Saturday, January 31, 2009

January is coming to an end in 40 minutes time. January sales was bad as I manage to get 65% of my overall target at the very last moment. February pay won't be that fantastic as expected. What is worst is that February I will work less as I will be having exam.

Talking about exam, I don't think it will be the "THING" I will be looking forward to. I am just looking forward to the life after getting my diploma. Didn't go for the NTU talk today as I think all this talks will never interest me as they will just paint the picture of the course and school till the nice. Sales technique! Anyway i have to work today and NTU is just too "NEAR" to my house. Its like on the other end of Singapore and it will take me more then 1 hour and 45 minutes to reach there. I think government in the past thinks that those people who can study lived in the west. The nearest university to my house would be UNSW which closed down 2 years back. DAMN!

Cutting cost soon as realize that the money in the bank is getting more and more miserable as most of the money goes to my credit card bill. Spend almost $100 on cab within 5 days. Now i am as poor as a Church mouse!

It seem like I always get headache recently. Wonder what wrong with me. The stupid leg injury seem like it have not recover as the sensation is still there went ever I exert slightly more force on my foot. My left wrist also have this problem now. Didn't sprain my wrist but there is such a sensation as well. Will be going to see a doctor real soon but wonder WHO will ACCOMPANY me to go to the polyclinic and QUE and WAIT.

Work was bad today as I did cleaning today. Whoever whoever is coming to town and my colleague was saying that the counter cleanliness will definitely not going to meet the whoever whoever expectation. So, both of us started to clean the whole counter the whole day. Cleaning every display and even the interior of all the tester and even the acrylic stand. The last time I did such a extreme clean up was like year ago at RC. Now my whole hand is feeling itchy. Hmm... hope my hand is not allergic to those dust. If it does, I AM DEAD LONG AGO as my room is dusty too!

it's you and me <3
7:19 AM

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Went to watch the video which the power 98's DJs was discussing earlier in the morning. Super cute video which you will start laughing when the video start playing. I think this guy is a hardcore Mariah Carey fan. Most of the song he sing is hers and the rest of the song he sing is definitely those HIGH HIGH pitch tune which he will try his hard to hit the right notes which i think he fail! Think he is definitely just too confident with his singing and performance. Think it will be nice if he sing Korean song will be better. No matter what i think he sings better then how I sing in the Pub.

Song: Touch My Body By mariah Carey

Song: All I want For Christmas Is You By Mariah Carey

Song: I Still believe By Mariah Carey

Song: Listen By Beyonce

Click on the song tittle to go to the video! Enjoy and please do not sit on a rocking chair!

it's you and me <3
5:45 AM

Back in front of my computer after a very filling dinner. This year is definitely not my year in gambling again. Anyway, had an overall loss due to gambling, not as much as most of the people as I play SMALL!

Typing the first 2 sentence took me about almost 20 minutes as I have been running in and out of the toilet. Not sure what have happen to my stomach. It seem like I have just too many stuff to be get rid in my stomach. Not sure whether is it because of lunch or because i took too many oranges.

Today seem to be just so special as it never come to my mind that there will be a gathering of 10 people from different class to meet together and play. What more my class and the other 2 class does not seem to click and vice versa. Just like the 4 of us, me, Spencer, Daryl and Jie Sheng can be so close now. Daryl and Spencer are from other class and jie Sheng who just join us during CPTC till now. 4 people with different character, different liking can get together! Amazing

Not really in the mood now to blog as this is already 40 minutes since the first word I type as most of the time is spend in the toilet!

it's you and me <3
4:49 AM

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Now I am at Daryl house gambling!Yesterday and today seem to be a fun day for me, PONING lesson and attend gambling session.

Went to River Ang Bao yesterday and as usual, the place was just boring and nothing to see. Surprise that they sell durian there and whats more its not durian season now. I think they would sell it at a super high price. The varieties they sell are like the MAO WANG type which they can jerk the price to sky high price. Lucky we don't have any urge to eat durian.

Went to Singapore Flyer as well. Didn't take the ride but really want to but it is SUPER EXPENSIVE. The breakwater along the river is great to chill. Not crowded and quiet.

Finally I paid my credit card bill now and it mean that I am currently debt free as I don't to worry about keeping the money in my bank to pay the bill. This month bill won't be low either! Saving Saving Saving....

3 more weeks to my final exam and I think I will start mugging in around 1 week time. Work will stop in real soon as I just want to concentrate my school work and do not want to jeopardise my overall GPA.

