Monday, September 29, 2008
Today is monday and it means that it is the start of another week. Luckily tomorrow will be the last day of normal 8-hour shift as my shift work is going to start on Wednesday (1st of october). Luckily I will have my off and rest day before my morning shift. This mean that i will start my shift work on friday. Despite the fact that it is my off and rest day, both day I will be working at Lancome. Wednesday will be on morning shift and after work will go and have dinner with my family as it is near my daddy birthday. Thursday will be working in the afternoon as Caslyn requested a swap of shift with me.
Went drinking after work with Caslyn, Linda, Sophia and some of their friend yesterday. Drank beer, beer and beer for the whole night except 1 shot of Martell which Caslyn offer me. We went for supper before heading to the pub which was just next door. Didn't really sing much as I seem to forget most of the song lyrics and tune. But still manage to sing a few of my favorite songs and I think it suck as I was the one who sang it!!! Left the place at 130 and reach home at 2 in the morning. I hate my body as it does not allow me to enter my dreamland until 4 in the morning.
Ate the medicine which Caslyn have pass to me. It was effective and my cough seem to have subsided completely. But it still made me drowsy despite it was a non- drowsy drug. Slept during lecture and even felt a sleep during my practical session. Think I really have to take care of my health as I realize that I have fallen ill couple of time within this short period of time.
I was angry with myself as I lost my packet of cigarette and gotten a new pack (of another brand) which simply have no taste. Smoking it was disgusting, luckily I left a few stick only. If not I will have to throw away.
Settle my credit card bill for last month spending. I was shock with the figure when my father told me. $560 was spend by me and there is another bill which I think will be arriving very soon. Cab and food is the main culprit of the large sum of money which I will have to dig from my pocket to pay. Heart pain!
Tomorrow will be fire fighting and it will occupy the whole day. Getting wet will definitely be fun but the transportation of all the wet item home for drying will be tough. Imagine carrying a set of boots, a wet jump suit and a bag and squeeze in the train. Damn it.
ARGH! I am really tired now. Going to sleep soon. Good night
it's you and me <3
6:45 AM
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
First time in the week I finally switch on my computer and of course, I will blog since I have nothing better to do. Time seem to pass very slowly during the day. Lesson and practical seem to be longer then usual and the fatigue I am feeling seem to be doubled. What made it worst is that my cough, flu and sore throat have not turn for the better. Barking all day long, bark till my chest felt so pain.
Appetite was poor and most of the meal I will donate half of my food to the dustbin. Felt so bad as it is like wasting food but I really can't force myself to swallow any bit of food. Went out with Sheng Long, Spencer and Jie Ying (all are my course mate!) for drinking session at Jie Sheng Pub. Think I have been getting hook to pubbing recently It was kind of fun especially when Sheng Long start to get drunk. He no longer was able to walk in straight line after the session. Spencer was the least affected by the alcohol and he put me in charge of liaising the rest of their movement till they reach home. Luckily everyone was feeling okay today as no one seem to have hang over. Hope we can go drink again. Hope Daryl and Rui Jie will not turn down this offer again!
Samantha called me while I was bathing. She asked me to arrange a marshmallow meeting, may be a stay over night at her house. It been a long time since marshmallow have met up together. The last time were the outing to Crazy Elephant. Don't really think I will be possible as phoebe have class on friday morning and it will not be nice if 4 guys and a girl stay overnight together.
Easily get thirsty. Have been drinking large volume of water since morning. I was craving for cold water even before I wake up. Now I just feel like drinking water again!!! Cheer!
it's you and me <3
7:33 AM
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Finally home after drinking with my friend. Drinking at coffee shop and chatting was fun! Initially wanted to go with Jocelyn as she wanted to drink. Told Jie Sheng (another classmate) that we will be going to the pub he is working after some persuasion to convince her that traveling to China town is worth it as the Pub is cosy and nice place to chill out. In the end, she insist that she want to go to Serangoon to drink instead. After awhile, her handphone rang, it was her boyfriend who want to meet. And this is how the outing is being cancelled.
