Saturday, April 24, 2010
Human beings are simply just an hypocrite, don't you ever think so? Different mask is worn whenever we face different people and change instantly to face the other person. We are an artist by nature except we do not really use this to earn us a living.
Had a conversation with someone via SMS last week which lead me to think of what I have typed/thought. It was kind of a conclusion for some issues that have struck me for couples of year. It just like mine heart being trapped in the a large and badly tangled fish net, the net that caught mine heart in the past, the net that you just let it snap and that is the net that started to tangle around my heard. Struggled to find the end of the net to untie it but after so long, it is still unsuccessful. After the conversation, feeling start to get mixed up. Happiness seem to be no where to be found as it had already being engulf by the sea of disappointment and anger. The helpless feeling grew stronger till I decided to cut the net. Its no longer worth trying to untangle it and keep it in the best condition as its no longer important now.
The cutting process was painful but it means its the start of the untangling process. It still take time to untangle it completely and I really hope someone out there would help me untangle it together.
After all its time to move on. Suffered too much in agony. Will stop wasting more time and start everything anew.
it's you and me <3
7:34 AM
Monday, April 12, 2010
Today need to book in as my 2 day MC have ended. Was send back from camp yesterday morning after reporting sick at the camp. Despite the fact that I have taken the medication prescribed to me but it seem it does not help much, therefore, I went to Seng Kang polyclinic to consult the doctor which gave me a slightly different medication which help to stop my diarrhoea which almost TIRED me to the max with the frequent visit to the toilet.
The best thing was that I was still telling my bunkmate that I am suffering from constipation for a couple of days and less then hours of the conversation, I started my frequent trip to the toilet!
Yesterday was bad as I felt just so weak. I slept for almost half of the day, trying to cool myself by sleeping just in front of the fan! The weather yesterday was super warm and worst was that my air-con start leaking in the middle of the night, resulting me sleeping using the fan!
This weekend will be having steamboat again! Yeah! Just love to eat steamboat. Still thinking whether I want to club on this saturday as its really been so long ever I step into a club!
it's you and me <3
10:02 PM
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Yesterday birthday celebration was good. Had our dinner at this korean BBQ steamboat at Bugis before we head down to CU for cake cutting and drinking session.
The steamboat wasn't that fantastic as there isn't much variety but what can we expect to have when we only pay $18.80 right? So I conclude that dinner was just SO-SO only. Left the group half way during dinner to buy the cake for the cake cutting session. Wanted to go Vivo City to buy the cake as I couldn't find Bakerzine at Bugis Junction. Due to the time constrain, I decided to buy the New York Cheese Cake from NYDC instead. The cake was okay and it does not taste as bad as I thought.
Met them at CU after they finnish their dinner. Ordered 2 Tower and drink while playing the game taught to us by Jie Sheng. Time flies when ever you are enjoying it. Tried to make Phoebe drunk but wasn't really successful as she still can message properly when she reach home. It wasn't the beer that cause her to be super HIGH but is the WATERFALL ordered by Jia Jun which KILLED her. WATERFALL is just so pretty when it lighted up with fire but yet it does not taste so wonderful as it is BURNING HOT! All of them left around 1130 while I continue to stay till 145am as Spencer and Eunice came to CU too!
Early in the morning, my aunty called me which woke me up. We were suppose to meet slightly later to go Mandai together to pray to our cousin who had passed away a few years back. The meeting time were being pushed forward as my cousin didn't attend her tuition. Feeling super tired now. How I wish tomorrow is still weekend for me so I can enjoy a good night sleep at home!
it's you and me <3
2:44 AM
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Raining in the morning means it will be a nice time to have a good and long sleep. Sadly, I couldn't as I got the bloody thin in the morning held somewhere opposite of the map from where I stay!
Luckily my sister changed her plan and I am able to drive to Chevron. The journey wasn't long but the rain and the sleeping debt make me feel that the time I am driving to Chevron is as good to drive to Thailand! The morning was worsen by talk they held. First half was still okay but the second half was totally crap! Its a total waste of time going there.
Going out later to celebrate Phoebe's 2THREE birthday in Bugis. Feel like going CU later but have to see the rest whether they want to go there. Wasn't in a good mood this few days. Don't really know why but what ever it is I hope it will be better!
Anyway the phone which I have bought wouldn't be mine anymore as I have decided to give it to my dad to use as I think that the phone just have too much function and application for me to use and really benefit from it. Since my dad recently gotten cheated by someone who sold him 1 lousy phone, so this phone will make it up for the phone!
Its kind of emotional when you look through your phone and the break-up message is still there despite the fact that I have deleted it long long time ago. Its definitely a mystery why the message manage to re-appear. The sms messages was kept for more then 1.5 year before I decide to delete. After 5 months, IT JUST APPEAR IN YOUR PHONE!
Going to change and get my ass out of the house soon. Sometime i just feel like going out alone and relax!
it's you and me <3
12:28 AM
Friday, April 9, 2010
Finally the working week is coming to an end. Feel so happy that in less then a few hour time i will be free for about 48 hours of my time. But sadly, i can't really enjoy my 48 hours as tomorrow have some health seminar to attend in the morning.
I really don't like last minute stuff and you will be shock that dispite the person who knew about it sometime ago and now then we process the registration and have to attend the bloody thing. Our pay is already misearable yet we have super lttle of time to do what we wanted to do and now... I have to waste a few hou
r of my freedom for that bloody thing.
it's you and me <3
2:36 AM
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Finally i got myself a good phone which can allow me to serve the internet while i am in camp.Guess how much i got it?! I got it at a super good price of just $200 when it is being sold for more then $300 outside.
As currently i am broke, my friend who is the ex-owner of this phone allow me to pay installment. With the installment plan, I won't feel the pain for the sudden deduction of money from my bank account when it is alnost nothing in it now.
it's you and me <3
11:05 PM
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Sadly my this month wasn't being smooth. It just suck so much that I am totally lost on what I should do. This week was a short 4 days work week but yet it was hell till it felt like 1 year to me. Being fucked for things that I didn't done, being fuck for things that I have done correctly and being fucked for not being able to get some stuff from IKEA
What is this? Its really mental torture everyday, fearing that confinement will just befall on you anytime! Its stressful yet I have to go through it everyday. Wonder how long will I be able to last as the stress is just too much for me to handle. Is he just bias against me or what?
Tomorrow will be going to Malaysia. Need a getaway to relax. But even before the trip, HE had already fucked me.
This life just suck!
it's you and me <3
9:59 PM