Will be going to NTU open house soon to see what course will interest me. Hope I can enter a course which will give me a real good future and some course I will be passionate about. My dad's friend was telling me to continue my education before I start working. 2 years of Cabin Crew experience seem to be rejected my dad! He is totally against me to work before I take up my university education. SIAN.

it's you and me <3
11:37 PM

Monday, January 26, 2009

My new blog song. Believe me by Dima Bilan the winner of eurovision 2008. This song have been out for sometime but i LOVE this song! So enjoy this song when you visit my blog! I have attached the lyric below so you can sing along if you like the song as well!!!! Enjoy and GONG XI FA CHAI!

Believe Me
Even when the thunder and storm begins
I'll be standing stong like a tree in the wind
Nothing is gonna move this mountain or change my direction
I'm falling off the sky and I'm all alone
The courage that's inside is gonna break my fall
Nothing is gonna dim my light within
But if I keep going on it will never be impossible
Not today.

Cause I got something to believe in
As long as I'm breathing
There is not a limit to what I can dream
Cause I got something to believe in
Mission to keep climbing
Nothing else can stop me if I just believe
And I believe in me.

Even when the world tries to pull me down
Tell me that I can't... try to turn me around
I wont let them put my fire out
But if I keep going on it will never be impossible
Not today

Cause I got something to believe in
As long as I'm breathing
There is not a limit to what I can dream
Cause I got something to believe in
Mission to keep climbing
Nothing else can stop me if I just believe
And I believe in me

I can do it all, open every door
Turn unthinkable to reality
You see I can do it all and more

Believing as long as I'm breathing
There is no limit to what I can dream
Believing mission to keep climbing
Nothing else can stop me if I just believe
And I believe in me.

it's you and me <3
8:04 PM

Can't imagine that I woke up so early today despite I slept late yesterday night. I know to some people the time i wake up is not even consider early but for a person who always wake up at 12 nn -1 pm whenever he can will consider waking up at 1030 am as super early!

Visited both my paternal and maternal grandma yesterday at both my aunty house. Every year, we will definitely visit my father's side first before we proceed with a more fun loving cousin at my mum side! No exception this year and so we proceed to my uncle's house (father side) to collect ang bao! For the first time in my 19++ years, I finally get to tried authentic Shanghai's dish which taste not that bad. Both dish I saw looked mushy as both were being placed in the steamer for a super long time which was suppose to be the actual way. Can't imagine why my cousin there seem to be entertain by watching TV and roaming around the house. No cousin were friendly, no games (not even EDUCATIONAL games) were played and lets not mention the word gamble. Boring boring cousins of mine. Time passes just so slowly as I was waiting anxiously to go to my mum side!

Drove from my uncle house (father side) to my aunt house (mum side). It seem to be able to be myself at my aunt house. Everyone were so closed that no one will be left behind in every activity. And of course, gambling will be the most popular activity at my aunt place! Played a couple of round of mahjong before we start switching between Big 2 and blackjack. My younger and older cousins boyfriend were like not in their luck! Over i win about a couple of dollar which was being donated to the temple which we went in the night. I felt kind of SIAN whenever my cousin mention her wedding which I think most likely I will miss due to NS.... ARGH!

Anyway, went to Loyang temple to pray at the later part of the night. The crowd there is like super big and the smoke from their incense stick filled the interior of the temple which made me cried! Tear kept flowing as my eyes were being exposed to the smoke which is irritating both my eye and nose. Can't imagine they brought cows over to the temple for people to touch and feed. My mum was asking tiger year and dragon year how?

After praying, we went to Jalan Kayu for Prata supper. Realize how prata became so expensive now as plain prata cost 90 cent instead of 50 cent which they charged in the past. Reached home at around 1 am and the first thing after i bath was to facebook! Muhaha.

Now i am waiting for my mum to prepare lunch to fill my hungry stomach before we will go and visit my dad's good friend! Most likely dinner will be settled there and hope dinner will be good! Thinking what will be served tonight... YUMMY!

it's you and me <3
7:17 PM

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Finally, Chinese New Year is coming. Not really much in the mood to celebrate new year this year. Just feel so bored with the same activities you will do almost every year. Last year was the best as I escaped new year in Penang, Malaysia. Saw my credit card bill which was not that bad as the figure wasn't that big as compared to my past few bills. This month my bill is just $206 which is like almost $100-$150 off my normal bill! Was expecting it to be $350 as I thought I spent quite a lot for the month January.

Did I mention that my dad had confiscated my other card after the total sum of money I have to pay for my 2 bills is super lot! Anyway, had been quarreling with my parent over my spending which they kept on complaining that I am over spending. This result in them being more hostile toward me and vice versa. Even for yesterday, I argued with them over the phone over them being so unreasonable. Wanted to spend longer time with Jie Sheng, Daryl and Spencer but I can't as the 2 spoilt radio can't stop nagging me. Felt so bad as it was suppose that we spend the whole day together, enjoying every bit of minutes together! Sound so gay... but well.... it was fun!