Called my ex-colleague for a drink as it have been sometime since we even meet. 3 person turn up and our dinner start and end very fast. After the plates were being cleared, we start ordering our drinks! Drank for a few round before I return back home to check my IS enrollment timing. I think I have remember the wrong timing or the IS enrollment timing have change without me noticing it. I remember that it was 10 a.m. and it turn out to be 4p.m. This mean that I will have the honor to choose my own IS instead of asking people to help me. Something bad about the IS selection was 4p.m. will be during my dinner break! Damn it!
Falling ill again. Coughing, sneezing and having a bad sore throat. Had 2 dose of cough syrup and will be going to the 3rd very soon if my cough have not subside any single bit. Cut my hair yesterday and went to Ang Mo Kio with my mum, aunt and Annie (the maid) to receive my grandmother. The discharge process took a very short duration as compared to NUH discharge process which took a very long hour. After her discharge, we went to buy a wheelchair, a ultra light wheelchair which is vehicle storage friendly, and a foldable walking stick for her. Everyone seem so amaze with all the product the company have design and produce.
Went to my grandmother house and help in unload some stuff before my dad fetch me to boon lay to fetch my sister and send her back to my grand mother house before sending me to work. Poor fellow as he seem to be so busy and felt very irritated on the day. My mood wasn't good yesterday as I was terribly tired.
Knock off at eleven and went to PS to find my friend to smoke. Wanted to stay over night and accompany him as my mum allowed which she later change her mind and ask me go home straight. Slept at 2 and wake up at 8. Feeling so tired now. Helping my sister to do her network thing, something which I really know nothing (the logic, the numbering, the acronym and many other things)
it's you and me <3
5:19 AM
Friday, September 19, 2008
Tomorrow will be the day. Waiting for the day to come yet can't wait for the day to pass. Still having the problem with the curb. Still mounting the curb like nobody business. Damn It!
Have to wake up as early as 7 in the morning tomorrow as I will be meeting my instructor at 730. Test will commence at 830 and now my heart start to pump very fast. Feeling so nervous now! Hope tomorrow will be a good day for me. I really wish it could be.
Just finish drinking with my daddy. Second time of the month we drank together. Nothing fancy, just beer. My family sound so weird. Father will drink with son and vulgarity is something we will never omit from our daily speeches. Call it uncivilized, call it rude and call it weird but it is still my family! United as one! Sound so national day.
My sister fetch me from chinese garden before turning into my grandma house to fetch my mum. My grandmother will be discharge tomorrow. Finally after so long. Think she have been hospitalize for more than 2 and a half month. Remember on the second day she was admitted into the hospital, she fell into a coma which she gave up her chance of survival. Lucky she manage to pull through, surprises everyone in the family as the doctor were telling us to be prepared! Normally I get to meet my grandmother like 3 to 4 times a year but this year seem to be so special. Think have been meeting her for so many days in this year. A bubbly women!!!
Don't have any urge to sleep now despite the fact that my body and mind is completely exhausted from all the works and lesson I attended this week. Chat with my friend yesterday via sms. Her comment on my lifestyle was "working during weekend and having to attend lesson during weekday won't feel tired meh?" and "waste of your youth since you can work till like nobody business after graduation". This set me thinking. Kind of agree that it is kind of waste of my youth, working every weekend. But somehow I think working is fun. Learning life skills (especially human management and communication), making whole new lots of friends and converting my weekend hours (most likely will be wasted by stoning) to cash for me to maintain my daily life!
Something kind of bad happen to Sheng Long. He was involve in an accident. Luckily is a minor accident. His car was dented. The car was not even 1 month old and have to suffer. Poor car! Lucky the care is solid enough to withstand the impact. From the dent, I think both party seem to make a big "who har". Think both of them should be Sheng Long pattern. Both simply just want to win. Hope he won't be angry and sad over this incident since he say he is INNOCENT! Since it have already happen, let god to the rest! Just take care and drive carefully okay!
it's you and me <3
7:32 AM
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Finally I know the real reason why you were late on the very day. Felt so cheated when I heard it. Don't know why I did not get angry despite the fact that you were late for more than an hour and a half on the very day. May be I need your help to help me choose something for my ex-girlfriend (my girlfriend at that time) or simply just fine with the fact that you are late since we know each other for sometime and kind of close.
You know from the very start that I really have no patience and waiting for someone is something I hated to do. You know my impatience will always turn my mood for the worst. You called and apologies to the fact that you will be late. Apologies accepted and everything seem normal.
