaining time of TODAY! Will be booking in around 3 hours from now. It will mark the end of the long holiday which I was suppose to enjoy, freedom if my grand mother didn't pass away as my parent would be in Taiwan. Went to malaysia on Friday, a public holiday, which kind of chose the wrong day as it was a pain in the ass to drive to malaysia. The jam was horrible. 3 hours were spend just to conquer the 3 km stretch of road filled with super duper duper lots of cars which was totally intoxicating for people like us who wind down the window to breath in all the exhaust fumes.

Didn't go far, went to Kota Tinggi to see the waterfall which was kind of small but definitely better then singapore which doesn't even have one. After Kota Tinggi, we went to Desaru which was the utterly disappointed place. The public beach was like $O&$@^%@! and to visit the orchard was also %^%^&!%@*^ expensive. The best was the dinner as we pack home wonderful bowl of BAK KUT TEH, Braised pork leg and lots of other food. The BAK KUT TEH was from a different stall as the last bowl from my favorite stall was sold and cook infront of me! Another day perhaps...

Saturday or yesterday was alright. Spend my morning at my grandmother house clearing her house. Sometime I just feel its nice to have a maid. May be we shouldn't have send the maid back so early. At least she is able to give another helping hand. Went out for dinner with spencer and eunice at Shaw orchard for a meal of MACdonald before we head down to CU for a drink before going back. Kind of enjoy such a lazy saturday.
Hope my next weekend would be good too, hope MEGA mind would be part of my next week itinerary.

As for today, its just a boring slow sunday. The time seems to have stop at the very moment I woke up. What make it worst was the rain. At 7 pm, the sky is as dark as 9 pm. Don't feel like booking in!!!! AWOL??? Think the bunk would be cooling to sleep so isn't that bad. Just hope tomorrow wouldn't be that bad too! Don't like sleeping in warm nights as I literally didn't sleep at all as I would be feeling super #^T%&@%!&*^^&%!@ =!

So long everyone, I am going to have my dinner soon!

2010-11-02T02:28:00.000-07:00

Finally my grand mother's funeral is over. Felt quite happy that my paternal aunty and uncle came and I am happy that Aaron, Aaron's parent, Hui Zhong, Hui Zhong's parent, Phileo, Jie Sheng, Fish, Eunice, spencer and Daryl came all the way to pay their respect to my grandmother.

Think the whole family became even more united after this event. No quarreling/ disagreement or sort have happen. Everyone remain cheerful till the last day. Everyone did their very part to make it a some how grand funeral which my grandmother wanted. Even most of my grandmother relative (my super distance relative) came despite their busy schedule.

The final farewell definitely the most emotional moment. Almost everyone burst into tears, especially the band we invite start playing the songs which my grandmother loves. The nursery rhymes 世上只有媽媽好 was the tear flowing moment. Just hope my grandmother will enjoy the "gifts" which her son-in-laws had given to her. I realize that getting a band over at the funeral is somehow an expensive event. Luckily the one my dad and uncle got was alright as they even went to the crematorium with us and played the very last tune for my grandmother when her coffin entered the furnace.

No matter what, we still manage to had some fun moment during this 5 days. The monk was doing the prayer on the last night when we were suppose to follow the monk. After going a few rounds, the monk continue chanting and started going round the coffin. He didn't realize that we didn't follow him as he didn't made any hand signal. Half way he ask us to follow, we had no choice but start rushing. Another moment was when we were suppose to burn the paper house/joss paper. My uncle almost threw the joss paper in to the pit without lighting it. The monk who was chanting started laughing! Kind of humorous. Even when burning the paper house/joss paper, we were suppose to hit the floor with the stick and shout for our grandmother name and ask her to come and collect, 1 of my cousin started shouting and shouting and after that she started shouting my grandfather name instead. It was like the joke of the night.

Apart from an expensive event, its also a tiring event. I am so shag that I start hearing words like "what the fuck" "money money more" .etc when the monks are chanting. HAHA...

Anyway when to collect her ash today from the crematorium before we move her to her new home in the temple. First time seeing people's bone. Felt even weird. What was best was having a very sumptuous brunch at 1 of the coffee shop which we ordered more then 10 over bowls of Ba Kut Teh, 2 plates of duck, 2 plate of braise pork and 2 big bowl of soup! Well, treat it as the farewell meal for the maid who was the one looking after my grandmother. She will be leaving us for another family. After the meal, we went to our grandmother house to pack before everyone of us went to the agency to send her off. Quite emotional as she is a good maid. Quite meticulous and does her duties well. I think we never regret employing her. As no one want to have a maid or requires a maid, we didn't really renew her contract with us. She will be going to another family in Singapore soon. Hope she will have a good employer.

2010-10-29T01:27:00.000-07:00

Finally I have some time after a almost no sleep night i had yesterday night at the wake. Yesterday was so rush! Got a phone call from my dad informing me that my grandmother had pass away. Book out immediately and went straight down to NUH. Was there for close to 2-3 hours before we start heading down to the wake area and here I am, stuck there for the next couple of days.

Saw my grandmother in NUH and was shock with how bloated she is. Luckily she died peacefully. After some arrangement with the undertaker, we went to the montuary to wait for my grandmother body to be collected by the undertaker. Within hours, everything is settled. Really amaze with the power/efficiency of the undertaker.

Was at the wake the whole night until this morning before I can go to my aunt house to have a show and a short nap before going down again. Think today will be a busy day for use. Saw some of the relative which I haven't really seen before today, especially my mum cousin who is my dad classmate. He is so funny. Firstly everyone mistaken him to be some beggar or what coming to the wake as he was dressed up super sloppily. What more was that when I offer to help them to buy 4D as I am on the way home, he pass me the number he wanted to buy and gave me another $50 and tell me that for coffee! Think he is really to rich till he have no way to spend his money! But no matter what we have to be thankful that he came down today despite the fact that he will be flying off to DUBAI tonight.

Will be going back to the wake after a short bath and to pick my sister up from work.Drank a cup of chicken essence and coffee. Just hope the effect will come shortly. Totally to SHAG now.4 more days to go.....

2010-10-27T18:02:00.000-07:00

Don't really know what have gotten in me. Was listening to my itouch and heard some songs that brought back memories. Not 1 song but 3. Of all the song why this 3 song start playing 1 after another despite having lots of song in my itouch. No matter whqt it was the reason, it just made me realise that my life havent progress at all. It seem to stop at the time when we are still happily together. Its so long since i thought about it and i thought that after so long i have finally move on.

Indeed, only fairy tale and dreams can have the happily ever after ending while the reality will slap u awake with all those heartbreaking moment. Everything is just fiction. We are living in the world where reality is the coldest of all. It just leave every single person with unhappy moment which simply destroy any feeling remaining. May be 1 day i will turn as cold as reality. Sometime i think being simple is still the best.

Thinking back to those happy time made me feel contented. Hugging you the whole day under the bed, attemp/ cook for you, making senseless solution to problem/ situation we are in. May be from the very start we already knew that we are incompatible. Our dreams are different, the way we do our things are different, almost everything seem to be different between us. May be that the reason i am attracted to you.

Still remember when we first get together, we just wanted to try out whether we are really suitable. Childish huh? But it turn out to make me fall for you. You poison my life nakig you the only antidote. This was why i always love the song Wu Ke Jiu Yao as i felt it descript how it was like.

What amaze me was that we still manage to get together again despite years. I don't think my 21st birthday is aa memorable as my19th birthday as it was the day i start meeting you after so long. I am just like a boy who is easily contented having a candy in hand.

Sometime i wish that i am able to freeze at the moment. It just 1 of a happiest period for 21 years. I know it was never possible. As fairy tale never happen in reality, we start facing some issue. Not being understanding for each other, not giving time/ attention to each other. Work/school/ family was somehow an issue. Both wanted more freedom. May be our defination of freedom is totally different too. I wanted to continue to do what i want/ what i wish. You wanted more time to stay at home or with your friend. Compromise was the solution but it seem like it bever happen at all.

And 1 day anger made me and you to do something that i never wish for. Breaking up was the reality. Those message still can be vividly remembered, the feeling felt when reading those words/message remain in me even till today. I want to get out of it but the poison which you had gave me was too strog for my heart to overcome.

I am happy and dissapointed when it seems like you had move on with your life. Thinking why and how you are able to move on sometime might make me feel jealous yet angry. Sometime i wish i can really know how u felt and how i wish you are able to feel how i feel.

On the other hand, so what if you know how i feel? We wouldn't get back together right? Why not just suffer till you get numb of the feeling. Wasn't it the process which a heart broken person have to go through?

All i know now that no matter what i wish/ wants won't happen. I haven't forget the promise we made on the first day we got together again. There won't be any 4th time as if the 3rd isn't able to work out, what will be the 4th be like?

You wanted me to be like aaron but it isn't easy and i have failed for many time. You told me not to waste our time waiting for each other but well i have waited for so long. So what the additional hours/ days make?

Wonder when i am able to get pver with it. I don't wabt to suffer like this anymore.

2010-10-23T21:30:00.000-07:00

ARGH! My internet browser is giving so much problem. Especially when I surf facebook. I am log out almost immediately after i sign in. IRRITATING! Think I have been typing the password for don't know how many time before I can go to the page I want to go.

Wanted to blog yesterday night after I had coffee with Aaron, Amanda and See Kiang. Its the second meeting after 5 years for See Kiang. It seem quite fun to re-live our past for like an hour or two. It just make you feel that time passes so fast. But no matter how fast it have pass in the past, the reality always seem slower, lets not mention the future. Will be ORD-ing in August next year, fifth of August to be exact. Yes I know that it is less then a year but thinking that you need to go thru another 9+ agony long month doing nothing practical and intellectual, its going to be super boring and painstaking.

Will be booking in later in the night. Feel like meeting someone for dinner but not so sure whether the someone will be okay with it. Haven't met the someone for quite long. Just have the urge to meet her after so long. Just for a meal only. Just see whether I still want to do so later. After all I am indecisive; may be I will be pausing in-front of the phone for couple of minutes before I decide to type the message! I will see how. May be I will be staying at home and not going anywhere.

I want to watch mega-mind! I know its somehow like a lame show but I still want to watch. Watch the thriller a few month back and had wanted to catch the show once its been release. Let see who am I able to catch to accompany me to watch the show!

Let me see. I haven't been drinking for the pass 2 weeks. Had a very bad craving to go drinking for the past few days! I am not a hardcore drinker but just love the feel of slightly high... Don't you agree that its quite fun? Next week won't be going for sure as I will be in Malaysia. May be the week after next when my parents is away in Taiwan.

Guess what. I have start installing IE 8 before I start typing this blog entry and now I am going to end this entry but the installing is not even 25%. My computer is age-ing.

2010-10-22T22:05:00.000-07:00

Weekend seem like a homely affair for me now. Some time I just feel there is no where in singapore that will interest me anymore. What to do, who ask singapore to be a small place which simply lacks of attraction.

Downloading games to my itouch and trying to figure how to download games to my long forgotten PSP. Need truck loads of entertainment to entertainment for next week in camp. May be I will be going to the library to find some books too.

Will be heading down to malaysia again next week with my parents and relative and this means that I am able to drive again. YES! But hope my dad will let me drive longer.

Now I am thinking where to go later. Just want to go out and relax but don't know where to go. HAIZ..

2010-10-21T04:58:00.000-07:00

Dengue, malaria is some illness i won,t be surprise when i go see a doctor if i fall sick. Ext time. The mosquitoes here are really crazy... Bitting every single part of me, injecting super lot of virus... Drawing super lot of blood from me... Its driving me insane! Doing nothing every single day, slacking in my bunk, reading, sleeping and rotting. How am i able to take such a lifestyle for anothe 6 weeks? Its really driving me insane!!!

Heard a good news from my sister. My parent are leaving for taiwan like on the start of november! 1 week of freedom i think... Just hope the figure in my bank account is able to be positive for me to party!

Just took flu medication, hoping the drowsy effect can allow me to sleep soundly later. I don't like waking up in the middle of the night just to scratch ... That super troublesome qnd irritating.

Cant ait to go back to jurong. Its far more comfortable over there despite the distqnce going thru and fro from home. But who cares the mere 2 hour plus trAvelling time as u spend super long time incamp.

1 more day to book out. I will perservier!

2010-10-18T17:51:00.001-07:00

Fuck. this is the third time i am typing this entry. its getting me quite piss off now. If this entry is accidentally delete again, i am going to kill everyone.

Getting easily agitated recently. Don' really know what the reason for it but just feel quite sorry for those people around me as they are the one getting my lousy attitude.

When to watch the movie Eat Pray love on sunday. Was kind of amaze with the presence of primary school kids watching the show. Wonder do they really understand the show or they seemly just watch it for entertainment. The show somehow require some thinking inorder to truely understand what the scriptwriter and director wanted to show.

Guess what, i am totally bored in camp (seletar) now. I am wasting every single second nua-ing in bed. Just hope the time will fly even faster. Anyway yesterday was my first night in seletar camp. Wasn't that bad just that its kind of insanely warm and humid at night. The commando mosquitoes was another enemy. They are totally starve and thirsty as they attack almost every single part of your body. Think i am going to stop sleeping the afternoon inorder to KO at night. 3 more nights to go before booking out! tolerate tolerate tolerate.

I am just hoping my dad will quickly buy a new phone now. I want to steal his Htc Snap which i got for him. How i wish someone will get me a black berry phone.

realize that i am wanting so many things yet i am so lazy to ask/save up. Haven't really ask my IC yet on my safety course yet. hope i am able to take it soon as before the funding end.

Let me see what else i want. A new apple laptop, a new black berry phone, may be change a new hp line, a motor license, a motorcycle, a car,a trip to somewhere out of singapore and having winter season now. I also won't mind a new watch even i don't really wear one.

How i wish a fairy got mother/father/God of fortune/santa clause is reading my blog.

2010-10-16T00:34:00.000-07:00

The weather is freaky warm the day before, yesterday and today. Just pray that tomorrow the weather won't be so hot. Melting every single second as I am trying not to waste electricity by turning on the air-con.