Met up with Daryl, Jie Sheng and Spencer for a steamboat lunch which was planned weeks ago. Daryl's mum gotten us lots of dishes for us which we didn't spend much from our $100 budget. The steamboat lunch even last us till dinner as there are just too much dishes for us to finish. What was even best was that both the prawn and the frog were being marinated with Hennessy VSOP. Yummy... After our lunch, we played black jack which was so stressful for me as both Daryl and Jie Sheng kept on invest on me... Had dinner before we go to Junction 8 to accompany both Jie Sheng and Spencer for their last minute new year shopping.
Went to St james for a while before we went down to CU to drink. Didn't accompany them back to St James as I was totally pissed with the constant irritating smses my parent send me.

Hope you can be home earlier.... Missing you badly.. My phone is just so quiet... Miss your message, miss you voice, miss your everything... muhaha....

it's you and me <3
11:56 PM

Friday, January 23, 2009

Today, 24/1/09 will be the day! Finally, after so long and this day finally arrive. At the very moment, I am the happiest person.

Just came back from CU and was playing cards with the usuals (Spencer, Daryl and Jie Sheng) and today, we got Jie Sheng's god sister to join us. Play blackjack and Big 2 for the night after we K a few song. Jie Sheng's god sister treat us a Carlsberg Tower which we didn't finish as today both Spencer and i wasn't really in the mood to drink. Drinking and Smoking is now being controlled by me! Smoking is definitely the priority to turn myself to social or even quit completely.

Tomorrow will be the day which everyone is waiting for. A day where we will gather, dip our chopstick into the boiling water to cook our food before stuffing it into our mouth which is busying craping and gossiping. Think I have disappoint jie Sheng and Daryl on the last minute that i won't be staying over at their house and be accompanying them to the market to get the freshest available ingredient for the steamboat. Felt kind of tired and really wish to have a good night sleep. As i don't sleep at anywhere except my home, I have no choice but to go home and sleep. Really sorry!

Sadly you will be going to malaysia tomorrow and i will be missing you terribly. Hope you will miss me!!!

it's you and me <3
9:10 AM

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Yesterday was the day that I think I won't forget! It marked the end of my Final Year Project!! Sadly, my teacher commented that my voice wasn't natural. I knew it earlier but it just kind of habit which I don't even know how to control it. Even when I work, this accents will just appear when I speak to customer. This had been in me for more then 4 years and hope it will be gotten rid. What ever it is, our tender was the so call selected tender for the mock project. Feel so great especially after hearing that the tender will go to our group.

3 months plus of hard work had strengthen our friendship and even made us understand each other better. The precious times we spend together, at Jia Jun's house whipping out dishes which everyone enjoyed eating, the time we try to force ourselves to work beyond our limits by continuously drinking the red bull, the craps that we shared to keep everyone entertain and awake and keep the moodiness away, the mahjong sessions which we had while we were suppose to do our project. Too many precious moments we had spend together which definitely too long for me to type out.

After the presentation, I went to town to buy my new year clothes. Bought only one as my friends was commenting that i took so long to choose 1 shirt. Wasn't in the mood to shop. Went to shop for the sake of keeping my ear free from my mum's nags. She was the one who offer to pay the shirt for me so why not?! Bought a navy blue&white vertical stripes long sleeves shirt for $39. My mum also think that the design was okay except whether it will goes well with jeans.

Went down with Jie Sheng to CU after the shopping trip. Felt kind of bad that you went home alone. Didn't drink much as felt kind of bad especially it was Jie Sheng who was treating me to drink. Played several round of "Dai Dee" and i won for almost 3/4 of the game! He was the one who always win but too bad that he lost to me. Chatted with him after the games and shared/learn many things with/from him. Felt kind of apologetic to him as our class seem to forget to include him in our class outings. Not once but several time which I felt kind of unjust on the fact that the class didn't inform him.

ICP/PTech project deadline will be on this friday and i hope that Fang Yi manage to persuade our lecturers to push back the deadline to some other day. Everyone seem to be lazing around as soon as our FYP project had ended. Today, the 4 of us didn't even attend our tutorial which start from 4 pm to 6 pm. Felt so lazy to leave the house and travel to school for just a short period of time before I will travel back home. Not worth! Staying at home, watched heros which was once again being aired on Channel 5. Think the Japanese guy who have the ability to control time is the most comical person. His looks was too OUT to be a hero. But overall the show was as good as before.