Now I know how superfical you can be. Going to your guy friend house, walking your guy friend dog till you are one and a half hour late when you know that you will be meeting someone real soon. It really absurb. If you aren't sincere in meeting me, just call me and cancel. No point to meet me to do something which it don't really involve you. You should jolly well cancel it and spend all the time with him. Won't it be a better thing to do?
I am not angry that you are late but I am simply pissed with the fact that you have lied on the reason on why you have late, trying to be sincere in helping and meeting me. You are such a dissapointment and blame myself for being stupid to believe what you have said. Won't give a fuck to what you say and what you do now. Its not my problem right?
it's you and me <3
7:35 AM
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Decided to some changes to my blog. The initial slide show I have added in my first post seem to have big problem. Shifted the slide show to be on the side of blog page. At least I can show my picture again!!!!
This reminds me that I have not been taking my camera out for sometime. Uploading more picture to the slide show soon. May be next week. Think the picture I will upload will be the picture I have taken while I take photography as my elective module. For your information, the current photos the player play were taken few years back. Think I am 16 year old for most of the picture. The remaining few was taken when I am 14 year old. So may be it still consider terrible to you but is one of the few photos I really like!
it's you and me <3
7:26 AM
Finally I have the chance to climb up the distillation column which is 9 story high! Jurong Island night view is superb. Manage to catch a glimpse of the sunset. The sun seem to be shy today as it hide behind a thick layer of cloud which was kind of waste. No matter what, it still look good!
Mid term test will be coming on Thursday and the information I have copied seem to be useless as I have summarize till it is too general. Well, just pray hard that lady luck will be with me. Since I am praying hard, I won't mind pray even harder to have cupid to be beside me! Cupid seem to have applied leave and have not return to his work desk. Or may be he forget to top up his arrow.
3 intensive day will start tomorrow. Driving in the morning, training in the after noon till night. By the time I reach home will be around 21:30 Eat, bath and online. By the time I enter my dreamland will be around 1-2a.m. The 18 hour awake per day is a small sacrifice for my driving test which will be arriving on saturday. Hope the tester have a good night sleep with his wife/mistress on the night before. If his mood is good, the chances of passing will also be high. Hope the tester won't be the bitter gourd which fail me for some mistakes which I didn't commit!
Have been hearing the song Truly Madly Deeply by Cascada (The same song which sang by Savage garden). A part from the lyric which made me thinking.
I wanna stand with you on a mountain
(Think I will enjoy the time spend climbing together, may be enjoy the view together will be better too!)
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
(may be not bathe with you in the sea... sun tanning together sound better!)
I wanna lay like this forever
(only if you are with me)
Until the sky falls down on me
(I just do not want the sky to fall as I just want to live with you!)
And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky
(I wish that we will admire it together!)
I'll make a wish send it to heaven
(Hope you will also make yours too!)
That'll make you wanna cry
(I want you to hug me when you cry)
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty
(Just don't cry so often can? )
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection
(Sound cool! No matter how bad the condition is, I will never mind so long I am with you)
Of the highest power and lonely hours
(Sound so holy... Just love lonely hour spend together)
The tears divide you
(Sound DAMN DIRTY! I just wish the tear will make you know that how vulnerable each of us are)
Sound lame right? But this is my thoughts when every I listen to this song!
it's you and me <3
7:26 AM
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Weekend is going to be over! Tomorrow will mark the start of the 3 week of training in Jurong Island! Tomorrow will also the release of our result. So pray hard that it will be a good one! 1 and only module (Industrial Attachment) will determine last semester GPA. I want to go university and I really wish that last semester will not jeopardize my route to university. How far can a guy progress without a degree?
Sales was great today. Manage to fish 2 fishes that bought some stuff from me! However, the time still seem to be slow today. My mood got better today and manage to be crappy at work again! 2 cigarette smoked during working hour today! Think today I smoke the least for weekend for this month!
Today is lantern festival and I see many people lighting up candle every where: At park, at walkways, under a shade, under a tree, corridor and even in their house. That what I like about lantern festival, not the moon cake (yuck!), not the lanterns but the pomelo and the enjoyment in lighting candles. Walk home from LRT station and didn't manage to catch a glimpse of the moon today. Been sometime since I look up at the sky and admire the view.