Shifted to seletar camp yesterday and was horrified by the condition of the place. It totally look like the old alexander hospital. The room is so cramp with very little walking space, the number of fans is far lesser then what we have back in jurong camp despite the the place is slightly bigger. 16 - 22 people squeeze into a small bunk which i think normally 8-12 people sleeps is super bad. Especially the weather now is bad. Night time might be just bad as day time.

The canteen near to our bunk was ....., the toilet was .... the building was .... well in short, the place is really in a bad shape.

Well on the other hand, going back home is just 20 minutes away. Isn't that good? Fast and convenient.

Went out with my niece and cousins for Yong Tau Foo at henderson. Ordered super lots of food which cost only $16. Wasn't that bad... just the waiting/que-ing time is bad. By the time I reach home, it was like 430 in the morning. May be we should organize more cousins gathering.

Wasn't in the mood to go out today. Feel like resting at home, watch TV, use the computer and sleep.... And I shall continue doing it now..

2010-10-02T22:50:00.000-07:00

Seems like Seng Kang people are all weak people. So many people went to the polyclinic that day. My doctor was the best. Made me wait for almost 2.5 hour while other consultation room seem to have patients going in and out. Consulted the doctor for only less then 5 minutes and was given lots of medication, super duper lots of medication. 112 pills of paracetamol, 2 bottles of eye drops and 7 pills of flu medication for my insomnia.

Made a impromptu relationships between the waiting hours, quantity of pills and name of doctor.

Here it goes : The longer your doctor name is, the longer you have to wait before you can consult him. The longer you wait for him, the more medication you will be prescribed. The more medication the doctor prescribe, the more money you have to pay.

Yesterday was quite a great day! Went out with Hui Ching and accompany her to go shop her stuff before we head down to CU. Was shock to see someone at CU as i didn't really expect the person to go down to CU that very night. Well, seem like everyone is having their own life happily.

Actually wanted to meet you out,have a dinner or brunch or supper. I was shock that you are still pissed with me. Hmm felt that its really kind of disappointed with you. Getting so work out for such a minor issue is like so not your style. Its kind of "XIAO SHI DA ZUO" If you want to continue your this kind of "to accommodate to your request, your wish way" I really don't know what to do.

Another issue that somehow make me feel so irritated was that I have to pay to go to someone birthday party?! Kind of crazy right? Paying 22 bucks to attend someone birthday party is like the first time I receive such an invite. Normally we will start polling all the money and try to give a big ang pao. And that was like around 20 bucks a person. What more this birthday party is held together with another friend. So this means we have to contribute to 2 presents. You may think that we are such a miser to complain on all this stuff. But isn't it kind of unconventional birthday invites.

2010-09-30T22:43:00.001-07:00

May be I am having kind of bad of PMS as somehow every single things will make me feel irritated. Even the slightest itch on my skin will make me go crazy. Wonder is it the pills for the numbness of my chin area had somehow stimulated my other nerve in the rest of my body to be more sensitive to all the different feeling. I do not know.

What make me boils is that this morning I receive a call from my CQ who was simply a bitch. Come on! You can check when my MC ends from log books or ask my bunkmate right? You don't have to call me like 8 am just to ask me such a stupid question. It took me so much effort to make me fall asleep but 1 bloody call had make me wake up. It fuel my PMS mood and somehow it evolve to some freaky monster mood that I will start an argument/ quarrel with anyone at anytime.

I am going to see a doctor later. So those who are staying in Seng Kang who is planing to see a doctor, do watch where you are walking. Do not step on my toes or else I will step in your bloody face. The best is go hougang polyclinics or go see the doctor tomorrow.

I was watching a show on animal planet called "whale war" and was kind of shock/ disappointed with all of those anti-whaling extremist. HELLO! if you are saying that the japanese was the one who are so call violent (bullet was shots and the extremist suspected its the japanese whaling boat) think who was the one who started the attack first. Who was the one who launched what "stinking bomb" what "slippery flour" on to the decks of the japanese boat. Who was the one who initiated such a violent act.

Some time I don't really understand those extremist mind. Especially those environmental freaks. For those who are against whaling, may be they just start asking people to eat vegetables as chicken is also a life. For those who say stop global warming all those crap right... shouldn't they stop taking airplane, don't even think of driving and may be they should start protesting against those who do not want nuclear power plant? Its kind of contradicting when you see people protest over environmental problem. If you say save the animal by turning vegetarian, aren't you competing foods with the herbivore who requires the vegetables for survival? And wouldn't it some how disrupt the food chain? In the end you are not giving your body sufficient nutrients (as not all nutrient can be found in plants) then you suffer from this and that then what will happen? Its always lots of uncertainty for every weird action you take.

What more their way of protest is also funny. Some people strip to their bare body just to ask people to turn vegetarian. Cute huh? Or simply just want to use this time to gain some spotlight for themselves. May be this is why lady gaga's meat suit she wore to VMA made some animal activist unhappy. Firstly, she is wear MEAT and secondly, she is not nude.

What a weird world.

Anyway what I type here/ mention here is simply just what i am thinking! So if I make someone who accidentally read my entry then I have to say TOOO BAD! That my PERSONAL opinions.

Will be going to see a doctor soon for my insomnia, headache and my dry eyes. The PMS boy is leaving the house soon. The warning siren is going to sound soon..... MUHAHA

2010-09-30T00:56:00.001-07:00

Sometime I just do not know why people just love say that they know you so well and they know more then what I have expect them to know about my life. It just kind of weird to hear/see this phrase. How well people do you exactly know about me?

Let me tell you what I know about myself. I have a very weird mood swing that come and go whenever they want. Not very often but my mood will change drastically. I love to go out but I must have the right mood before I will enjoy myself. Being forced to go out will never be an enjoying activity for me. I don't like to go out when I am totally broke. I don't really like to go out in the day as I simply just like to rest and chill at home before going out. I do not love to make decision and I love to change thing(s)/decision(s) at the very last minute as and when I like.

I don't like people to act super mature when they are not and I love to be myself whenever I can. Call me childish or what but I don't even give a fuck about it.I love to KAO BEI at the slightest thing that does not make me feel very comfortable to SEE, LISTEN, FEEL, EXECUTE... etc. I love to use crude language but I have no intention of scolding anyone unless the person had somehow provoke me.

I don't like to take bus/train as I don't like to squeeze with so many people. I also don't like to go crowded place as I don't like the feeling that someone is watching you even there isn't. I will normally either drive or take a cab whenever I want to go out. I am a mummy boy and I don't really like to stay out late as I normally want to sleep before 3 or 4. Another reason why I want to go home early is my mother will simply KP me non-stop and she will wait for me to go home before she will sleep. Think about you enjoying yourself happily while your mother wait for you at home... WILL YOU STILL ENJOY?

I don't like my life even if I am smiling everyday.

I don't like people to be sensitive even if I might be sensitive.

Whenever I made a sacrifice, I expect you to do so one day. If you don't then somehow I will start to have a different perspective of you. After all if you know me well, I love to condemn many people. This is why I made so many people don't like me as I will treat people differently especially those who I so called condemn.

So how many of the things I have stated is what exactly you know/expected? And this lists isn't all of it. So how well do you exactly know me?

2010-09-28T01:21:00.000-07:00

BORED! I am really sick of staying at home! My MC is extended for another week. Think by the end of MC I will kind of cherish slightly the time in camp.

For now, I need to cherish all the interesting program the cable TV is airing, at least it help me kill some time.

Went in to malaysia on last saturday and it was awesome. Love driving especially on those old road. Learn some skills from my dad too... especially overtaking some vehicle on a one-lane road, crossing a big HUMP on fast speed. So many things for me to learn before I will start driving into malaysia alone.

Went to Muar to pray first before going all the way to mallaca for my NONYA retreat! Sadly I can't eat much due to soft diet but at least I manage to eat like 50% of a bowl of NONYA curry noodle and 80% of a NONYA chendol which is topped with lots of GULA-MELAKA. After lunch, we went to do some marketing. Things there are kind of cheap. Cheaper then what you can find in Johor.

Wanted to drive all the way to IPOH for dinner before rushing back to Singapore but my dad don't want to take the risk as both my sister and I aren't really super experience. My dad suggested going Genting Highland but my mum didn't want as she say we didn't bring clothing up. May be next time we will be going to Genting Highland.

Drove all the way back to this small town call Ayer Hitam for dinner. It was a small run down shops which serve kind of superb food minus. It will be even better if the houseflies is being MINUS from our dinning table. The meal was cheap. i think 3 dish 1 soup, 3 plate of rice, 1 plate MUI FAN and 4 herbal tea cost only RM 59. Convert back to SGD will be just like $20+.

I simply just love this type of 1 day trip. Travel into malaysia, eat, see and go back home. What more I don't even have to spend a single cents as my parents are there to pay for it!

Went to see my surgeon on monday. She say my mouth aren't big enough! Wonder how long more before my mouth can open as wide as before. Most likely I will be able to remove a plastic piece from my teeth and i will be able to eat solid food then. I am hoping that I will be able to book in on monday or tuesday as i think there are quite some stuff for me to do.

Think I will eat Macdonald after removing the plastic piece. Talking about my teeth reminds me on my nightmare I had yesterday night. I dream that i got my front tooth drop out! I was like OMG what should I do. Luckily it is just a dream. If not I wonder how long more my braces still need to remain in my mouth just to close the mouth.

GTG and watch my show now.. CYA

2010-09-22T22:47:00.000-07:00

BORED BORED BORED... Woke up when my sister left the house for work at 630. This means I am awake for more the 6 hours already. Luckily my MC ending tomorrow.

Will be going to malaysia on saturday and most likely will be back on the same day. Since I can't eat much... may be will will drink the gravy of the nonya laksa, eat the chendol which is lots of gula-malaka on it. YUM!

Most importantly I can get to drive. Its been so long since I drive a long journey. Love to drive to far destination but sadly can't smoke whenever I want. Its the best when I am driving on my own; smoke at any stop I want. Don't even think I get to chew chewing gum too.

Think the plan will be leaving the house at a super early timing, go to Muar and pray before heading down to malacca for lunch. Nothing much to shop there, may be get a few kueh kueh and come back. Dinner can go to Johor and eat sea food. May be I can eat small pieces of prawn, sting rays, chicken and porridge. Not that bad either since I am so bored at home and in Singapore.

If I am back on time.. may be will go drinking!!! Anyone want go???

As for Sunday... may be out for movie in the day/ night and go home and rest... I think that what I will do for this short weekend.

2010-09-22T01:04:00.000-07:00

LANTERN FESTIVAL and its going to rain! At least it make me feel happy! At least got more people to accompany me not enjoying today festival! Sounded evil right? But who cares? Lets not forget those of my camp mate who are in camp too!

Okay enough of being evil. Felt quite happy today for no reason. May be had a good night sleep and the weather is just cooling enough.

Numbness around my chin area some how seem to get slightly better. The area of numbness had shrink slightly too. Even if its just slightly its still better. May be its mental or because of the nerve exercise (don't get shock as there is really this exercise) or the medication is working for me.

MC will be ending on this friday and this means that I am able to go out! Go out and enjoy the city life, breath in the polluted city air but still have to eat super semi-solid food. May be will go out and catch a movie or what .... if not may be go and get a drink or something like that . 60 more hours! I will TAHAN!

Still in a debt. Now I know what exactly is the danger having credit card. My dad had already confiscated 3 card from me but somehow its still does not really work. I still owe him around $1 K i think. Last month had spend more then $1.5 K which is like hmmm 3 times the pay I am earning now. Its bad, very bad and super bad.

I think my room computer is kind of old already. Its slowing down day by day. May be a year later it might take a year to start up and 1 decade to shut down. Think of reformatting the computer but just lazy to re-install/re-transfer all the software/music.

Got to go now. HUNGRY...

2010-09-20T00:50:00.000-07:00

Receive an email on Facebook. Kind of weird to so call end a relationship via that way. I have long wanted and expected it but well may be as usual I don't have the courage to tell you.

You are too busy with work and I don't have kind of time restrictions as I am stay in camp on week days. Hope you will find someone who can better suits your hectic working schedules.

But guess what... Now I am back into single again... 1 more friend now. No commitment, more time and more space in my mind to think of other things.

Went for my medical appointment today. Eating solid food is still weeks away. May be 3 more weeks (faint!) but may be I am able to return back to camp soon. This 3 weeks I am bored to the max by staying at home, rotting, sleeping and eating. It just set me wondering how am I able to eat when I am back in camp... May be maggie bee hoon for breakfast and lunch, instant porridge for dinner!

Haven't totally recover completely yet as I can't really open my mouth as big as before. My dentist say I must be able to open to fit a burger. I will try to pry it open every day! Sadly I have temporary/ permanently lost my sensitivity to touch on my lower lip/chin area. Taking pills and doing nerve exercise to re-activate the feeling again. Just hope it will come back soon!

6 weeks after operation for the jaw bone/chin bone to stabilize, 6 months for the bone to grow back; in total, 7.5 month I am not be able to bite on any crab shell! And 7.5 month I must not get any slap/ punch from anyone. May be I should go to the doctor and get excuse being slap/punch. Who know it might come in handy.

Waiting for october/november to come. Had so many activity kind of arranged into that 2 month. Malaysia, malaysia with Spencer, Daryl, Jie Sheng they all may be with marshmallow as well! Dinner treat @ Pan Pacific from Hwee Zhen! Steam-boat with Marshmallow! My dad birthday! And best is may be my mum and dad is going to taiwan and this means that I am going to have FREEDOM!

Will be giving this years MOONCAKE festival a miss as I can't eat it. May be next year will be the revenge year.

Enjoy everyone!

2010-09-15T22:47:00.000-07:00

Finally the rubber band that bind my 2 jaw is out. Felt quite relieve that I am able to "tahan" the discomfort the rubber band had caused.

Remove the band a day earlier then expected as normally it will be there for 14 days after the surgery but mine was removed on the 13th day. Stitches was also removed that day. It was kind of painful that I almost cried. Especially the stitch at in between your nose and you front tooth, inside the lip. That was the worst.

Was expecting to be able to bite but the truth was otherwise. I still need to swallow my food. The difference is the state of the food. Now I am able to eat maggie, bee hoon but have to mash up till like baby food. Swallowing every mouthful is difficult and uncomfortable. Numbness at my lower lip made it worst as it get quite messy when the food flow out with out me feeling it. Hope the numbness will disappear soon.