Your silence had made me worried the whole day. I have been holding my handphone close to me, don't want to miss your messages. I started to think whether I did anything wrong which had made you angry till that you ignore me. It was a relief when you talk to me on MSN. Sad that you aren't feeling well and yet you are happily eating! Better take care okay!!! It seem like you really made an impact in my life....

it's you and me <3
12:58 AM

Sunday, January 18, 2009

ARGH! Saw my laptop and realise that there is a crack now. Poor lappy who have been serving me and my sister is sick. Will try to fix "her" as soon as I reach home. Need to SCREW it tight.

Feel like not coming for today class as I am really just to tired!Sadly there is a need to submit a stupid tourism assignment to my naggy old teacher. Hungry and tired as usual, stoning in class, trying to catch what my teacher is talking about. School is ending real soon and I will be graduate. No more 8am class which means I won't have to wake up at 530 am in the morning.

Wonder what can I do during the period upon graduating and before NS. Continue to work at Lancome? Or work at somewhere which is related to my course? With such a bad economical downturn, who will still want temporary staff when they already have hard time trying to keep their permanent staff. Hope i can go on a short trip before entering army. Wondering where should I go? Taiwan? Thailand? Malaysia? hmm thinking hard on how much will my budget be as I am kind of broke now!

Exam is coming and haven't been really attentive in class as many thing is still left uncompleted and meaning that I don't even have the time to attend lectures, tutorial and even sleep! The lag of sleep had already cause my face to be dry. It started peeling as soon as I really feel the stress on the project deadline.

Now we are discussing on America's president Mr Bush. Poor him, being blame solely for all the decision which I think the whole legislation plays the part in making all the decision. Why not everyone just don't push all the blame to him but to the whole party of decision maker. Tomorrow will mark a special day in American history. The first "black" president will take over such a big country. Will be watching the inauguration tomorrow. Hope the economy will pick up as soon as he take over the power. Our future will reply on him! Need him to spice up the economy for us to have more jobs opportunity. All the best!!

Lunar New Year is coming and not much in a new year mood yet. Haven't even gotten my clothes yet. Will be going for shopping as soon as my FYP presentation end tomorrow. Hope I can enjoy good food after all the stress! Take a good rest before I continue my ICP project!

it's you and me <3
4:43 PM

Back home after being away from home for more then 48 hour! Went St James with my Robinson (CentrePoint)'s colleague!Had Martell after Martell after Martell! Had a few sips of Baileys which was NICE! Haven't drink Baileys for sometime and it taste as good as ever.

I was totally STUNNED by Stella! Her tattoo was BIG BIG! Wait till you visit my facebook and see! No so soon as I am still waiting for Caslyn to post the picture up. Anyway, its my first time clubbing with them and was kind of strange initially but once the alcohol kick in, who cares about the strange feeling?! Went to the dance floor and dance for about 45 minutes before I left the place. Enjoy, enjoy and enjoy. Didn't met any people I really know except Augustine from NYP whom I had met during my 6 weeks CPTC training. Didn't talk much to him as don't really know him well.

Didn't really drink much as compared to the past. Didn't even have any urge to vomit. Heard that many young girls vomited in the toilet. Don't really know why must they want to drink so much till they are knocked out! Even in the dance floor, saw this Caucasian was fondling this poor drunk girl breast while he was trying to play kind to support her while she dance. She seem to be so possed/drunk that she couldn't even react to the fact that her breast was SQUEEZED by some stranger and all she do is try to keep her balance and trying not to fall while she still try to move with the beat.

Apart from drinking, I try to curb my smoking urge by trying to strike an conversation with my colleagues instead of trying to keep thinking of the BORED feeling in my mind. Had a mere 3 stick for the night which was like a magic number for me as I expected a WHOLE damn pack the very night!

I am trying my very best to kick my which ever habits which you don't really like. Just give me sometime okay?

it's you and me <3
2:29 AM

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Napfa is over and I will have to wait for 3 working day to pass before I will know my result. The crucial thing on my mind is about the FYP final presentation which we need to get ready by monday/tuesday. Brain juice seem to be drying up and my brain will be empty again.

Having ICP test tomorrow and yet I am happily seating in front of the computer, updating my blog. Don't have the mood to find the book, not mentioning to study the module! Have been skipping tutorial and lectures for past few weeks. This does not even happen in the past. But now? Seem like everything changes as time passes.