Pondering what I should eat for tomorrow lunch. Dinner will be home cooked food back from home! Think this week will be another week which will drain my brain juice in thinking what to eat for my lunch and dinner. This week seem to be a quiet week for me as not much activity is being planned. Wednesday, Thursday and Friday morning will be occupied by my driving session. Saturday morning will be the adrenaline filled day. Driving test will be on saturday and I am really kind of stress with it. Really wish that I can pass this driving test. Most of the person in my class who had their license pass their TP on their very first try. Damn my driving skills which have made me waste even more time to wait for my license. Have been day dreaming on how nice it will be, having a license, able to drive and can spend less on CAB!
Having my mid term test on Thursday and I really hope I can do well. Another module which will affect GPA of my final semester. Hope this test will be easier than the very first drawing test.
Counting down to the very end of the training!!!! Looking forward for this weekend especially SATURDAY!
it's you and me <3
6:14 AM
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Think I have miss out something in my previous post. I will like to congratulate my best friend who manage to make his girlfriend surprise with his sweet gesture he have done.
Dear Aaron's Girlfriend
Please take good care of my dear brother and ignore his nonsense (don't take it to heart) and do appreciate every action he does to keep you happy and cheerful. I believe he have tried his very best to make everyday a great day for you. He seem to be so happy with you, not because you are his first, but he believe that you are his soulmate and his partner in life. Do cherish and take care of him okay? Hope the relationship be everlasting (if you don't believe in eternity then change the everlasting to "till the end of your life") and no one will ever let each other down okay? Never make him a failure like I am. It seem like his heart no longer just beat for himself but it beat for every moment to stay alive to see you smile. Thank you for all the care and love you have showered to him.
Best regard,
Alvin
it's you and me <3
10:02 AM
Diarrhea still continues today. Seem like I have shit through out the whole Singapore. Jurong island, Paya Lebar, Seng Kang, Pasir Ris and Orchard. Actually I also want to include Tampinese as I actually wanted to shit there but the sight of the toilet have made me to control back home. Guess what I saw just outside the Tampinese toilet; I saw shit there. 2 pile of shit were there. Sympathize the cleaner as he will have a hard time to clean and also sympathize the person who shitted outside the toilet. Can you imagine how his pant will smell and look? How is he going to go home and how is he to go and get a pant and change?
Went to work today. Manage to be there on time except I left my name tag at home. Kind of moody today and I do not know the reason why. Sales were bad and what made it worst was still my mood. If my mood is great, I believe I will enjoy my work today as Irene Leong is in a happy mood. Head start to ache and made me feel even more uncomfortable. By 8p.m. I am already dead tired. Met Daryl (my poly classmate) for a smoke. He waited for me for more than 20 minutes just for me to smoke as he finish his thing long time before my work end.
After work, I went all the way to Pasir Ris to meet my family and relative for BBQ. It was been a long time I saw my niece and nephew. Spend a few hour there and became a bartender who start mixing liqueur for my cousin. Mixing of liqueur was never in my genes as the mixture i made seem to be so strong that it made my cousin's boyfriend face turn red. It have to be diluted 4 time before it taste like the normal mixture. Plenty of BBQ food were being place in front of me and I was force to finish it.
TPE was jam (according to my father) when we were suppose to return home. Made a big detour to old Tampinese Road (the road was deem haunted by most of the adult!). My mum was like freak out when we were traveling the road.
My mood changes better at the very moment i receive your call. You became to be a part of my life and it seem like I can't be away from you for long. Glad that you are doing well! Sorry that I did not chat with you much as I was busy with my relative!
it's you and me <3
9:38 AM
Friday, September 12, 2008
Finally Friday have just arrive and this means that I am going to end my 6 week of training in Jurong Island in 4 weeks time. Life there is fun as my trainer is damn fun. CUTE will be the word to describe him. We call him mario as he really look like 1. Lesson/ practical with him is always fun as he never fail to entertain everyone. Sometime I just feel so bad to be late for his class because of smoking. He is simply the model trainer!
Every monday we will have to submit a entry in our log book to our trainer for assessment. The entry will be on one of the practical you have carried out during that particular week. Guess what? I have completed my log entry for this week! Kind of surprise that I am doing my work and kind of organize( to my standard).