No matter what, I ought to be thankful that the operation was successful and there isn't any scar(S) even it took super long!

All I have to do now is to exercise my mouth, allowing it to open wider (now I am able to open till a finger wide. May be soon I also have to practice/ exercise my tongue to make it more flexible..... (optional)!

MC will be ending soon. But doctor say that she will be extending my MC as I am still not able to eat. Camp food is consist of a plateful of rice! HOW am i able to swallow it?

Hope I am able to recover fast so that I am able to eat! Was planning to go malaysia with my family on the 25th of september but can't now as I am still not able to eat! Will be arranging another outing to malaysia with spencer, jie sheng they all to go to malaysia to eat seafood!

Before that, I will be planning a steamboat first. Craving for it. Lucky Phoebe was kind enough to volunteer to help me plan! Thank YOU girl!

May be I will be adding korean BBQ to the list too. Had been seeing alot of shows recommending korean BBQ.YUM YUM!

2010-09-05T20:47:00.000-07:00

After so many days after resting at home, I decide to go type an entry on my blog to vent my boredom to the virtual world! I am so so bored. Can't go out as I am att C and I wouldn't even go out with such a swollen face.

Today is already 6 days after my surgery and luckily my face start to grew abit smaller then what it look like 6 days ago. Surgery was quite successful even thought that it took a whole long 11 hours instead of the estimated 5-6 hours due to my surgeon wanted to get the most accurate mid-line for my chin. Heard from my surgeons that they change the position of my chin for more then 5 time before they decide to fix it to its current position now.

It was my first time entering the operating theatre and undergoing general anesthetic. The theatre was almost like those in drama but just that there are special computers. The scary part was 5 doctors, 7 nurses start tying you to the operation theatre even before they administer the general anesthetic. Some how it was like how they are going to dissect a human alive! Luckily they administer the general anesthetic shortly after they finally decided on what size of tube they are going to use. It kind of freak me out when you hear the doctor still discussing about the size the tube they are going to use, what worst was that they don't even know that there isn't the tube of the size carried in the hospital.

The doctor didn't even ask me to count. All they do is ask me breath, breath and breath. After like 5 deep breath, my ear became blocked and next moment, I am into my coma. Woke up at 8 pm, didn't really have much recollection to it but all i know I was super pissed, super uncomfortable. Felt like peeing but it wasn't as there was a super long tube already being stuff up my dick which will drain out the pee. My leg was super cramp, I am feeling as if I was burning and my parent telling me that my operation was longer than estimated.

Woke up at 11 pm at and didn't really sleep much after that as the temperature of the room (the air con was already set at 18 Degree Celsius) was still too warm for me.In the end, the nurse was kind enough to get me a stand fan, blowing directly at me just to keep myself cool. My 3 surgeon came at around 8 am and told me about my surgery and arranged the nurse for me to see one of the surgeon at the dental clinic at around 830.

On the way to the dental clinic I manage to see my swollen face. It was so terrible and super ugly if I really have to use the word. Its like 2 time of my normal face, lips were swollen like sausages and my chin was wrap up. I was SHOCKED!

After the consultation, the surgeon/dentist told me that I am able to leave ICU and transfer to normal ward. The new ward was the worst ward of the 3 days there which I asked my surgeon whether I am able to discharge on the day itself.

Kind of happy with quite a number of people turn up to pay me a visit. Really apologized to those who came during my surgery and wasn't able to visit me as I still had a knife stuck in my mouth! Nicholas came to see me for like 2 days out of 3 days. I was super touched by him as he was the one who made my second last meal before surgery interesting. He bought me onion rings from BK to add on to the hospital food!

Now my mouth is totally sealed and not being able to speak and eat(bite). Really felt quite bad especially seeing my mum super worried after my surgery. Cooking soup everyday, draining out all the pulps from all the juices i wanted to drink, trying to remind me not to blow my nose .etc. My dad also became even more busy too. Trying to help my mum to buy all those stuff she needs....

Next appointment will be on the 13th september at 230pm. Hope I will be able to remove the rubber band by then. If the surgeon really does it.... it means I am able to eat!!!!

2010-08-30T05:39:00.000-07:00

guess what... i am blogging from the hospital bed. tml will be one of the biggest event of the year to me. I am going to have my surgery tomorrow. Now i am resting in what i consider the best C CLASS ward i ever saw.

The C Class we normally know was so different from what i am staying now. The is only 5 bed instead of 8, the place is fully air condition and well the service wasn't that bad but just that there isn't any Tv! luckily my dad pass me his htc snap for me to surf the internet, videos and music in my ipod to entrtain me.

i wonder whether i am able to sleep to night. Think i will be super freak out by tml surgery. just pray hard nothing will happen okay.

if anything really happen, i just hope everyone the best and wanna thankz my parent for being the best parent i ever noe.

i think the rest of the patient in the ward must be thinking what happen to me as it seem like i am perfectly fine! what more confussing thing was that 3 doctor came (my 3 surgeon for tml operation) and just ask me to smile;... i think they will be super shock to c my face bloated tml!!!

all the best to me okay!

2010-08-08T23:56:00.000-07:00

Realize that I haven't been blogging for super long time till I almost don't even remember setting up this account!

Finally, after so long, I still have around 363 days to ORD. At least I don't need to count by years as I can start counting by month! 10 month was fast and memorable but now my daily activity is already like a routine. Nothing much interesting to make me to look forward to except ORD!

Will be going for my operation very soon. Less then a month time and some how I regret choosing the date, 31st August. Need to admit into the hospital for around 4 days and guess what.... ITS LUNAR 7th MONTH! Think I am going scare the freak out of myself! Hope everyday they will just inject me with some sleepy medication to make me knock out easily.

Kind of scare of my operation as its going to take 6-7 hours. Just pray hard that the operation will be successful without any complication. No matter what, wish me luck and hope that I can look more handsome after the operation.... sound like I am going to do a FULL FACE plastic surgery like that.... NO NO NO, I am doing my jaw operation after doing the braces treatment for almost 4 years.

After the operation I will be on MC at home resting for around 6 weeks... I think....! It will be BORING as I don't think I have much things that can keep me occupies for like 6 weeks!

Anyway... I have made up my mind! And really appreciate that you all accepted my decision and gave me your blessing. Sorry that I took so long to tell you all, but at least I told you all now. SO I DIDn't HIDE ANYTHING NOW!

2010-06-25T06:42:00.000-07:00

Haven't really have much time to use the computer and this is why i felt so isolated from the technology world. Finally I have sometime time for myself today, enjoying sometime on the net, clearing my mails, play some facebook games which I haven't been playing for sometime.

Had a mini movie marathon yesterday as me and some of my campmates watch 4 movies through out the night, resulting in the SHAGGED people today. Finally I watched the show Orphan and it was super SICK! Now i know why all my ex-colleagues can't stop mentioning the name ESTHER for weeks after they watch the show last year.

I also manage to try the new fast food chain "Wendy" yesterday and I had 1/4 pound beef burger. It is awesome as the beef taste good and the fries is crispy and not too salty. Even the material they use to wrap the burger is also different. The concept of the store was great too as they have tables for customer to have their meal standing so that they are able to squeeze in more table in the small area of space.

This week is kind of short and peaceful as the devil in camp was present. Tomorrow still need to go back camp for duty. TURN OFF!!! Will be attending my cousin wedding this sunday. This means that my weekend is BURN again.

2010-06-06T02:07:00.000-07:00

Sadly weekend have come to an end! Need to book in real sooN. Looking at the bright side, the devil will be posted real soon and can't wait for the angel to take its place. Heard the angel was far better then the devil. Hope the angel can just change the whole culture of the company to a more HUMANLY culture which can make our life more simple and less stressful.

My weekend have been shorten from 2 days to just a pathetic 1 day as I need to pay back the off days I have owe the company due to the 1 month leave which I was FORCED to take, used up all my precious leaves, and taking those unnecessary off just to make up to 1 month leave!

Every saturday I will need to wear green, doing the most useless role in the NDP rehearsal with those people who were forced to take the 1 month leave; helping our company people buy drinks, look after their stuff for the whole day. I don't really understand why can't we just do something more useful and more significant as I doubt anyone will be thankful for our service and we won't get any benefits as the rest have. But what can I do? Who will care about us? After all, that is a organization of hypocrites. All the people just knows how to paint a beautiful picture with their mouth.

1 year and 2 month for me to complete before I will fuck off IMMEDIATELY!

Some say that time will pass very fast but I doubt so. Being Singaporean is just so irritating!

2010-06-03T21:18:00.000-07:00

Book in on Wednesday night and find it quite difficult to sleep as I think I am not tired at all. Chat with my bunk mate till 12+ am before they fell asleep, leaving me rotting in the bed, trying to wait for 545am, the time I was suppose to wake up.

Woke up at 4 instead as the temperature in the room was just to high! Had breakfast at 6am before rotting till 730am then I start working! Wasn't feeling as I was suffering a bad headache, flu and even nausea. Went to Jurong East polyclinic and waited for almost 1.5 hour before I manage to leave the place.

2 days MC and this means that i will be at home resting and rotting. Slept the whole evening yesterday as i think the medication causes drowsiness. Despite sleeping for long hours during the late afternoon till evening, I still manage to sleep at night soundly till today morning!

Wasn't a good morning despite the long hour of sleep. Felt quite lethargic and wasn't even feeling good. Just feel like sleeping again and again! I have to resist the feeling of sleeping again as I am just afraid that i won't be able to wake up early tomorrow as i need to book in at 730am!

Many saturday will be burnt till national day is over. Don't even know will I be able to attend Spencer's commissioning parade. Just pray hard that I will be able to attend it.

2010-06-01T03:08:00.000-07:00

1 month of my break from army is going to end soon! 1 more day and I will be back wearing green.

1 month past like a wink of an eye. Had many thing happen during this 1 month and I kind of enjoy this whole month to the fullest.

Was quite lucky that my birthday happen during my leave period and thus I am able to celebrate my 21st year old birthday with my family. I also had a celebration at CU and a mini-celebration with my god- sister at Givande. I also manage got to feel the terrible drunk feeling on my birthday night as well. No matter what I have to thanks everyone who turn up for my birthday celebration.

My course on safety is also coming to an end. Didn't regret taking the course as it somehow help me to refresh my memories on some part of my diploma course. My course mate are also a bunch of crazy people and we manage to click together despite our AGE barrier. I was the youngest in the whole class! Didn't just learn safety alone, I also learn about how construction side operate, hydroblasting and etc. Realize that no matter how hard you try to understand from books, you will never be able to get a clear picture till someone who had the first hand experience explain to you.

From the course I also learn quite a bit of english too! But the most important about this course was it makes me wonder whether I want to steer my future to safety. Lucrative but high responsibility! I also feel like taking part time degree instead of doing full time as i want to work! Start to work at the age of 26 seem like kind of too old to start! WHY just they don't have more/longer exemption my course I am studying!

Feel shitty now, especially thinking that I am going back tomorrow!

Anyway, I just realize the best things about being 21. You can get more money from the government!

2010-05-25T05:26:00.001-07:00

Happy birthday to myself! To Anthea, Raymond too! Had a mini celebration yesterday at a pub and was quite poor thing as being a birthday boy, you have nothing to do except to drink. Luckily I am not drunk yesterday!

Saw the photo of the party and I realize how unglamorous I look when I was sleeping. Have to admit that night I was so drunk that I didn't even know who took the photo as I need to get the photo to post it up on facebook.

Overall I spend around $400 inclusive of yesterday's mini beer birthday party!

Finally an adult! Yang Tze Theatre here i come! Muhaha

2010-05-23T01:57:00.000-07:00

Finally the birthday party was over! Really appreciate those who turn up and those who had tried their best to turn up! It was a really enjoyable night and I hope everyone think so too!

Was drunk terribly and was knock out directly after I cut the cake! I even lie on the floor! Really thank those who took care of me when I was gone!

No matter what, I still manage to get home and wake up in the morning and attend my cousin wedding lunch! Congrats to the newly wed couple and wish them all the best!

2010-05-16T05:49:00.000-07:00

Finally the course will start tomorrow. Been rotting till the maximum for the past 1 week. Didn't do much but spend much. Have been going out for mahjong, coffee, supper and birthday party which costed me a very big hole in my wallet!

Spencer is back! Picked him up with eunice on Friday night at the airport and went out to eat our late supper at HENDERSON market after he went home and put his bags. Driving that night was bad as the rain just continue falling to the ground, road marking wasn't really visible and worst was some of the area have some holes/ chocked drainage which cause the collection of rainwater to form a big puddle of water.

Had Yong Tao Foo at the HENDERSON market and was kind of turn off by the stall assistant attitude. Waited for sometime before our turn came then the uncle was like fucking pissed for no reason. Therefore, I gotten attitude for nothing too!

Had 2 birthday celebration yesterday. Went to Gary's 21st birthday part at Lentor vale. Was lost for more then 30 minute before I found the place. Totally SHAG by the time I reach the place. Stay for 2 hour before I went to Pasir Ris to attend and stay over at Sheng Long's birthday chalet. Had BBQ before we started playing Mahjong. Was quite happy yesterday as overall I won.

2010-05-08T23:05:00.000-07:00

3rd day of my 1 month leave and I am already bored till death. With only $3 in my bank, $5 in my EZlink card, it seem like there is no where I can go. Waiting for tomorrow when the figure will just jump to a more presentable figure. There again, $150 goes to credit card bill, $50 go to my army friend for the phone, $50 goes to my EZlink card and the rest is for me to eat. No more clubbing or pubbing this month except on the 22nd this very month!

I have finally decided to hold my birthday party at CU. Quite an expensive event for me as I think I am going to spend more then my farewell night which I had organize last year. Hope $500 will be enough for that night. That is like my 1 month pay! Since there is only 1 21st in every life time, my as well make it more memorable.

Did I mention that I will be taking a course during this 1 month leave? Yup, I will be taking 1 on 17th till 2nd next month! Saw the course structure and I think I will sleep throughout the whole lecture. 8.30 am till 6 pm, monday to friday!