Feeling very tired and drained due to all this assignments and projects which is hell lot difficult and not easily copied. Think once I graduate, I will not continue my study until few years of work. Talking about life after graduation, NS will definitely block the 2 years of my life. After NS, I would like to apply for air steward. Attended the SIA cabin crew talk earlier in the day and was even more interested to be an air steward. Want to work and enjoy life before I will pursue my studies again in either engineering/law (if I manage to get in!). Jia Jun was saying how boring the life of an engineer will be and it set me thinking. Do I really one to settle in a 9-5 office job which have the least possibility of meeting people other then your colleague? Or will I want a job which I can meet many people (which I really like)? Sales/ service type of job will definitely be my first choice in my job career selection unless the pay is super low. Have to be realistic about the salary as future expenses/life style will definitely be affected by the amount you will be earning a month.

Didn't really enjoy the SIA cabin crew talk except the interaction part where we get to talk to the air stewardess in a face to face and informal manner. She seem to enjoy her job very much. Getting to fly around and see/learn different things was attractive enough. Whats even better is the high allowance pay out. Service line with high pay and with great opportunity to explore difference places is tempting me. DROOLS when she share with us on one of the best experience she have as a air stewardess. She was in Paris when she witness this breath taking scene where by she is able to see the Eiffel Tower lighting while snow flakes kept falling from the sky. How about to participate the new year countdown at Times Square, New York, which have one of the best and grand countdown party!

Think SIA should also hold career talk on its technical crew position such as Pilot/ Flight engineer. If that happens, I will then be able to compare the 2 jobs and see what will attract me even more.

Well, let not think so far. Gotten a green light from my mum to go overseas with my friend. BUT with who? Everyone is so engross with their project and no one will be as insane as I am to think of graduating activity. All I want is to get out of Singapore with out my parents and will be able to do what ever thing I want to do. First thing I will buy will be a carton of cigarette once I enter the departure hall of Changi airport! Let not mention other thing I can do with my parent beside me. The thoughts have already set me in a wild mood!! Definitely not about getting prostitute and have sex but about other things such as going club/bar till dawn and enjoying every moment with friends till the fullest!

Now let me think what should I buy for the steamboat gathering on next friday. Think I can sponsor a bottle of liquor if I manage to persuade my dad. We will have the bartender who can help to mix the best concoction for us to get HIGH! Anyway I won't be working on the Saturday so who cares about getting drunk? Want to try the feeling of getting drunk! But not the hang over session which will appear the very next morning.

Girl, don't let your moodiness affect you okay? You still have lots of thing which still requires your attention! Take a rest when ever you are tired but don't give up okay!

it's you and me <3
5:05 AM

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Waiting for the time to come. 430 pm will be the time which is going to determine whether I will serve the goverment another 2 more month. BORING! Haven't been training at all.

My healthy week ends 2 day after it starts! 2 day of anti nicotine ends on the very thrid day. As for alcohol, I will control till this friday! Haven't been visiting Jie Sheng's working place for sometime. Feel like going there soon. Definitely not this week as many thing will be due on this week! Next monday will be our final time we going to touch our FYP. The presentation will mark the end of the FYP and I will be happy to declare that I am free for new year! Indeed an auspicious way to start our new year as I never owe school anything except libary fines! Not even sure how much the fine have already accumulated. Hope it will be less then $5.

Spencer told me that most likely we will be having a mini gathering at Daryl house for steam boat! Yummy food, yummy drink (beer of course!) and our mistress will entertain us the night! :)

Wonder how much will I spend again! I will be ending this entry soon as my dear CHEENA Sheng Long is beside me disturbing me every second I am trying to blog. Bad friend right??! Well... He is good okay! YA RIGHT! MUHAHA

it's you and me <3
7:46 PM

Monday, January 12, 2009

Feeling kind of tired and irritated now. Assignments which will be due are pilling up. 24 hours including bed time is not sufficient for even a decent good night sleep. This explain why I look so tired and dull. My skin start to peel and it comes off easily with not much effort. If I can have 48 hours instead of 24 hours will be great. If.. If... If...

Receive a phone call from my cousin who just received her O's Level result. Congratulation GIRL! Think she put in quite an effort last minute, 2 week prior her Os start. Well, finally she cleared all the module with kind of an acceptable grades, able to go to a decent course of her choice!

Talking about O level result, now i am listening to this OLD SCHOOL song which SRJC uses it for their college dance. Lost In The Motion by Lisa Lisa and Cult Jam. This song is definitely from the 80s which was when the school starts operating. Kind of love the song rhythm which was not too over and the music is pleasant but just that the song is old. If not that will be my ringtone!!!

Went to Jia Jun's house after lunch and try to complete our FYP. The first activity was to set up the Mahjong table and start playing for several round before we stop and made desert! Cooked green bean soup with the help of Jia Jun! Not too sweet and not too blend! It tasted just so perfect. Will try to make again when I am free if anyone willing to try.