Today is Daren's birthday and we have a mini celebration at chevron bowling alley. Played 2 games and it seem that standard drop from the first game to the second. Strike only 1 time for 2 games and have only 1 spare. Kind of irritating as most of the score were 9 (just because of the one stupid pin that do not want to fall!). Bowling seem to be fun and it seem that I have played it 3 time in less then 2 month! Yesterday I played basketball while waiting for the bus to pick us up. Didn't really contribute much as me and Guan Han simply just find it stupid to run about and so, I became the defender and the person who I am defending will be Guan Han! Been a long time since I sweat like what I did yesterday. Hot but fun!
Tomorrow will be the day that Nic will be going to serve his NS. Kind of miss him as I will have 1 less sms/msn messaging kaki who will inject fun into my life, inject joy into days which were simply horrible. Well, wish you all the best okay! Stay in contact bah!
Sheng Long drove to CPTC today. Sat on his car and as usual, holding anything which is attached to the car to ensure my safety. He is those kind of reckless type of driver who simply just love speed and power. Have been nagging on him on his recklessness and it seem like it does not help. I know that somehow I am not qualify to comment on your driving when I have some problem getting my license but I do not want to see anything to happen to you. Been driving on the road frequently does not mean you have all the experience to handle your car firmly at all time. So please hope you can really cherish you life!
Oya! I was suppose to meet Aaron for supper but end up it was been postpone. My dear brother is going to do something sweet. Giving his girlfriend a surprise on the her birthday (at the 12 sharp!) He is always sweet to girls. But I think he is exceptionally sweet to her. Count her lucky to fall a guy who will always be there for her. Hope she will really appreciate him. Hope he will succeed to surprise her girlfriend and hope she will be happy. I simply suck at surprising. Tried to surprise someone on the very minute her birthday start. Backfired and receive load of scolding.
Tomorrow will be working at centerpoint again and hope the sales will be great! All the best to all the customer who will be buying from me and Irene (LEE and LEONG) hope they will strike 4D or is in a happy mood to spend. Hope they will spend as much as they can at the counter. When there is sales, time seem to fly and money seem to be coming into our pocket easier. If no sales, time seem to crawl and money also crawl to our pocket! so PRAY HARD! JIA YOU!
it's you and me <3
9:40 AM
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Listening to my favorite song while blogging (I have been playing this song over and over again). 无可救药 by 品冠 have been my favorite since I heard of this song (many year ago!). This song have accompany me through so many situation before. Good or bad, this song will be the song played. This song will also be never be miss out from my MUST SING songs when I visit K-Box.
Felt very emotional today. Felt very pissed off for something which I don't really won't mind normally. The word "haha" have been completely strike off from my message today. Argue with my mom in the car and kind of shouted at her. Regret for the action just now. Luckily, she never really put it to heart if not I will really feel bad.
Not really sure what exactly made me felt so moody. Since I am not in any mood to pacify anyone, let me speak what I really want to speak.
I am so mummy boy! So what? Don't have to give me those face when I mention someone will fetch me home. I see no issue with it. If you find that there is big problem with it, TELL ME! (Irene, don't worry I am not talking about you)
Secondly, I don't care what you all think of me. I am WHO I AM and I don't think you all have any right to control me. What I wear, what I do and who I meet does not concern you. Not even my mum have the right to control me. SO WHO ARE U?
Thirdly, I felt that I am doing something no one ever appreciate. Kind of stupid of me to waste my effort and suffering to do something which does not seem to change anything. Felt that smoking have drift some of my friend away. Tried to cut down and yet no one seem to appreciate. Everyone thinks that quitting smoking within a day is possible! I know it is possible but it really something I can do. From 6 sticks in the morning till 1 sticks in the morning; from 16 sticks a day to just 2 sticks a day. All this effort seem to be invisible and never get notice by anyone. It made my moral so low that I think quitting will never change anything back to it original state and quitting is something which people do not even care. I know that whether I smoke or not does not affect YOU but at least, shouldn't you give me the support?
FUCK IT!
Saturday will be the day Nic will be going to be patriotic to the country. 2 years will be how long he will be patriotic to the country. He seem so down that he will be leaving his comfortable lifestyle for a lifestyle which he himself think is a total different way of living. CHEER UP and stay happy okay. When you are bored you can call me and chat! Hope to see you real soon. Especially with your new hair style!
it's you and me <3
7:19 AM
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Finally I am updating my blog again.