Looking forward to Sheng Long's 21st birthday Chalet on this coming saturday and hope it will be FUN!!!! Been some time since I went for a chalet. Think the last time was like 1 year back when I have a minor accident. Think I will be staying overnight as long as the place isn't pack. Hate to be stuck in a room super packed with people. Will see how!

Had a mini-mother day celebration at Sakura Restaurant yesterday night. Hope my mum had enjoy the dinner. Had a hard time trying to book the place but manage to get the place at Keat Hong Shopping Centre (I know what you are thinking!) after trying so many place. When the person direct me to the outlet at Keat Hong Shopping centre, I was like where on earth is this place. It was super ULU and it just appear out of no where, inside a HDB estate. WEIRD!

Will be rotting the whole day at home! BORED!

2010-05-02T20:40:00.000-07:00

Finally my guard duty for yesterday have finally come to an end! Its my first time doing guard duty in my this present camp and its super tiring especially you have to walk a super long distance! But whatever it is, it have finally come to an end!

I must admit that it feel so good when I step into powerhouse on Friday night. I really enjoy that night as I drank till I was super high. Booked out from camp in the afternoon and went straight to my aunt house to see my niece as I will be missing her birthday which was on Sunday, my guard duty day!

Didn't really play with my niece as she was deeply asleep. Was chatting with my cousin-in-law and it made me realise that having 1 baby isn't cheap and easy. $10k spend within 2 months is like WOW! Its a crazy spending rate. Now i know why so many people just don't feel like having any children.

After the visit, I went straight down to Tao Payoh and meet Lynn before we have our dinner at CU (Sambal Fried Rice wash down with 2 jar of beer!) then we head down to power house at 1030.

Was shock to see Jia Jun over there. Was dancing at the dance floor and I realise that Jia jun is just next to me! Don't ever remember that we went clubbing together before. Think it will be fun that Marshmallow will organize a clubbing night together. Talking about this topic, I kind of miss spencer who went to Taiwan for almost 2 weeks liao. 2 more weeks before he will come back. BORED!

Next event of this month will be Sheng Long's 21st birthday chalet!

2010-04-24T07:34:00.000-07:00

Human beings are simply just an hypocrite, don't you ever think so? Different mask is worn whenever we face different people and change instantly to face the other person. We are an artist by nature except we do not really use this to earn us a living.

Had a conversation with someone via SMS last week which lead me to think of what I have typed/thought. It was kind of a conclusion for some issues that have struck me for couples of year. It just like mine heart being trapped in the a large and badly tangled fish net, the net that caught mine heart in the past, the net that you just let it snap and that is the net that started to tangle around my heard. Struggled to find the end of the net to untie it but after so long, it is still unsuccessful. After the conversation, feeling start to get mixed up. Happiness seem to be no where to be found as it had already being engulf by the sea of disappointment and anger. The helpless feeling grew stronger till I decided to cut the net. Its no longer worth trying to untangle it and keep it in the best condition as its no longer important now.

The cutting process was painful but it means its the start of the untangling process. It still take time to untangle it completely and I really hope someone out there would help me untangle it together.

After all its time to move on. Suffered too much in agony. Will stop wasting more time and start everything anew.

2010-04-12T22:02:00.000-07:00

Today need to book in as my 2 day MC have ended. Was send back from camp yesterday morning after reporting sick at the camp. Despite the fact that I have taken the medication prescribed to me but it seem it does not help much, therefore, I went to Seng Kang polyclinic to consult the doctor which gave me a slightly different medication which help to stop my diarrhoea which almost TIRED me to the max with the frequent visit to the toilet.

The best thing was that I was still telling my bunkmate that I am suffering from constipation for a couple of days and less then hours of the conversation, I started my frequent trip to the toilet!

Yesterday was bad as I felt just so weak. I slept for almost half of the day, trying to cool myself by sleeping just in front of the fan! The weather yesterday was super warm and worst was that my air-con start leaking in the middle of the night, resulting me sleeping using the fan!

This weekend will be having steamboat again! Yeah! Just love to eat steamboat. Still thinking whether I want to club on this saturday as its really been so long ever I step into a club!

2010-04-11T02:44:00.000-07:00

Yesterday birthday celebration was good. Had our dinner at this korean BBQ steamboat at Bugis before we head down to CU for cake cutting and drinking session.

The steamboat wasn't that fantastic as there isn't much variety but what can we expect to have when we only pay $18.80 right? So I conclude that dinner was just SO-SO only. Left the group half way during dinner to buy the cake for the cake cutting session. Wanted to go Vivo City to buy the cake as I couldn't find Bakerzine at Bugis Junction. Due to the time constrain, I decided to buy the New York Cheese Cake from NYDC instead. The cake was okay and it does not taste as bad as I thought.

Met them at CU after they finnish their dinner. Ordered 2 Tower and drink while playing the game taught to us by Jie Sheng. Time flies when ever you are enjoying it. Tried to make Phoebe drunk but wasn't really successful as she still can message properly when she reach home. It wasn't the beer that cause her to be super HIGH but is the WATERFALL ordered by Jia Jun which KILLED her. WATERFALL is just so pretty when it lighted up with fire but yet it does not taste so wonderful as it is BURNING HOT! All of them left around 1130 while I continue to stay till 145am as Spencer and Eunice came to CU too!

Early in the morning, my aunty called me which woke me up. We were suppose to meet slightly later to go Mandai together to pray to our cousin who had passed away a few years back. The meeting time were being pushed forward as my cousin didn't attend her tuition. Feeling super tired now. How I wish tomorrow is still weekend for me so I can enjoy a good night sleep at home!

2010-04-10T00:28:00.001-07:00

Raining in the morning means it will be a nice time to have a good and long sleep. Sadly, I couldn't as I got the bloody thin in the morning held somewhere opposite of the map from where I stay!

Luckily my sister changed her plan and I am able to drive to Chevron. The journey wasn't long but the rain and the sleeping debt make me feel that the time I am driving to Chevron is as good to drive to Thailand! The morning was worsen by talk they held. First half was still okay but the second half was totally crap! Its a total waste of time going there.

Going out later to celebrate Phoebe's 2THREE birthday in Bugis. Feel like going CU later but have to see the rest whether they want to go there. Wasn't in a good mood this few days. Don't really know why but what ever it is I hope it will be better!

Anyway the phone which I have bought wouldn't be mine anymore as I have decided to give it to my dad to use as I think that the phone just have too much function and application for me to use and really benefit from it. Since my dad recently gotten cheated by someone who sold him 1 lousy phone, so this phone will make it up for the phone!

Its kind of emotional when you look through your phone and the break-up message is still there despite the fact that I have deleted it long long time ago. Its definitely a mystery why the message manage to re-appear. The sms messages was kept for more then 1.5 year before I decide to delete. After 5 months, IT JUST APPEAR IN YOUR PHONE!

Going to change and get my ass out of the house soon. Sometime i just feel like going out alone and relax!

2010-04-09T02:36:00.001-07:00

Finally the working week is coming to an end. Feel so happy that in less then a few hour time i will be free for about 48 hours of my time. But sadly, i can't really enjoy my 48 hours as tomorrow have some health seminar to attend in the morning.

I really don't like last minute stuff and you will be shock that dispite the person who knew about it sometime ago and now then we process the registration and have to attend the bloody thing. Our pay is already misearable yet we have super lttle of time to do what we wanted to do and now... I have to waste a few hou
r of my freedom for that bloody thing.

2010-04-06T23:05:00.000-07:00

Finally i got myself a good phone which can allow me to serve the internet while i am in camp.Guess how much i got it?! I got it at a super good price of just $200 when it is being sold for more then $300 outside.

As currently i am broke, my friend who is the ex-owner of this phone allow me to pay installment. With the installment plan, I won't feel the pain for the sudden deduction of money from my bank account when it is alnost nothing in it now.

2010-04-01T21:59:00.000-07:00

Sadly my this month wasn't being smooth. It just suck so much that I am totally lost on what I should do. This week was a short 4 days work week but yet it was hell till it felt like 1 year to me. Being fucked for things that I didn't done, being fuck for things that I have done correctly and being fucked for not being able to get some stuff from IKEA

What is this? Its really mental torture everyday, fearing that confinement will just befall on you anytime! Its stressful yet I have to go through it everyday. Wonder how long will I be able to last as the stress is just too much for me to handle. Is he just bias against me or what?

Tomorrow will be going to Malaysia. Need a getaway to relax. But even before the trip, HE had already fucked me.

This life just suck!

2010-03-09T20:27:00.000-08:00

After 4 days of MC, today I need to book in already. NO more air-con to cool myself when ever I am taking my nap or having my good night sleep on my bed at night. Tonight I will have to sleep in my bunk, feed those hungry mosquitoes which I haven't been feeding for this few days as I was absent from camp. The worst will be sleeping in the hot and humid Jurong, trying to keep yourself cooled by mental fucking yourself.

This few days is warm and hazy. Hope the morning rain will cool the temperature down and clear all the haze away. At least we know that the rain will prevent more forest fire which will stop the contribution to the haze!

I am super busy despite I am on MC for this 4 days. I was super busy trying to fill up all those form just because I want to apply scholarships with my shitty results. Felt kind of hopeless as I have lots of space/blank when I come to the part about awards and certification. Guess what? I have tried to fill all the forms for more then 3 days and I only manage to complete 70% only. Wonder how those people can seat down and fill those form within 1 day. Luckily I didn't do this on the very last day!

What was bad during this 4 days was that I have to return camp on monday just to explain to somebody about the operation of the mess which simply could be done by using the phone. Really waste of time going all the way back to Jurong for the very 1 hour and travel back all the way home. Luckily my dad was at home and he send me there and fetch me back. He was suppose to go to Tampinese to get his new HP but decide to buy it another time. He seem so interested in Blackberry phone and he wanted to get 1 within this few weeks.

The new TV series I am catching is Glee which will be aired on channel 18 at 7 pm on Wednesday and Thursday. I am kind of slow as this series have been out for sometime and I just realize it only after hearing songs from the series from the radio. Its like high school musical but its a comedy instead of those love story type of series/movie.

Talking about movie, I have not watch Dear John yet. Think I am going to give this movie a miss as I don't really like watching movie alone and I am lazy to find people to watch the movie with me.

Gosh! I am so turn off by the thoughts that I will be booking in later..... How I wish they will cut short the duration from 2 years to just 1 year or 6 months!

2010-03-05T22:33:00.000-08:00

Was reading the newspaper yesterday while I was resting in camp and read about all the scholarship being offered due to the release of 'A' level result on the very day. I just have the urge to apply a scholarship which might give me the chance to go to an overseas university to pursue the course I wanted to do. Not say local university is bad but is just that I want to do it overseas which is able to reduce the duration required to do get the degree and being able to experience a total different culture out of Singapore.

I tried to filter those scholarships listed as not all scholarships prefer on Chemical Engineering. In less then 20 minutes I realize that I only have very little choice, less then 20 to choose from. Apart from all the GPA and CCA, National Service was also part of the questionnaire. (It sound like I have completed the application but in reality, I only complete 30% of all the questionnaires) As there would be a bond needed to serve upon completion of the degree course, I have to do further research on the company profile and the actual industries they are in. After all this filtering, I am ended up with only 5 options and being a desperate person, I will apply for all 5 scholarships. Just hope that they wouldn't just look at grades.

My grades are not horrible is just that I just feel that there are more people with better grades will also apply as well. It just feel like I am applying something which is impossible for me to get. But what ever it is, I still have to try right? Just hope they will really give me the chance.

Let not talk about this scholarship topic. When to my medical appointment on Thursday and found out that I did not torn 1 ligament but 2 ligaments. One of the ligament torn was situated at the top of the ankle, the point that my weight is exert on, which means I will take long time to recover from it. If 6 month I don't show much improvement, operation would be the only choice.

I also did an X-ray for my right foot and realize that 1 of my bone is slightly shorter then normal which result in the pain I am experiencing whenever I walk.

This weekend will be a lazy weekend for me as I am kind of lazy to move around. Was wondering who wants to watch a movie now. Feel like watching either Alice in the wonderland or Dear John. It will be nice that someone drive me out too! Just too lazy to drive car today. Feeling so sleepy everyday!

This few days weather is super hot. Drink more water whenever you are and drink even more when you are expose under the scorching hot sun!

2010-02-28T01:37:00.000-08:00

Today is the last day of the lunar new year. Going to Lohey later with my family.

For this whole 15 days I simply just down of luck as i kept loosing money when ever i gamble. BAD BAD! hope after new year will be better as I simply just can't continue to loose money. Super broke when my expenses went up but my pay didn't.

The weather is super hot. Seem like I am melting soon. And therefore, I will end here.

Just want to update a short post just to clear the cobweb hanging in my blog!

2010-02-14T21:39:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Tiger have arrived and hope the tiger will bless me, my family and my friend this whole year! Have a good day visiting my relatives, gambling and drinking!

Went to my paternal side for New Year visiting after having breakfast at Mac-donald. Breakfast wasn't that fantastic as the salt they have poured into their french fries was far more then normal and it ended up making us drinking more water then usual. Visits to my paternal relative was always short as it seem like nothing to talk about. Luckily this year I have a new cousin to entertain me. Somehow realize that the way the people of our dialect seem to address people in a quite unusual way.

Drove to Boon Lay to visit my maternal side relative. Feel quite uneasy as I pass those road which will lead me to my camp. It the route that I always take to book in. As usual, we spend the longest time there. Gamble, drink, talk, watch tv and relax. Lo Hey at my aunt house and made it quite messy as about 20 people squeeze at 1 table, trying to pull the Lo Hey as high as it could. We were super noisy yet happy. Love this type of feeling. Left around 8 for Roti Prata before I have the second part of my Chinese New Year visiting.

Went to meet Daryl, Spencer, Eunice, Jie Sheng and Fish at Daryl's house. Gambled and lost some money. As Daryl have other friend for the celebration, Jie Sheng, Fish and I decided to head down to CU for part 2. The boss was like saying that his pub would be better then the integrated resort as we simply just can't stop drinking and smoking while gambling without having to pay any admission fee. Stay there till 6am before I decided to go home. 1 night, 1 pack of cigarette, 1 martell, 1 day of joy!

