Sunday, February 15, 2009
The time now is 6.13 am and i am awake. Not sure why I had spring out of the bed as I didn't really had much sleep yesterday. Put down the phone at around 1 am but i slept at 4 plus as I just wasn't unable to sleep despite the fact that I am super tired. In less then 2 hours, I am awake again. Hope I can sleep back again.
Firstly, I would like to apologies to you. I know you won't read my blog but it is not easy to apologies to you in person. I am not sure whether we were part of the reason which made you want to quit but no matter what, i think we had part to it. I am really sorry to have lied to you despite knowing that you hate people to lie to you. I really hope that you will understand my situation too. It is not easy to turn down any one who had worked longer then I do. I was placed in a difficult situation as well. I know it was you birthday that it happen which I believed that it had spoiled you birthday mood. It seem there is not much you saying anything now except i am sorry and really hope that you won't leave us.
Read Phoebe's blog and realized that something is SO wrong. Felt really sad that it had ended. Its a relationship which I think one of them just can't commit. I am even more disappointed in her. Girl, friendship is definitely for life as there is never an expiry date to it so I really hope that you won't mention that you going to leave us again okay. I really hope that you can cope it well now, we are always there for you and when you need someone to talk to, feel free to call me okay. Give him sometime to sort his feeling as well okay and I think he had all his feeling mixed up. As for the promise I had made, we can fulfill one day, may be not because of the breakup but just to chill okay? My treat!
Now is Spencer's turn. As your friend/brother/smoking-buddy/drinking-buddy/K-buddy I am somehow worried for you. I really wish that you would think again before you make any decision. I am not against the ideal of going drinking but the reason why you want to open a bottle of liquor. I am not sure why you initially wanted to finish it within one night. You don't have much thing left in your bank account and you aren't working. Please think twice before spending much okay. Don't really want you to be stressed up over your financial situation again. You know that its tough to pay back all the bills/debt that you have choke up right? Hope you will really think twice in doing any decision/transaction okay?
Feeling slightly better today. Wasn't feeling that well for the past 2 day. My stomach seem to be in bad shape now. Just before Victoria (Part-Timer) left the counter, i rushed to the toilet for 2 way excretion. Shitted and vomited. IT FEEL SO BAD especially you can't leave the counter for a rest. Kept hydrating myself by drinking water and had 2 Panadol. Felt so terrible that i thought i am going to faint. But made it worst was that customers still take a long time to choose/consider before buying/PAOing. SAD. Felt kind of happy received my dear message just before i knock off.
Will be trying my luck to go to sleep now.
And to phoebe, please call me when you read this entry okay?
it's you and me <3
2:40 PM