Didn't manage to sleep early yesterday as I woke up at in the afternoon. Bored as I wasn't doing/ thinking of anything. Had the urge to chat and i am totally lost in who to call and chat. Wanted to call her but just afraid to disturb her especially she is busy with her projects. Wanted to call another her but just so afraid that she won't pick up the phone. Anyway, all i want is to have a casual chat to kill my time. Since I did not call anyone, I just stared at the ceiling before my eyelids put on weight! Slept for about 3 hour and my day start all over again! Suck!

Hey, thanks for accompanying me for lunch despite you didn't had much. Feel kind of sad for you especially you having such a group mate. Felt kind of bad as I can't help much as my stuff does not seem to be clearing either. But I will definitely be your listening ear when ever when you need me. Just don't be over stress and sleep at a super late timing okay. You are WEAK and still want to torture your body. It will be disastrous if you fall ill!

it's you and me <3
4:59 AM

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Just finish my WISP presentation which was kind of unsuccessful. May be the topic we are doing on is kind of dry and partially we aren't in the mood to make the presentation more interesting. Brought the worm I bought while I was in Thailand to spice up the presentation.

This 2 day of work is kind of boring as there are few customer and more "BAO". Think the main issue is the 10% and 20% discount in Takashimaya and Metro respectively. This result in poor sales at Robinson!

Saw the new mascara which will vibrate. Really look like a vibrator but just kind of too small! Many people were looking for it once it was being introduced to the people on Urban! Think it will be very sell able as saw the result after application!

Guess what?! I am eating the worm I brought to school while I am blogging! Nice and crunchy! It won't really fill up my empty stomach but can satisfy my urge on chewing something As usual, I am feeling hungry and tired. Had a short night sleep which fails to satisfy my tired mind! I tried to apply what I have learn from my customer who shared with me on the the way to control your dream. Sound complex and it was complex as it took me a very long time trying to digest what she said. Will be reading up on meditation as soon as I have available time. Anyway, she was a lawyer cum a meditation coach. She even told me that weak language does not really pose a major issue in the pathway to be a lawyer. The crucial skills a lawyer need is definitely analytical skill.

Will be attending a birthday party on Friday! Haven't been drinking for about 2 weeks! Healthy weeks ahead!

To you, I am not sure what is really the criteria to determine the right timing and right mood. Hope I can know. But really wish to be together with you. Consider, Consider, Consider!!!

it's you and me <3
5:12 PM

Saturday, January 10, 2009

10 days since I have left year 2008 and entered 2009. Nothing much have happen to me except a few scary events which happen to me. Haven't have a chance to drink/ club yet as projects is giving me a very bad headache and deadline is flying nearer however, our work progress is crawling. One word to describe our progress, DIE! Kind of lucky that the group were chosen by us. Can't imagine working with group mates which method of working is totally different from the current group. JJ is the main coordinator of our report, Sheng Long is the person who rushed the distillation design calculations and our dear Chun Rong is definitely the most stressful one. Searching high and low for costing on the internet. TOUGH! Well, as for me, I did nothing much except designing the condenser with the help of our MR Chun Rong.

Worked at Center Point just now. Motivation to hit my target is no longer there. All I just want is to earn the hourly pay and commission is just for my tea break. The difference for the commission rate if I hit the target and if I don't hit is just 0.5%. The difference is so little and I don't think it will affect much. What more I realize that most likely I will be working on Valentine as our dear Stella and Caslyn will be busy spending their night with their loves one. POOR ME.... will be spending my valentine alone and being made worst by working till late hours! And the person who drafted the roster is our dear CASLYN! And to Caslyn... CONGRATULATION to you!!!

This few weeks our dear Phoebe (NERD) is busy trying to lean to cook 20 dishes to please her baby, Sheng Long. The main purpose of learning to cook 20 dishes is because our dear UNCLE demanded her to learn 20 dishes before they can get married! Kind of weird to hear such a proposal at this century. I think Sheng Long will require a bride sedan to fetch Phoebe on the very day of their wedding with a matchmaker who will be waving her handkerchief at all directions. Think they will even try to apply permit to have fire cracker to be light up during the ceremony. Sound so traditional right, what more will Phoebe life be after marriage. I think she will be the type of poor wife who will be forced to stay at home, doing the same duty everyday.