Going to have my lunch now before heading down to my dad friend house.

2010-02-13T00:27:00.000-08:00

Felt sad that I wasn't able to meet up with my friend at Bishan for overnight Mahjong session. 6 people turn up for the gathering except me! Its just feel sucky as you know that you couldn't go out. Hope they are able to go out tomorrow night. Hope CU is open as well.

Going to have field camp on next week and I am so not looking forward to it. Wonder what will I be doing as I am on long term status which excuses me from uneven terrain.

Don't know why I am looking forward to see my MRI result. May be I get to see how precise is this technology. May be I am also worry about my condition.

Another few more hours and we will welcome the year of tiger but I still don't haven any single bit of new year mood. May be army made my life so boring till I won't be able to enjoy any festive season as activities after activities after the festive season somehow will turn you OFF!

Got to go now. Need to help my parent to prepare the steamboat thingy.

2010-02-11T23:23:00.000-08:00

Today is my last day of MC and tomorrow I will be free again! A boring week for me as I didn't do much stuff in camp and at home. Was on 4 day MC since Tuesday but left the camp yesterday after my MRI at Changi General Hospital. It was quite frightening when the doctor told me that he suspect more then 1 ligament tear and he pushed me for MRI. Book my MRI on Tuesday and the date given was on April but received a call on Wednesday that they manage to get me a even earlier appointment which was yesterday.

It was my first experience with MRI. I was somehow quite impress with the machine and felt quite lucky that I wasn't being pushed into the small hole/tunnel inside the machine as only my leg went in. It took around 30 minute for the scan with lots of noise being heard. The machine produces super loud noise when it started the scan. Luckily there is headphone which plays nice music given to us. After MRI went back to camp and I met Fang Yi. Quite shocked to see her on board the train as I didn't expect to see anyone on the train back from CGH. Its been sometime since I ever saw her. Kind of a pleasant surprise. Didn't talk much as we only have 3 train spots duration to talk and she met her friend at the train station.

Back to camp and settle some stuff before I start making my way back to the east again. Was too lazy to take bus+train and in the end, I took cab home. Didn't cost as much as I have expected as I just paid $26 instead of the usual $30++ cab fare. Sadly I couldn't do much stuff for this few days as I am on MC. Luckily tomorrow my MC end todays!

Chinese New Year is 2 days from now and I hope everyone will have a good new year ahead!

2010-02-06T20:42:00.000-08:00

Think I am getting older as my memories start to get poorer. On Thursday I then realize that I have missed how many people birthday's date. Don't really know why I manage to know so many February born people. Tomorrow will be my mum's birthday but sadly I don't really have the chance to celebrate with her as I will be in camp.

A bad friday last week. My Best friend's grandmother pass away on thursday night and my best friend was inform first thing in the morning. But before my best friend knew about it, another of my platoon mate, whom I am quite close with, received the news that his grandfather had died. 2 friend of mine have lost their family member. My deepest condolence to them.

Booking in later. Happy that the book in timing was push later to 10pm instead of the normal 8pm. 2 hours make a big difference now. Need to pay my bills later and go out for dinner with my mum (as my dad is working) before booking in. Heard that this week will be a long and busy week for us. Just hope time flies and then I will be able to enjoy my long week end next week. Next week is Chinese New Year and yet I haven't soak myself in any festive mood. Didn't do much spring cleaning as most of the time I wasn't at home.

I am getting more and more jealous of people who are going to ORD soon or any single one who is going to ORD earlier then me. 1 year and 7 more month to go before I can ORD. Its still very LONG! I am also waiting for the medical board for their review. My leg is hurting more and more frequently now. Hope the result will be out real soon as I have already taken X hundreds of pain killer tablet, swallowed different colors, different flavor and different effect of pain killer. I know the negative effect of taking of pain killers and yet I am taking a large quantity of it. Think my liver will soon give me big problem.

Haven't been clubbing recently. Think its been 3 month already. May be should go clubbing soon. Hope on the 20th this month can go after Cheryl's birthday celebration. Miss the music and crowd over at Power House. Was at Zara over the weekend and was listening to the music they are playing. It was being compile by DJ KZ who was the DJ at power house. After listening to the music, the urge just came. Sadly I didn't manage to go as was booking in!

Went into facebook today and realize that they have change the layout again. It look just so weird. Think need time to explore where they place the usual icon.

Feeling quite down this few days. Somehow the start of February was kind of bad for me. Think it will last until my feeling is being sorted out. Just hope it could be done fast but I just don't really know where to start and how to start.

2010-01-28T00:44:00.000-08:00

Today is Thursday and yet I am at home blogging. Used my 2 day of annual leave to let me rest my body and my mind after 3 weeks of hell. Many things had happen which somewhat affect me greatly.

Some of the detail of my 3 weeks of hell couldn't be posted but all I can say it made me so worried and stress till I fainted and was admitted to hospital. Was confine for the past 2 weekend which made me realize how important my family are and really felt the care and concern. Leg wasn't better and got worst during field camp which I have to fall out and go to other camp just to see the doctor. Aaron, my best friend since primary school and was also in my platoon, was admitted send to hospital yesterday. Luckily everything was fine and he manage to discharge today.

This week marks the end of my first phase of my training. Next week will be starting my next phase. Was quite sad that I wasn't able to post out of camp for this posting. Was hoping that I can post out of this camp and go to some camp nearer to my home. Hope it will come true for the next posting.

Went to physiotherapy in the morning at Changi General Hospital. It was super painful when the therapist tried to relax my muscle by massaging. The pain was so bad that I broke out into sweat. Next appointment will be on coming Wednesday and hope it will be better.

5 hour since I reach home and I am thinking of going out! Sadly my sister is taking the car. Taking public transport is super turnoff for me. May be saturday I will try to steal the car and go out!

2010-01-10T00:35:00.000-08:00

3 week is over and the 4th week in Jurong Camp will start soon. Somehow I am starting to get use to the environment. No matter what, I still hate there as its simply just too far from home. 45 min journey by car and almost 2 hour journey by public transport.

A very long week for me last week. Book out on Saturday at 7pm and I have to book in the very next day (which is today) at 8.30 am just for re-training, book out again at 2pm and I am now at home. Going to book in at 9pm tonight. FAINT!

What's more was I slept for less then 2 hour. Went out to chill and watch movie yesterday night. Watched Sherlock Homes and I found it just alright. May be I was just too tired at that very moment. Reach home at 3am, slept at 4 am and woke up at 6 am.

Tomorrow I have an specialist appointment at CGH and it will mean that I need to travel from the extreme west to the extreme east before going back to the extreme west. Can't afford to cancel/ postpone my appointment as the next appointment would be 2 month from now. My ankle start to hurt even more now and I have no choice but to take lots of pain killer just to suppress the pain I am experiencing. Every 2 tablet after every meal became a routine. I knew that its super bad for my health but it seem like that my only choice.

Damn it! I am super tired now.

2010-01-02T20:46:00.000-08:00

Happy 2010 everyone! Quite a busy book out for me this time as I went out all 4 days. The morning of 31st December 2009 was spend in camp. It was a our camp parent visiting day and of course my parent was there. The first thing my mother ask me was whether I smoke as she found 2 lighter in my drawer. After saying that one was a souvenir from my friend and the other was bought because of field camp. My dad then ask me to stretch out my hand to let him see. Luckily I didn't smoke that very morning if not, I will be in deep shit!

Went home after the whole event ended. Was at home for less then 3 hours and I went out to meet the Marshmallow. Went to SQUEEZE at esplanade just to witness the 10 minute of fire work. Firework does not seem to attract me anymore. After watching the fire work, we went to Samantha house for Mahjong! Lady luck does not seem to be at my side during 2009 and 2010. Didn't strike the ToTo for the 31st draw and didn't win for mahjong that night. No matter what, the night was just so fun. It been so long since we gathered for any activity.

New year was slightly more relax for me as I didn't have much sleep that day. Drove my sister to my aunt house for her make-up lesson while I was busy with the computer. Saturday was another fun day too! Met Spencer, Daryl and Jie sheng as Daryl will be enlist tomorrow. As usual, we went down to CU for some drink and realize that Daryl hold his alcohol better now. Hwee Ching join us half way through the session and I drank till I was super high. Luckily Fish drove us back.

Booking in later. Long week this week. Booking out this saturday due to some activity that will eat into our weekend. No more public holiday that will make our week shorter. The next on will be only Lunar New Year. Hope time will fly fast! Sick of my life now.

2009-12-25T03:36:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas everyone! Sadly, I am having quite a lonely christmas this year. First time christmas being single since secondary 1. I just feel super weird now, its not normal to be not going out during public holiday. Wanted to call my friend out but I believe that they will be busy with their dates. Gosh! The feeling just suck!

Was alone at orchard road yesterday. Strolling down the streets, listen to my mp3, admiring the christmas decoration, observing how high people can get hours before the count down and most importantly, trying to soak myself into the festive mood! That was the first time I am doing this and find it quite interesting as somehow the way I look at the decoration seem to be different as what i felt few weeks back.

Went to fetch my sister home from Orchard Hotel where she had her DND before I went to meet Spencer and Eunice. Didn't did much things with them as I met them for less then 30 minute before I meet my other friends of sisha while they meet their friend for their drinking session. Went home around 4 am and started talking to my sister as she prepare for her trip to Ipoh. Slept at 6 plus and was forced to wake up at 1pm by my parent. Had lunch with them and went shopping with them. Most likely I am going to hijack my dad car to go out later. Don't want to stay emo at home.

This weekend marks the closure of the first week in 30 SCE. Indeed it was tough! Didn't participate much in most of the activity as I was on status but still feel exhausted. Think those who had participated the activities felt worst! The camp I was attached to was so much different from Tekong! Had 2 big culture shock in less then 3 month I started serving my national service.

My injury seem worst. My ankle feels pain when I stand longer then 10 over minute. Hope my appointment with my specialist will be earlier. Its really quite painful especially when you are not being able to move to relief the pain. May be I am just heavy and this result in the pain!

Next week will be another short week. Will be booking out on new year's eve. Most likely will be going to Marina Bay for count down party with Marshmallow. It would be fun!

2009-12-17T19:12:00.000-08:00

What the hell! I am posted to my unit which is at Jurong camp, super far away from my house! Haven't really heard much positive things about that camp so its like double blow for me as the first blow would be the time I will take just to travel thru and fro whenever I book out/book in.

Wonder why of all the combat engineering camps, I was posted to the one furthest away from my house when there is one just 10 minute away from my house! What more the camp near my house does something related to what I have studied. From my research, its the toughest among all the combat engineer camp. Since 30th SCE split into 2 part, Field Engineer and Plant Engineer, I just hope to be in Plant Engineer as its like operating on heavy equipments. Sounds better then Field Engineer.

My best friend will be joining me in the same camp. At least I know there will be someone who will suffer the same fate as me; traveling from east to west!

So jealous of those who got posted to Khatib camp, Kranji Camp and Air force! Why can't I be like them. Just so jealous!

1 Year 8 month more to go!

2009-12-14T21:53:00.000-08:00

Went to Changi General Hospital for appointment early in the morning. Haven't been waking up early this few days as I am almost back to my old-self, sleeping early and waking up late. Not just late but super late. My appointment was at 8.45 in the morning and I have no choice but to wake up at 6.45! Lucky its holiday season and therefore there isn't much traffic jam which made my journey there fast.

Went to the sports clinic 15 min earlier then the appointment time. First time I am so early for my appointment. I am always late for my dental appointment till the dentist started nagging. The sports clinic was quite posh for a public hospital and the service was better then what I have expected. Did X-rays and ultra-sound for my ankle and the doctor finally found out the cause of the pain. I have torn my bloody ligament at my ankle area. The doctor gave me 4 weeks of excuse which is super long. This mean I have would have a total 7 weeks of excuses as I had 3 weeks of excuse during BMT!

Yesterday it was my first time doing Ultra-sound and was kind of amaze with it. Studied so much about it and it was my first real life encounter with it. Have to thank it as it was the one who allows the doctor to find the cause. Will be doing my physiotherapy on the 29th of this month.

Met Spencer after my appointment. Haven't meet him for ages since he went to OCS. Went town to look for some stuff before Eunice, Daryl (Birthday Boy) and Cheryl came. Town seem like getting more and more not interesting to us anymore. Rot in town till almost 5 before we parted with Spencer as he need to book in to his camp that very evening while the rest of us went to Bishan. Was suppose to go straight to Daryl's house but we end up in the Arcade playing. After we are exhausted, we went back to Daryl's house to play Mahjong. Lady luck doesn't seem to be beside me as I kept throwing the wrong tiles out, feeding other opponent! I lost the most yesterday!

Think I will be at home the whole day, R n R (Rest and ROT) the whole day. Suppose to have section 4 Barbeque today but postpone to tomorrow. It will be a party in East Coast Park tomorrow!

Another activity for me to do would be saturday. Will be attending Eunice 21st birthday at this Dirty Irish Pub. Quite a unique name for a Pub. First time chilling up in pub along Marina region. May be I will go Powerhouse after the birthday celebration. Think its been a month since I step into the club!

2009-12-09T08:24:00.000-08:00

Finally, BMT is over. Going to start unit life very soon as most likely I won't be going to command school as I didn't perform well during this 2 month. But who cares? All I want is quickly ORD. After looking al the calender, most likely I will be starting school almost immediately after my ORD. Anyway, its still long for me to think about it.

Yesterday was the day I graduated from the BMTC school! Sadly I can't join my platoon to march their 24km route march as my ankle have yet to recover. 3 weeks now and I still can feel intense pain after walking some distance. Felt quite happy that 2 months is over but was quite sad that we all are going to be separated real soon. Its really lucky to be in section 4 as we all are close and united. We really look after each other just like a family.

Quite touched that my parents still went for my graduation despite knowing that I won't be participating in the parade. Lucky I manage to spot them fast enough, if not there wouldn't be anyone there to help me to put on my jockey cap.