Guess what? I am studying now, forcing myself to memorize a stupid diagram which is so big that was needed to be printed on A3 size (2A4 size paper join together) and need to draw exactly what was printed for tomorrow test. The test sound so stupid which I think student with extreme memory then can score well for the test. Freak right?!
Love my trainer (mario) as he is so easy going and fun loving. Seem to be 40+ going to 50 and yet manage to gain so much attention from the whole class of average age of 19 years old. So far so good for the training. The few major problem which I faces are the traveling time and thinking what to eat for lunch and dinner.
Had driving lesson today and it made me so MAD! Told the instructor the day before that I will alight at Eunos MRT station so that I can take train straight down to chinese garden for my class BUT he drop me off at UBI and the reason is I have not arrange with him! FUCK! And guess where he drop me? A very desolated area in ubi which I do not even know of the bus number and its route.
CABBED to chinese garden and the journey have pocketed $17 from me. Lucky I found someone who is willing to sponsor me! Called my father and complain to him what have happen to me and he was asking what he can do (sarcastically) and I told him that he should simply just let me vent my anger. Seem like my father is also my sand bag!
Lesson was long (as usual) and practical is fun (always!). Daddy fetch me home and now I am suffering, trying to memorize the stupid diagram!
it's you and me <3
7:22 AM
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Third day of the training program and the last day of morning class. The time seem to fly, unlike yesterday and the day before. Almost sleep during lecture but lucky those break given just seem to be in the right timing. Ate the food from the caterer and find that it does not taste as bad as the day before.
Sad to say that the caterer have decided to withdraw from the training centre due to poor sales. Can't really blame the student who did not support them as the food quality does not justify the high price we are paying.
This few day I been feeling sleepy, don't know what have happen to me. My "no life" life is back and I simply just getting sick of it. Have been thinking on some issues recently and getting kind of troubled with the issues. Wanted to stop thinking about it but it simply just surface in my mind. Damn It!
Think Nic will be back in town today (if not then it will be tomorrow). My hp have been very quiet as no one bother to message me. Hope he will enjoy his trip and get something back for me!!!!
Soon I will be bored to death with my life. Dear god, just let something to happen (must be something good!) and spice up my life.
it's you and me <3
4:53 AM
Monday, September 1, 2008
First day of my 6 weeks attachment and I kind of hate it. May be it is just the start. Not because of the school, not because of the place and not because of the traveling time but it is the people there. May be 3 days later will be better as those irritating bunch of people will be in a different timing.
Yesterday I slept at 1a.m. and I woke up at 6 in the morning. 5 little hours of sleep to energize my day which will last about 14 hours. Kind of sleepy and hungry now. My mum went to visit my grandmother and have not return home (with the dinner!). My dad is watching some funniest animal clips which I am really not interested in. FEAK!
2 more days of morning class and the rest will be in the afternoon. That mean we have longer hour of sleep but having shorter time to do anything for the day except attending the training. Gotten the PPE and tomorrow I will bring my safety boots over! A locker was given to me and I will make full use of it! It is smaller than what we have in SP, big enough to squeeze our coverall, our lecture notes and OUR SMELLY BOOTS!
Nic will be away for this few days as the HIGH MAINTENANCE KID is on vacation at TAIWAN. Will be meeting for drink on friday (if no last minute changes happen!) as he have to return my PSP. Kind of bored as 1 less person to sms.
Anyway, I think it will be time to update my 2 campaign (cost cutting and smoking)
Cost cutting-
1 cab ride for this week instead of 2, passing my mum all the cash which is suppose to pay my bill (as I have the tendency to spend it as well), eating food court instead of fast food (if eat fast food will also take the cheapest set) and will be leaving for work earlier in order to have more time for traveling :)
Smoking-
Type of cigarette is being change (red to menthol) and the number of sticks is 1/2 of the number of sticks I smoke during attachment
Still remember the promise I have promise you. "I will try to quit smoking after my attachment" . I will try my best to quit as I do not wish to disappoint you. Wish me all the best and give me all your support okay?
it's you and me <3
3:43 AM