The duty will be:
Wake up, make oriental breakfast (porridge, coffee and dough-stick) for husband and children. After they had their breakfast, Phoe-jie will bring the kid to school before going to the market to buy those vegetable and meat after long hour of bargaining (Sheng Long's Style!) . As lunch time approaches, she will be home to cook 3 dish 1 soup type of lunch and will pack the lunch to Sheng Long's office before going to school to pick her kid back. After lunch with kid, she will have to wash up the dishes, do the laundry, clean the house before cooking another 3 dishes 1 soup dinner! She will have to wait at the door step to wait for Sheng Long, carry his back and coat (if he is wearing 1) to the appropriate place. After dinner, she will have to wash up the dishes again, teach her kid to study before sending the kid to bed. And by the time, the exhausted lady will have to help Sheng Long to do the account for which ever business he is doing and listening to him nagging on those business ethics and human ethics before she can have a break while Sheng Long takes his warm bath (of course, prepared by Phoebe). Once he is out, she will then have her bath, sadly a cold bath as Sheng Long have used finnish all the hot water the water heater holds. After her bath while she is drying her hair, she will help Sheng Long to massage while continue listening to Sheng Long's nag. And of course, her duty will end with a job that to Sheng Long belief that what female should do. GIVE BIRTH TO MORE KID!

Miserable life our dear phoebe will have and wonder why she is still trying to learn to cook! May be our dear UNCLE have painted the picture of their future as a dreamland which have misled her. Think she have to know that dreamland only exist in DREAM! SO wake up girl!

Well, enough of the 2 mandarin duck problem.

Hmm... Tomorrow will be my last day of this month to work in CP. Working there is super expensive as foods were being priced in an extorting manner. What more smoking there is super inconvenient as you will leave the building itself and cross the road to another building before you can light you cigarette. Troublesome!

This month I am totally broke! Now left with $30 in my bank. Anyone who want to sponsor/donate to me can simply message me!

it's you and me <3
5:21 AM

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Tomorrow will be the start of the school open house. My duty is being scheduled on Saturday which clashes with my work. Trying to ask my lecturer to change the date to either thursday or friday. Emailed my lecturer but no reply from her yet. So poor me have to wait in front of the computer, waiting for the arrival of her email.

Today was kind of short day for me as I only have 1 lesson in the morning. However, project meeting were being slot in directly after lunch. Had WISP and now waiting for my tourism meeting to start. FYP is ending soon. Next friday will be the submission date for the report while the tuesday after next will be our presentation. Brain is fully occupied by fyp and is definitely not a very good idea to think other things now.

After this week, next week will definitely be a busy week for me. Napfa and ICP test will be on 14 and 15 of January respectively. Having 2 presentations on monday which the presentation slides is not yet complete. Was doing the WISP slides just now and was shocked by the comments we got about the issues from youtube. It was definitely very cruse to some extend. Such a sensitive issue and yet they are able to comment on the issue in such a crude manner. May be is the way we were being brought up in Singapore that sensitive issue is best not to mention, preventing riots/chaos to start which will definitely be disastrous.

Finally I got to seat in the car she drove! Most of the time I drove and finally today! Not a bad driver after all. Better then me, may be her car was auto while mine was manual (Trying to find an excuse!). Love the feeling of having a driving license. The freedom to drive to anywhere without having to worry about the public transport timing. Too bad my dad's car was a off-peak car which means that I can drive the car before 7pm. Something good about it is definitely it prevent me from spending much on ERP. ERP is the most expensive thing driver worries about. Easily attain more then $5 in less then 1/2 hour drive.

And to you, I am not sure why you think that I am not serious enough but I am very sure I am not trying to play. The only thoughts in my mine is definitely be able to spend every precious second together, creating precious memories. It sound cliche but that is what I am thinking. I really hope you can feel my sincerity and not to think that I am having a motive or playing. But no matter what, I will still respect your decision as long it will make you happy!

it's you and me <3
10:54 PM

Monday, January 5, 2009

What a day! Stuck at the polyclinic for more then 3 hours. Wonder how long more do I have to take before I can leave the place for school. Now I am waiting for my x-ray report to be out. Thought the whole process will be fast but its like super slow. WIll be missing my PCON lecture today, hope he won't be teaching. Anyway nothing will go in to my mind even if he teach.

Wanted to drive today but my dad and sister is like super unhappy. Mum called me just now and have no choice but listen to me complaining to her. What to do, who ask her to give birth to such a son! haha.

Tried to play word challenge on face book but like not in the mood. Still trying to beat JJ high score but it seem so difficult. May be I will try again later during PED.

I can't imagine someone will do tourism project till 240 in the morning and start messaging everyone on her completion. Think I am depreive of sleep now yet any minor sound/disturbance will wake me up. Sad!