Started by 12 days block leave now. It just feel good knowing that I won't be booking so soon. What is even better is that tomorrow is my PAY DAY! Really damn poor now. Can't imagine I have to cut down my expenses just to survive my $400 pay. Last time taking cab was like my daily routine but now its considered as an luxury treatment. Pubbing was consider quite a normal day activity but now I am pubbing only like twice a month.

1 year 8 month to ORD.

2009-12-04T23:43:00.001-08:00

Spend half of yesterday night at Singapore General Hospital. Went there to do my X-ray for my ankle and it took me more then 4.5 hours to complete the X-rays and consultation. Can't imagine I mange to drive myself home safely after being awake for more then 24 hours plus feeling sick. Wasn't really happy with the service at the hospital as the doctor was super unwilling to do the consultation. I told the doctor that I am having cough and my throat wasn't feeling well, all he do was just gave me medication for my cough without asking me whether I have phlegm when I cough. The worst was he completely forgotten that my throat was sore as he didn't even give me any medication for that. He didn't even ask me open my mouth for him to take a look at my throat.

Was quite shock to see my mum still awake, waiting for me to be home safely as she worried that I might not be able to drive home. Felt quite bad to kept my mum awake despite her age.

Tuesday will be the day I end my 2 months for my BMT! Most likely I will be posted to unit as don't think I will be going for any command school. Isn't interested to be a commander anyway thus it won't really bother me. Just hope I would be posted to a good unit! 8-5 would be the best! Will be starting my next phase of my army life on 21st this month. Prior to the second phase of my army life, I am going to have a 12 days leaves! Going to take a good rest at home.

Wonder I should go out tonight? Feel like going out but my wallet don't allow me! Left with only 100 dollar in my bank to last me till the next pay day! Not even sure whether my pay day would be on the 10th or 23rd of this month. Hope it could be on both days of the month! I need a pay rise!

2009-11-28T21:18:00.001-08:00

Feeling damn frustrated now. Why can't weekends be longer then weekdays! Need to book-in in another 5 hour time! Don't feel like going anywhere within this 5 hours but seem like it is almost impossible as I promise someone to meet her before I book in. Hope she just won't have the time to meet me!

Felt quite irritated as my phone can't stop receiving messages. Sometimes I just don't feel like replying. Its been sometime since I was in the non-stop messaging mode.

My ankle is still in pain! Imagine I have sprained my ankle twice in a week and now it still haven't fully recover when my MC end a few days back. Feel like going to see the doctor opposite my house and get MC again however I can't! Can't miss the 16km route march on tuesday! If not will have to do my 24 km route march during my block leaves.

Sunday is bad as I have almost nothing to do but to rot! Its always seem like an irony that I how I want the time to pass quickly on time when I am super bored yet I want weekend to be long even when I am rotting! Got a sudden urge to catch a movie now but don't think there is any nice shows now.

Miss school now. How jealous knowing that my friend is on semester break which means they are free for months while I am only free for just a few days! If I have a longer break I would start doing some part time job to increase my income. Don't think I can survive long with my current income. It tiring to control my spending; try not to dine out so often as before, trying not to take cab and reduce the frequency to pubs/club. If anyone is planning to give christmas present to me, I won't mind it to be a red packet even if it is not Lunar New Year.

2009-11-27T22:55:00.000-08:00

This is my longest book out since I have been enlisted in national service. Sadly, tomorrow I would have to book in again. 2 more weeks to my Pass Out Parade (POP). Tuesday I would have to do my 16 km route march follow by a 24 km route march on the very day which I have my POP.

1 year 8 more month to go before I ORD. Still quite long but hope time will pass faster. Somehow I just find Nation Service kind of waste of time as it totally crap. Luckily they have reduce the duration from 2.5 years to 2 years.

Just finish my second out field last weekend. It rain everyday when I was out field. Everywhere was just muddy. Mosquitoes there were well trained as they are able to suck your blood no matter how thick your clothing were.

Don't feel like going out today as my current pay isn't enough for me to go out everyday. Spend almost $90 yesterday and felt the pinched. Now a $14.90 meal is very expensive to me! Went to watch Christmas Carol 3D and find the show quite BORING. Its super boring even when the show comes alive in 3D format. No point watching as isn't much humor in the show and the story plot can be predicted. Think the old Christmas Carol cartoon is more interesting.

Got a Ginger Bread-man (GBM) from coffee bean yesterday. Haven't eat yet as I will be waiting for Christmas before I murder the GBM. But I think my mum will start killing the GBM earlier then I will do as the GBM kept giving off a cinnamon rich aroma which is super nice!

12 more days to pay day (If I am not wrong), 27 more days to Christmas, 33 more days to 2010. 6 month and 27 more days for me to turn 21 years old. Think I should start thinking how I want to celebrate my 21st birthday. Its like super early to start thinking but at least there is something for me to count down and look forward to. Feel like going overseas now. How nice if I am at somewhere out of singapore, enjoying the cool weather and immersing myself into the christmas atmosphere. Talking about christmas, don't you think that this year Christmas lighting and decoration along orchard road was like CRAP especially the one along Istana. It was more a Chinese New Year theme. What more the Reindeer MODEls' post wasn't Christmas enough! Its was more like an animal fashion display. What a NICE christmas lighting and decoration they have along orchard road!

I am SOOOO bored now!

2009-11-14T23:35:00.000-08:00

Field camp have finally over! Guess what? I so how find that field camp is fun. The the worst of field camp was trying to clear all the mud from all my bags and uniform. Lucky my mum was there to help me. In return, I made a sumptuous dinner for her with the help of my sister.

Its fun as I really get to experience sleeping in the dark, cooking out field and even conquer my phobia for mud. Lucky it rain for most of the days, keeping the temperature for the training cool. Hope I can rest enough during my 1 day book out. Booking at 8 later. Wouldn't be booking out next week as there is some activity which require to BURN my weekend. Lucky the weekend when I book out seem long as friday would be Hai Raya Haji.

Didn't really go out during this book out as really need to have enough rest. Wasn't feeling well too. Coughing non-stop and my nose and ear seem to be forever block. And because of that, I didn't manage to attend my friend 21st birthday celebration yesterday night at Holland Village. Sorry Nic! Meet you other day for a belated celebration okay?!

Counting down to my next book out already. Will update again after I book out.

2009-11-07T21:09:00.000-08:00

Weekend is always just so short. But a very bad weekend indeed. It seem like my friend get very pissed with me just because I mess her hair up. She seem so work up and she get fucking pissed over it. If playful isn't the word the describe myself, what other word can you think of? It seem ridiculous when you say that you finally knew the real Alvin just because I mess up your hair?

Over the weeks, I have decided to give up after serious consideration. Sometimes, it isn't that bad to be single. Anyway, I don't have much time for any relationship. Wooing someone is tough and changing someone mindset is even worst. Don't want to mind-fuck myself every time, hoping that you will initiate in messaging me.

I am just fucking sick of my life now. Getting misunderstood for nothing and trying to do something impossible. 1 month have already pass. 1 year and 9 more month to go. I just want to quickly get out of this fuck up life and continue my normal life. 2 years is a total waste of time. I don't think I can remember what I have learnt for the past 3 years. Heard from my friend who are currently doing their degree that the lecturer assume that you still remember every single formula and theory. How I wish that there will be a fast forward button somewhere which i can fast forward my life.

Booking in soon. 30 plus days to POP. Going to have my 6 days 5 night out field starting tomorrow. Hope it won't be that shag. Can't imagine myself not bathing for 6 whole days. Hope the warm temperature can be cooled down by the trees in the forest. It too warm over there. 1 or 2 degree higher then Singapore main island temperature.

2009-10-16T06:16:00.001-07:00

Back from my first 9 days confinement! Everything wasn't as bad as I have expected. PT was quite tough but still quite manageable. My bunk-mates were the best! They kept me well entertain in times when I am bored and they would definitely be cheering me up when I wanted to fall out during runs and practice till I didn't fall out.

7th October was the start of my army life. this 9 days made me realize that I how badly I miss my parents and my sister and friends. I felt emotional when I receive my parents smses and even more emotional when I spoke to my mum. My frequent conversation with my friends allow me to adapt the place even faster. Will be meeting Spencer, jie Sheng and Daryl tomorrow, together with Lynn and Qian En. Haven't seen them for sometimes and I really can't wait for the gathering.

I hope next week I am able to meet up with my marshmallow friends! Sheng Long, Jia Jun, Chun Rong and Phoebe!

Sadly, I only have around 2 days per week and I am unable to squeeze everything in 1 weekend. Will be booking in on Sunday 2pm.

2009-09-29T03:05:00.000-07:00

My last day in Lancome have finally arrive after 2 years working there. I really can't bear to leave the company as I really enjoy working there. All the skills I have picked up, all the friends I have made and all the fun I have enjoyed will definitely be missed. I have never pictured myself working in beauty industries and I can't imagine that I could work so long despite facing so many obstacle in convincing customers in the products especially old lady!

Tomorrow I am having my farewell with my Lancome colleagues and I hope it would be fun and memorable.

Just hope my 2 years of National Service would be manageable and time would pass quickly. Can't wait to start my university as this would mean I would be able to graduate faster. Its really quite torturing to start working at the age of 26 while the rest of your friend have already started working for more then a few years. The next chapter of my life will start soon. On the 7th of October.

My driving license is already 1 year old! This mean that my probation plate can be removed. Hope I can persuade my parents to let me obtain a Class 2 license as it would be more convenient for to travel around and motorcycle is cheaper then motor car. This will reduce my monthly contribution to the Taxi company.

8 more days to go!

2009-09-08T23:58:00.000-07:00

28 more days for me to start my 2 years charity work. Finish my 7 days promotion at paragon which was quite an eye opening experience for me. Sales wasn't that fantastic as I was station at the store while the rest of the full timer was at the atrium. Didn't really enjoy the whole promotion. Just hope the last 2 promotion would be better.

Went to watch G Force on monday. Quite a cliche story plot just that the effect was great. It made the Guinea Pig look so real. Didn't mange to catch the 3D version as I was enjoying my dinner with my friend at Swensen which we decide to miss the 3D version at The Cathay.

Today will be Spencer POP! Will be celebrating it on this saturday with a steam-boat session and may be going down to CU after it. Sadly I will be working 1230-830 shift on the very next day. Hope this steamboat will be as good as the previous one we had.

Now I realize what exactly it means by letting it go. It feel just so good to know that you have finally let go as you will realize that its just so not worth it. I hope you will really let go of yours too. You have wasted 2 years and no point wasting it even further.

2009-08-30T23:04:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was really a fucking unlucky day for me. First thing I did in the morning is to argue with my parent while I try to swallow my nasi lemak which my dad bought. It was raining heavily when I wanted to go to work. Called for cab and waited for more then 10 min before the operator apologies that there isn't any cab available at my area. Got totally drench while I made my way to the bus stop. What made it worst was that I sprain my ankle while i loss my footing. My whole left leg was in pain as somehow my left knee also contribute the pain!

Yesterday was the last day Jie Sheng work at CU. Sadly I wasn't able to turn up. For the pass 2 weeks I have been punching my card at CU as often I punch my card at work. The group seem to get bigger and bigger. Once, we stayed till 530am and I have to work at 9.40am the same day. Totally can't work that day!

Finally I went to watch movie after so long. Went to watch "Where Got Ghost" and "Final Destination 4" on the same day. After the 2 show, me and my friend was totally tired. "Where got Ghost" was just okay okay only. But "Final Destination 4" was incredible especially with its 3D effect. It just made it so real that you will think that the scene just happen right in-front of you.

Today is my off day again. Tomorrow will be working at Metro Paragon for the new launch color. Tomorrow will start the count down to the last day at lancome as its my last month. It also means that I will be starting my 2 year national service in 1 month and 7 day. I am not looking forward for this 2 events but I am looking forward to 26th of september as that will mark my 1 year anniversary of me getting my driving license. It will mean I will have the full 24 points instead of the 12 points.

Will be going out soon, may be going to the library to kill my time before I go town to meet my friend for dinner.

2009-08-21T09:07:00.000-07:00

Another 7 more days to my off day after 21 days of continuous work. Promotion after promotion, stores after stores. Life just suck.

Despite the number of days I have worked, I am able to folk out sometime to visit CU. Think I had visited CU for more then 12 time. 3-4 times a week, drinking like nobody business. I even did stupid things over there. I even mange to knock down a whole Carlsberg Tower, witnessing the flow of the 2 liters of beer flow to the drainage system. Can't imagine that such a big tower can collapse.

Went to Qiu Ling birthday yesterday at boat quay. Poor Qiu Ling, was drunk even before 12am. She was super high even before she blow the candle that she couldn't stop crying. She seem like she isn't feeling that well emotionally. ope everything will go well for her!

I realise that I am carrying higher and higher target. For the last 2 promotion, sales wasn't that bad as I mange to achieve 80% for the 2 promotion. Just hope I am able to do 80% for this promotion at Scotts as well. Was kind of stress today as sales was terrible in the afternoon. It was kind of touch that spencer and eunice came to visit me today. It just don't feel good to be stressed up till the cocktail party start. Happy for the winner for the lucky draw held during the cocktail party. She was my customer. It was the second time the winner of the lucky draw was my customer. The first time was at RC when the customer was reluctant to buy and yet she won the one and only prize of the party worth more then $1500. As for today's winner, she won more the $200 worth of product. When can I be so lucky, I just want to strike lottery.

As usual, at the end of the month, I am broke. I think my bank just left $80. Most of the cash have gone to drinks, cab and cigarette. My life is just so fucking terrible. Problems doesn't be able to solve yet more problem appears. Sometimes i just think that my life is just so fucking worthless.

Yesterday, I just dream of you. Everything was so fairy-tale as in reality we will never get together again.

2009-08-07T09:04:00.000-07:00

Sometime When We Touch by Dan Hill

Click on the link below to see the youtube video sand by another yet powerful singer.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EUqYY3Db5Tk

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

2009-08-03T06:18:00.000-07:00

I am in a bad state right now. Have been ill for more then a week and yet there isn't much recovery happening. Promotion was bad as the target was simply just to high. Emotion seem to be all mixed up. Quarreled with parents, overspent my last month salary and now trying to save up for the big big credit card bill at the end of the month. How bad my life is.

Really appreciate everyone care especially on saturday night. Just not sure trigger it to happen. Life just suck. Remain cheerful does not mean you will be happy always as you might be totally not in the mood to stay alive.

Overslept this morning, 20 mins before my reporting time. Was suppose to wake up at 830 am but I woke up at 920 am. Took a cab to work and spend the very unnecessary money. Sales wasn't fantastic and time just crawl.

2009-07-26T21:57:00.000-07:00

On MC today. Not feeling real well today. My throat haven't recover since last week. As usual,the bloody bloody scent still linger in my mouth despite after eating lots of strong flavored food. Will be consulting the doctor later as ANA need me to submit my MC.

Promotion was horrible. The respond was far from what we have expected. Imagine doing just $300 in a day when target is like super high! For 3 days, I did only $3K. I did less then 50% of my target. Don't think I did more then 25%. Now the commission will be based on your monthly target and since I can't hit my monthly target this month, the motivation also went missing. I think I am down from my monthly target by more then $17K and the figure is increasing.

Will be going to Takashimaya to do the same launch next week and hope the respond will be better! If not it will be another demoralizing week for me.

Anyway, I was issued a uniform for this promotion and I think I look very very weird in it. A white long sleeve t-shirt. You can go to Facebook and see the uniform.

Will be going for my haircut later too! Sadly the saloon I always patronize seem to have close its door for good. Now the option will be either Kimage or Jean Yip. May be I will go to someone house and get my hair cut. It will be cheaper.

Credit card bill have arrived! Lucky its just $380. Not that bad. My parent didn't nag me about the bill so I think they are okay with the number.

Bored with my life now.

2009-07-22T10:50:00.000-07:00

Drink, drank and almost drunk. Red wine, beer, vodka, sake and white wine. That what we 3 drink for just 4 hour. GOSH! that really fatal. Today is my 3rd consecutive night i punch my card at CU. It seem like its trouble month for most of the people out there.

Well its good to feel high for that very moment, to forget every single thing out of your mind. It just feel so good even though you know that it will just reappear the very next day. But who cares! At least you are enjoying your life right?

2009-07-21T10:58:00.000-07:00

Another day have pass. Wasn't really feeling so good for this few days. Too many things just popped up in my mind. Just came back from CU after a drink with Jie Sheng.

One of the problem we talk was the very regret I have. The regret which cause me to make many many mistake. Its definitely not your fault. Its just mind fault that I couldn't let go despite so long. Long story. Think I will blog about it tomorrow. Really don't know how to say.

Anyway, Siok Hua is MARRIED!!! My dear cousin in law is UNCLE john. The married was a whole day event which made me awake from 3am to 4 am the very next day. It was the first time that the whole family was so anxious about her wedding. Her wedding was so grand till she have 2 extra makeup artist to help all her cousin and aunty to makeup. She even arrange all her cousin and cousin to have their hair fixed at a saloon. The whole night was just so wonderful.

M hotel was great TOO!! I slept at one of the room Siok Hua have arranged. The service was great and the breakfast they served was good. Everything was just so perfect especially the suits.

Not feeling well for this few days. Blood is something i am spitting out everyday. (Please don't ever tag on face book about it!) I have already try to cut down on my cig already but it seem like it just don't help. My throat is just so PAIN!!!! Damn

2009-07-12T09:50:00.000-07:00

Just back from Agnes wedding at Raffles Town Club. Congrats to Mr and Mrs Chan. Quite a nice place after all. Food taste quite okay and the table i am seated with are filled with many crazy people. Sometime, i am thinking will I able to afford such a wedding as the price tag attached to such event cost more then what you expect and the time you have to contribute is LONG!

Think the couple sister and brother are very spontaneous. The poor brother have to wear paper underwear with words written on it. So they have to form a sentence and shake their butt. As usual, wasabi, bitter gourd and lemon is always part of the event. Singing in the public loud and clear as part of the condition to enter the brides house is new. Wonder what will be plans the sisters have during for my cousin wedding THIS SATURDAY!

My mum is so interested in the wedding procedures which she will go to observe the whole day. She is scared that she will jeopardize my sister wedding if she have no idea what going on. Still quite stress with my dressing for the day. Haven't wash the vest I have gotten. Hope I won't look awkward on the day.

Hope my mum will allow me to go clubbing on saturday. Really need Caslyn to physco my mum. Hope her sweet charm will work on my mum. Even if it does not work with my mum, it must work with my dad! But definitely i will drive them home first before going out again. Will be a non-smoking day if I never go clubbing with them. Wonder Spencer will be able to go together this saturday.

Have been meeting Spencer up every book out he have. I am quite amaze with myself that i still have the time to meet people despite complaining that I don't really have much time. Hope we are still be able to contact even during mine enlistment. Haven't been meeting the Marshmallow for sometime. PHOEBE... time for you to plan up something. Just love the feeling to meet up with friend and seat around and chill. Anywhere is fine with me.

My funds are depleting. Wonder whether the ATM have gotten virus and therefore show the wrong figure or may be I have spend money without really knowing how much I have spend. Yesterday alone, I spend almost $150. Another $140 today. Gosh! I am going bankrupt real soon.

Went powerhouse yesterday. Getting hook to clubbing soon. Love the music and people there. But the timing that I stay at PH will never be extend as the the majesty and the queen will start chanting and chanting about how miserable their life to stay awake until i reach home as they have to ensure that I don't leave my key hanging outside and I had locked the door and latched it.

Going zz soon! Good night

2009-07-11T00:51:00.000-07:00

Another day of off day. Will be meeting Spencer and Jie Sheng tonight. Hope daryl will be joining us later. Quite bored today. Lucky my neice came and study. Haven't seen her for very long time. She is my "childhood pal" who always accompany me to play wen I am young.

Wonder whether I should go down to Powerhouse later, after I meet up with them at CU. Just worry that tomorrow I won't be able to wake up to go to work. Will be having a long day tomorrow as I will be attending a wedding tomorrow night. May be will be going out after the dinner as well.

Yesterday work at CK Tang Orchard and sales was quite good. Manage to hit my target. Yesterday Phoebe and Sheng Long came down to find me. Quite happy with the eyebrow I help Phoebe to pluck. Hope she like it too. Will post the picture once she send me the picture.

Planning to go out soon. Will be going to enjoy soon!

2009-07-09T08:19:00.000-07:00

Finally I have decided the color for my hair! After discussion with my dear God- Sis, I have decided to dye chestnut brown or may be darker. I am so excited and counting down to my cousin wedding. The wedding of the year for the "LIM" family. Still stress over what I should wear for her dinner. Thinking of a white shirt with a bit of lace/design/any other thing so I can wear my blue vest. If not I will wear a blue shirt my cousin have gotten for me and if possible, I will still wear the vest on the wedding night.

I realize that I am eating more and more. During work I ate a big bowl of Tom Yam U-Mee and once I reach home, I start eating 1 big bowl of rice my mum had prepared for me. After that bowl, I start crunching 1 apple before I eat 1 ice-cream. If this habit goes on, I think I will put on weight.

Did something interesting yesterday. I help Jie Sheng with his FYP at CU! Quite weird to do project in a pub, typing your laptop with 1 hand while the other hand will be holding a bottle of beer. Quite happy that what I have done have helped him with todays consultation with his lecturer.

Craving for Boon Lay Nasi Lemak now!

2009-07-05T22:43:00.000-07:00

Realize that I have just so many off days this month. 1 week have past and it means that I am 1 week nearer to my Tekong life. SIANZ!

Met Lyn to celebrate her birthday on the 3rd. Went to eat steamboat before we start pub hopping. Went to the LEGENDARY Le Bar before going to CU. Le bar was okay just that the people seem to be slight more "DAO". After a jar of beer, we start heading down to CU. Walk pass Birdie Putt which out friend work there. Wanted to go in to have a drink and enjoy BAR TOP dancing but we think it was kind of pack. Slack at CU, we played, we drink, we sang.

Spend first half of the saturday at home, chatting on MSN before I send my sister to meet her friend at Buona Vista before I went to meet Spencer. I think I am getting messed up with Singapore Road. Can't imagine that I can drive to the destination using the same route at night but didn't mange to drive in the day time. It result in me making many detours before reaching my final destination.

Went to Spring building to pick up Eunice (Spencer's Girlfriend) before we all head down to anchor point to have a drink at TCC. Spencer started to persuade me to go powerhouse on the very night. Didn't really want to go as I went there on Saturday but end up going as my dearest Caslyn is going as well!

Yesterday I was back at Center Point and sales was good!!! Did more then 2K on the very day. Hope I am able to hit 100% this month.

2009-07-02T23:07:00.000-07:00

Back from Taiwan and didn't really have a good day at home till today.

Went to CU to meet my dear Spencer and friends on the very day I touch down, 4 hours after I disembark the aircraft. The second day was also spend at CU. Was suppose to meet Chris for meal/movie but he was super sick. Went to watch Transformer on the 3rd day before going to Daryl house to download all my project files to his hard disk for Jie Sheng. After this 3 days, I start working till today, MY OFF DAY! Went to Powerhouse on the 1st day of this very month to celebrate my Dear LYNN birthday. Didn't stay long as usual and she was totally intoxicated even before the clock strike 1.

Yesterday was the very first time i work at CK TANG @ Orchard. People there are fun especially I get to work with Linda. Lina added additional 3 more days for me and this mean that I will be working 11 days at Tangs @ Orchard instead of 8. From this month onward, we no longer bear daily target but we bear monthly target. This means that my commission rate will definitely be just 1% only. PATHETIC!

Because of work, I even forget that I an dental appointment yesterday. Will be making another appointment on next monday.

Looking at my friends photo on Facebook and realize some had already made their graduation trip. London, Barcelona, Chicago and all those expensive countries was their choice. Wonder have they think carefully before making this decision? 10 days in europe would cost you more then $1k minimum. How about the transportation? Rich kids.

2009-06-21T23:31:00.000-07:00

Feel so uncomfortable with so many off days within 1 week. But at least it allows me to have a good time sleeping, to pay back all the sleeping hours I have lost during those days that I need to wake up early.

2 more days and I will be at Taiwan. I don't feel like going Taiwan now. I just want to go to somewhere cooling and quiet, suitable for me to isolate myself from rest of everything. Tired and bored of everything now. There is something that is bothering deep in me which I am not even sure what was the "something".

Will be working tomorrow at Scott in the morning before I go home and have a good rest. Will be taking the morning flight on thursday, 4 hours earlier then my sister. I will be back on the 28th. 5 days of enjoyment/suffer.

2009-06-18T22:04:00.000-07:00

Another off day today! 5 more days to Taiwan and 1 month to my cousin wedding! This is the 2 things that I am looking forward at this very moment. Because of the trip, I won't be able to attend Victoria Birthday at St James. Happy birthday in advance!

Today finally I get to rest after working 2 days of full shift and another day of 3-11 shift for the Singtel-Tangs private event. 2 days of full shift was horrible as I was alone at the counter rotting for the full 12 hour. The second day was better as Lyn came down and got some one to talk to. Yesterday I worked the 3-11 shift which was horrible. The whole event was a failure. Not much response and no buying power.

Will be going to have a K-box gathering with marshmallow at Kalllang. It seem like we always K at Kallang. Thanks to Sheng Long, the room had been booked and all the necessary arrangement had been done by his girlfriend.

Haven't been feeling so well for this few days. Emotional unstable? Or just tired. Everything seem to be uncertain. It does not seem to be here nor there. It just seem superficial.

July will be a busy month for me. Going for a launch at CK Tang orchard for 1 week and may be going to Takashimaya to continue the launch. Will be attending wedding on the 12 and 18. Lyn's birthday party on the first week of the month.

2009-06-11T08:32:00.000-07:00

Finally I got the mood to blog again! Won't be sleep so early today as I am on PM shift tomorrow. Wasn't in a mood to work today as I just want to stone. Didn't sleep long enough the night before as I was at Linda's birthday party. Initially I felt slightly out of place but until a while, I am enjoying. Caslyn was the best as she made the whole pub became a club by playing songs which we always hear at Powerhouse. "Nobody" was nice too!

Trying to think of an excuse to tell my mum in order to go partying this saturday again! Sadly I won't be able to stay till quite late as I am working morning shift the very next day. Will be helping out at my teacher's wedding after work. Rehearsal will start at 5pm so I will have to leave work an hour earlier to make my way down to Fullerton hotel.

Sales isn't that good for this few days. Is it because of the recent sales at Prada, Gucci and other high end boutique which cause all the rest of the customer to have less spending power? BORED

My dad was weird when he ask me not to smoke when I board the car. I think they suspected that I smoke. FREAK! No motivation and determination to quit smoking now. Last monday I tried not to smoke but in the end, I am still being pulled to accompany people to smoke and I was being force to smoke. SO the plan FAILED!

Will try again next time!

2009-06-07T06:01:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was FUN! Been some time i party till so late and for long hours. 5 1/2 hour spend there. Christopher was there after he put us airplane for twice.

Today is my off day again. I wound be working so much for this particular month since I don't need to work 6 days a week. Quite bored to stay at home rotting on my off day. My next off day will be on the 9th. Tomorrow will be working morning shift at Centrepoint. Most likely I will be going to watch movie after work!

Got to go now!

2009-06-05T01:34:00.000-07:00

Suppose to meet Jie Sheng to help him on his PED and to attend a so call reunion dinner at Newton but both were cancelled! This mean that I will just rest at home, rotting every second of my time. Will be going Tampinese Bakerzin to get for my sister a cake as today is her birthday! Love the taste and texture of its New York Cheese Cake. Internet order seem cheaper then going there to purchase but too bad I didn't order it 2 days ago.

Tomorrow will be working morning shift instead of afternoon as my colleague is afraid that she will be on mc tomorrow as she isn't feeling that well. I hope she won't be on MC so that I can go home and change before going out later in the night. Most likely I will be meeting my friend for dinner before we head down to St james together.