Trying to rush my project but it seem almost impossible as the whole clinic is super no condusive. Air-con seem not working and the place seem to be super stuffy now. Imagine all the virus and bacteria flying around in the stuffy room?!

it's you and me <3
6:29 PM

Sunday, January 4, 2009

The day have come. School have reopen and now i am stuck in class, trying to pay attention to other group presentation. Looking at their presentation, I think we still have many thing left undone. WISP, ITI and PED is giving me a major headache.

My leg are still giving me some problem. The pain simply just concentrated at 1 specific point which hurt when ever I exert slight force on my left leg. Don't want to reply on pain killer to numb the pain. Going to see a dcotr real soon but don't know when.

Just lean that someone don't know that there will always be a polyclinic at every housing estate. Clementi definitely will have a polyclinic girl!

A long day for me and hope it will end early. Want to be home early to catch the last episode of the Little Nonya. Not really into the serial but just want to know the ending of the show.

Feeling hungry and tired now. Think I am back to nomrmal now.

it's you and me <3
4:19 PM

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Today marks the end of my last holiday in Ngee Ann (unless I stay back). Daryl will definitely be happy as he hated this holiday to the core. As for me, it won't affect much except the 530 am wake up routine. And guess what, another few more week after school reopen will be the final exam before I will leave Ngee Ann for good. But who knows I will be back getting a advance diploma or going back to Ngee Ann to work!

Sadly the last day of holiday will be spend on working. Still not in the mood to work today but too bad, I can't cancel at the very last moment. Christine is definitely going to skin me alive! Love working with her especially she will always be there for me to BULLY! Sadly this month I won't be able to work with Caslyn and not to mention Irene Leong. Have not work with them for ages.

Went out for steamboat yesterday with family and my sister's boyfriend at AMK. Despite the limited choice of dishes they provide, it still cheer me up a little, meaning that I am feeling slightly better. Think food and sleep is definitely the best medicine for me. Anyway, hardly see a person who peel all the prawn using a pair of chopsticks instead of using hand (everyone around us is doing it!). The person is definitely my sister's boyfriend. After meal, my mum went to popular bookstore to get her feng shui book. It was fun testing my mum all those chinese words which she can only pronounce 20% of it. I think my dad will be worst in chinese.

Apart from the dinner, the whole day was spent at home, doing my report and thinking of way to do my tourism presentation. Think the presentation will be kind of kiddish as the animation is super cartoon. Let see what the rest will think when I show it to them tomorrow.

My foot still hurt. Will go and consult a doctor real soon. Hope it will be fractured!!! I have not even told my dad about my jaw alignment operation. My mum was telling me to go for it despite the fact that she told me that there isn't a need for it.

Will be going to work now. And to you, thank you for your concern, I will definitely try to cheer up okay?!

it's you and me <3
9:39 PM

Friday, January 2, 2009

Had a bad night sleep yesterday. Slept at around 5 am after hours of struggle to keep my mind free of everything. Many thoughts surfaced in my mind and kept me totally occupied. Was it the result of all the things which had happen for the past few months or what it because I was mentally exhausted. I am now a living zombie. My heart simply just pump to keep my body alive, it have stop pumping life into my soul.

Feeling super tired and irritated by all the things which I am required to do. It seem endless and it kept getting tougher. Working and studying no longer interest me now. So what my hourly rate have increased when my commission rate decrease?! It mean that it is meaningless to work hard to approach customer or to recommend more products to customer as it will make not much difference in the commission you will be getting.

Maintaining friendship also seem tough. Different group of friend, different type of culture. Totally not easy to blend into different culture but hope you all have seen the effort I have put in. Love the companion of friends especially when you are feeling low or bored. It is also great especially you get to share to happiness with them. Had some misunderstanding with Spencer yesterday. Luckily it was settled. I hope that it will never happen again. Belinda told me that I should control my temper. She wasn't the first who advise me to control my temper. I am trying, I really did.

For a goalless person like me, trying to be somebody of something seem tough. What more is that I don't even know what is the something I should try to excel before I can be somebody. It is just to ambitious to want to be somebody in everything. So just let someone to lead me on to something I could really excel. Let not say that I have not try. I tried but to no avail. No matter what, it seem like I will never outshine anyone. Or is it fated that I ought to be no body in everything. We will see.

Life seem so empty for a soulless person like me. Nothing interest me anymore. Tired to put on a happy face when I am not. Tired to cheer people up when I am totally not even cheered up. Tired to try to do something when I does not have any determination. Tired to keep my passion alive when it is almost extinguished. How I wish i can now vaporize into thin air now, bringing nothing with me, leaving everything behind, to enjoy the new paradise. Alvin is dead.

it's you and me <3
9:37 PM