Yesterday work was HELL! Gifts and stock were send down to the counter when I am working full alone. Pack and tagged all the stock from 11am till 6pm as there were simply too many stock received. Sales wasn't that fantastic but target was BIG in figure. Poor me have to do all the work and bear the fucking sky high target when there isn't any promotion or any attractive gift! What ever it is, I won't have to worry about 65% this month as I won't be able to work the full 26 days as I am going to Taiwan! Not really exactly looking forward for the trip as I isn't in much traveling mood now but looking forward to que at every stall to buy their taiwan snacks and delicacy. Leaving on the 24th and be back on the 29th of this month.

Received a message from my Secondary School Physic teacher asking me to help out with her wedding as a sound person. And of course, I accept the work and I will get my buddy Aaron to accompany me! Haven't met him for quite sometime as both of us seem to be quite busy and don't really have much time to meet despite the fact that we just separated by just few blocks of flat and a school only. The wedding will be held at Fullerton Hotel and that will be my first time visiting Fullerton Hotel! It will be great to be helper for event again, its been so long since I was an helper for any event ever since I left Multi-media and Poly stage Production. 9 more days to go! Anyway, CONGRATULATION to my physic teacher!

I will be looking forward for my cousin wedding which will be held next month at M Hotel. It will be more enjoyable as everyone is close with each other as compared to my father's side cousin. Wonder what duty will my cousin ask me to do. And for her wedding, I have gotten myself a new pair of shoe for both work and her wedding. Now I am planning on what I should wear to her wedding.

Will be playing BEJEWEL on facebook now, see ya!

2009-06-03T08:53:00.000-07:00

Back to square, I am single again. Last time the person who encourage me to break up was Irene Leong and this time my dear Ying Ting encourage me! Anyway, I just don't feel like talking about it anyway.

I am waiting for Saturday!!!! I want to go and enjoy myself till I am super high enough before i go back home! Every time I have to go home early as my mum is waiting for me to reach home before she can sleep peacefully but not this saturday as i told her that I am going for a chalet!!! Hope it will be fun!

But before saturday arrive, I have to work on thursday, friday and saturday before i can enjoy. Tomorrow I will be working full shift at Vivo as all the full timer will be going to bird park to do some charity work. Friday I will have my off day but I will be meeting Jie Sheng to help him on his PED before attending a dinner gathering at Newton circle. Last but not least, I will be working on saturday before I can enjoy myself at night. LIFELESS!

Thinking that I have to work full shift will be HELL! Vivo is no longer as fun as before, my god-sister is now at Centrepoint while Ying Ting is now at Takashimaya. Just pray hard that Arial and Debbie is working tomorrow. Will be going for my dental during my dinner break just to get my braces done. Wonder what color should change it to.

Have to rest early for tomorrow. Faint!

2009-05-24T07:19:00.001-07:00

I really have to say that I am really sorry for what I have mention. I am really totally not sensitive enough. I know I can't do anything to take back what I have mention to make you feel better. But I will definitely keep my promise I had given you just now. I really hope you can forgive me for what I have done to you.

It defnitely something I have learnt, hours before my birthday. Had lots of misunderstanding and friction between me and my mother. I will definitely try my best to be a good boy for this few days, be home early and not to do anything to upset her.

Many things had happen within this 19th year of my life and this lead to many thing I have learnt. The best thing will definitely be completion of my diploma, gotten my driving license, getting acceptance into the course I wanted for my degree education and the friends I have made during this year.

At this moment, I don't really have much mood to blog about what I have done this dew days.

2009-05-15T07:42:00.000-07:00

Left Raffles City at 6.20 pm after a long long battle with physical exhaustion of my body. Sales wasn't fantastic as there is hardly any crowd at the store after the sales. I realize that Singaporean really think $5 is a super big sum of money as those 2 days with the $5 voucher, the que was super long till customer might have to que for about 20 minute before they can make the payment. And without the $5 voucher, the que became so short till customer can pay for all their merchandise within split second. Only open $700 for today. The lowest amount the 3 day. Tomorrow will be weekend so I hope that the sales will be GOOD!

Will be working morning tomorrow as Irene is working tomorrow too! Will be quite fun as we can talk rubbish to kill the time. But Ah leong, I really think you mistaken something. I went to serve the customer not because I wanted to snatch from Irene Sumathi but the thing is that she does not seem to be ready to serve. After all this is a promotion. Whoever see the customer will serve first right? I thought that what everybody does as well. There is something you missed out which had happen yesterday which made me don't feel like asking her to serve. I know you want to tell me that I am just a part timer so why should I be so aggressive. I am trying my best to hit 65% just like everyone does. Ana is also monitoring my sales too. I hope you are not being pissed off by what I have mention cause I just want to let you know how I feel.

Anyway, yesterday we had a cocktail party over at the counter. The target was $20,000 for 2 hours. The turn out was good but the people just left after they had their snacks and gotten their door gift. Caslyn was there too! Quite surprise to see her there. Didn't talk much with her as everyone is busy with the rest of the customer. I was curious about what she talk to Celine/Sharon. She haven't got back to me yet!

Dear really sorry that this few days I am quite cold to you as I am quite busy at work and I have been going to work hours before my shift start just to hit my target. Once this promotion end I will be back to normal can. Hope you will forgive me!

Today is Sheng Long birthdaY!!! Happy birthday to you BRO! Sadly we can't celebrate with him as he is in Hong Kong with 2 girls! So lucky. Hope he had a good day and year! As his birthday is 10 days a head of mine, mine will be here in 10 days time!!!

2009-05-12T02:40:00.000-07:00

Now at the counter feeling very angry! The so called permanent part time scheme just increase my commission just like the full timer. But the catch is that I have to work 6 days a week and if I don't hit 65% of my overall sales, my commission will be flat till 1%. That mean that it will be even lesser then what I am suppose to get when I got my 1%,1.5% commission scheme. I will be doing my 5 days promotion at Raffles City which I think I will bear a Sky High target which will make my overall target super high, making it almost impossible to achieve 65%

The basic pay for the permanent part time is $1000 and this means that I will be earning less then $6 per hour. So the HR says that I should remain my $6 per hour which is more worth it. Damn IT! After 2 years with the company and there isn't any pay increment.

Other company would still increase their part-timer pay after certain period of service. But not loreal! Now I know what Loreal is a Big company!

Will try to send out my resume soon. May be I will try admin jobs or other brand. BORED!

2009-05-11T21:45:00.001-07:00

Just applied my passport online. Unlike other government website, ICA is far more user friendly and easier to use then I have expected it to be. My dad forced me to apply my passport in-front of him as he want to make sure I don't delay the process. He is planning for a family trip to Taiwan. My mum seem quite interested in it too. Just hope she don't withdraw from the trip at the very last minute.

My dad plan to go during the Mid/End of June and this might make my dear Irene Leong angry as I am afraid that I might have to cancel a few days at Isetan Scott but it is not confirm yet!. Everyone says that Taiwan is fun so hope I am able to enjoy it. Just afraid that the plan is cancelled last minute just like it had happen a few time.

Going to work now. CYA!

2009-05-11T02:53:00.000-07:00

Today is the 11/5, 1 day after mother day and my family decide to shift our celebration for yesterday to today as I was working till late yesterday.

Apart from mother's day celebration, we can also celebrate my graduation! Finally, I graduated from my 3 years in Ngee Ann Polytechnic, getting a diploma in Chemical Bio-molecular Engineering! just received my certificate during the graduation ceremony held in the early part of today. Felt so weird, walking onto the stage, shaking the hand of the Director who I don't even really know who is she. Didn't had any food at the foyer as I was busy camwhoring with my classmates, my dear and darling. Will be uploading those pictures up on facebook once I have collected my photo from all my different sources.

Went straight home after the ceremony as I don't want to disappoint my mum again despite knowing that she is prepared to have this dinner postpone again. Was about to order Pizza when my mum suddenly feel like going to Changi Village to eat bbq Stingray. So now i am letting my queen to plan her dinner while I need to plan my birthday dinner with Jie Sheng, Spencer and Daryl soon as they are rushing me to do so! Will be planning one with Marshmallow for dinner once Sheng Long return back to Singapore from Hong Kong without contacting Swine FLU!

2009-05-09T06:53:00.000-07:00

7 minutes before the store close. What a day for me. Super busy for the last 2 hour till I have no time to go to the toilet to pee. Feeling quite sian now as I think I will have to wait for Caslyn till 11 before she will reach Power House. She promise me that she will leave the house once she finish her make-up. From my understanding, I think she will need another 1 hour before she will be satisfied with her makeup.

Sales is quite okay today. Bad in the afternoon but it picked up later in the evening. Had quite an early dinner and I am feeling hungry now. Think I will get something to munch while waiting for her. If not, I will be drunk easily.

Today my dear DAO me the whole day! Didn't even bother to drop me a sms or give me a phone call. Wonder what happen to her. Called her and we talk only less then 2 minutes before we ended the conversation as she is having her dinner. Just hope everything is fine for her!

Tomorrow will be working afternoon shift at centrepoint. Hope the sales will be good as normally sunday morning is the best. Sales at Centrepoint is getting from bad to worst and it seem impossible to hit the daily target.

Wonder when celine will get back to me about my pay scheme. Hope i am able to get the scheme as the pay and commission rate will be higher. Praying!!

Got to go now as the store is closing now!

2009-05-06T02:36:00.000-07:00

Finally my off day had arrived. It was suppose to be good 2 days of off day but decided to take up tomorrow work at Takashimaya. For the few days, I don't really want to be at home. Had a small misunderstanding with my mum yet my mum blew the whole issue up.

I was home slightly later as I accompany one of my friend for coffee as she is pretty stressed up with her marriage planning. Once I reach home, my mum was complaining that she is feeling warm and want to bath earlier. Out of good will, i told my mum that I don't want to eat the food she had left for me as it well help to speed things up so that she can bath. She started scolding me that I should have inform her that I don't want to eat and she won't have to keep those food more me. She was so angry that she say she is not going to leave any food for my anymore. So she started scolding till I fall asleep. Just because I want my mum to bath earlier, I was hungry the whole night. Don't even dare to let my face to appear in the kitchen before my mum start to nag again.

Went out of the house the first thing in the morning just before my mum wake up and start to nag. Went to my friend house to get his com fixed. $15 spend on the cab. Damn. Went to meet my dear at Causeway point for a movie and a meal. Before the movie start, we went to Timezone and played. Car racing and table air hockey. Its been some time since I enter arcade. Went to watch fast and furious 4 despite knowing that its been out for sometime. Super nice show as the driving stunt was superb. Wonder how long will it take before I can drive up to their standard. Went home after a very full lunch. Now I am feeling sleepy in-front of the computer.

Graduation will be on the 11th of May and I hope i can remember to bring my camera to take picture. Most likely I will just appear my face into other people camera and ask them to tag me on face book.... Haha.

2009-05-05T01:07:00.000-07:00

Another day of working before my good 2 days of rest! Another boring day with not much customer who is willing to buy yet willing to waste my time. Just serve a BAO who buy without knowing the price and when she saw the total price at the cashier, she was like shocked and don't want to buy those products anymore. To all the customer, PLEASE CHECK YOUR WALLET/PURSE BEFORE COMING OUT TO SHOP! YOUR INCONSIDERATE ACTION WILL BRING LOTS OF INCONVENIENCE TO ALL THE SALES STAFF!

Vivo seem to be a very popular place for filming. Another shooting take place again at vivo, not mediacorp, not hollywood but bollywood. No coconut tree, no large group of dancer dancing, no Saree, no curry and so many thing is missing.... Just 2 scene at vivo they also want. Waste money for transportation, waste the time of security and waste the time of me! All the people looking at the shoot and forget about wanting to get their product!

Feeling hungry now. Waiting for my friend's counter manager to come back from office before we can go and have our dinner together. Wonder what I should eat later. Need to go to the ATM to withdraw money from the wall as I don't have any single note left in my wallet. I think the coins I have in my pocket can't even pay for a decent meal. $0.40 is what I left with. Can't even eat a MacDonald Ice Cream Cone. Should have ask the bollywood staff whether there is enough extras in the shoot. May be I am able to get a job as the extra for the movie shoot. Rupies is also accepted now.

Hungry, Bored and Tired now. To those who is free, please come vivo and find me! I will be here from 2-10!

2009-05-04T05:31:00.000-07:00

Rotting at my counter now. Lucky that the office staff have not block the internet access yet.

Have been thinking recently about my birthday celebration. Should I or should I not. Anthea won't be in town to celebrate. So many things to consider. The main issue will definitely be the cost. Haven't have much money to spare to have a party to accomodate all my friends. Secondly not all my friend love to party! May be I will just meet up to have a decent meal will do. At least everyone still need to eat right?

Feeling very tired recently have i realise that I have been working for more then 16 days non-stop. Tomorrow I will be at vivo and hope the sales will be better as haven't open much bills recently. I was looking forward for this coming promotion at Robinson's lancome counter as they are going to have a BIG BIG promotion. I was trying to get customer to come back to me at Centrepoint during the promotion so that I can have better sales during the promotion. 1 of my colleague called me informing me about the change in roster which made me kind of PISSED! I will be doing the promotion at Raffles City instead of Centrepoint. All the effort of giving customer my so called name card and asking customer to look for me at Centrepoint during the promotion is all wasted.

Went to office in the afternoon to submit the counter paperwork and to talk to the HR manager about my pay issue. Kind of dissapointed in Loreal as they don't have the policy to increase their part timer pay after certain month/year of service. Have been thinking of changing company which is able to offer me higher pay. After all I will be working for another 4 more month and after that I will be serving the nation. Admin job will be nice. I haven't tried working in the office before and it will be a change in environment. The next alternative will be Chanel as I understand that they are looking for part-timer. They pay their part-timer without experience at around $6.50/hour which is $0.50 more then what I am getting.

Stressed and bored. I am feeling super warm now. The heat emitted from all the spot lighs and visual pannel are making me having a big headach! 1.5 hour before knock off!

2009-04-30T01:03:00.001-07:00

I am shocked when I saw the post you have written. Just a small issue and you can blow it up! Dissappointed with what you have mention. I have worked unknowingly for more then 14 days and this result in my tireness. You have to understand that I have been working for most of the days that I am available. I already had put in effort in meeting you. The tireness is not just because of 1 or 2 days it is definitely due to many different sources.

I will let you have some peace first and will not disturb you for the time being.

Hope that you will be happy.