Friday, July 11, 2008
In the state of confusion, in the state of dilemma. Not knowing what exactly have happen and what should i do.
My grandmother is still in the hospital, in and out in ICU. All her children (my mum and my uncle and my aunty) were now considering to allow her to undergo an operation for her fractured hip-bone (the success rate of the operation will be 50 50). But at the present moment, her pair of lung seem to be the major issues. 2 week ago, she was having big problem with absorbing oxygen to her body as her lung seem to be malfunctioning. Than the big news came. The doctor ask us to make a major decision. Either we let her go peacefully or we insert a tube in her oesophagus(the percentage to getting the tube out is low, meaning that she will not be able to speak if we choose it). The decision was made that we will let her go peacefully if her lungs is not absorbing the oxygen which is introduce into her body at a high pressure through a mask. But when we were about to whisper to her ear on the plan we have made, she was awake, showing lots of hand signs trying to indicate that she is fine. Her condition seem to be better and she ate much for lunch the very next day. As her condition improves, she was able to transfer to another ICU which was for less critical patient and 3 day after that, she is able to transfer to the normal ward. While i was surfing the internet just now, my mum's mobile phone rang, it was a message from my cousin informing my mum that my grandmother condition seem to have deteriorate and will be send back to ICU. What the hell!
060708 was the day i send a message to my girlfriend asking for a breakup. It was sent in a moment of anger after some messages we had exchange previously. The very next day, she ask me whether i really meant what i have message her the night ago. I told her "No" and we started to exchange more messages asking each other for views and opinion on the relationship. I really regret sending the message to ask for a break up and i am really total lost in way to salvage the relationship. I am also clueless on how to cheer her up as she seem to be very "pek chek" when ever i talk to her. Thing is totally different from the past. Thing have change as both of us grow older. The previous relationship with her was totally different from what we have now. I really wish it to be totally different is that i do not want the relationship to end, unlike the previous relationship. Totally confuse! Damn It!
For my attachment, the 3 of us have been transfer from the operation team to the document team, doing something like the job of a document controller. We are in-charge of doing pagination to 2 hundreds over files for the rest of our days in the company. 3 person is able to complete 3 files a day and the target set by the manager is 10 files a day. It seem a easy job, stamping all the documents in the file, separate the documents, fill in the number for the primary and secondary number and start counting the pages in the whole document (sometime the whole document is split into 3 files or more and therefore, you have to count the total of pages for all 3 files) and continue to complete the whole pagination process. The stamp is "Page___ of ___" so you have to fill up the first blank with a running number till the last piece of paper in the last file(s) before filling the same number for the second blank for all the page. Easy job but is really tedious and tiring. Imagine we can only finish 3 file of the same document. hate my job now!
My driving TP will be on wednessday and I am totally not confident in passing it. Yet I do not want to do another TP before passing it. I want first time pass but the chance of it to happen seem low. Hope the next 3 hour of driving practise can help me to pull through my test. Bless ME!
This week seem busy for me. Tuesday i had dinner with the PFW group for a farewell dinner for one of the fellow technician who is leaving the company. We wanted to go to the hawker centre at Alexandra road, near to IKEA shopping centre for dinner. BUT, the disappointment seem to have injected into our blood stream the very moment we saw the store close. Because of it, we went to anchor point for dinner. It was kind of posh restaurant. It is call "Zhou's Kitchen" and was part of the Tung Luk group. We ordered dishes such as chili crab, Peking duck, chili sweet potato leaves, steam sea bass and few more dishes. The dinner was great and had lot of fun during dinner.
As for wednessday, i had tuition class for my cousin. Really afraid that i do not have enough time for her to practise much for both physic and chemistry as she is weak in both subject. Really wish her that she will put in more effort in studying instead of playing.
Thursday i had dinner with part of the marshmallow group. Sheng long have rented a car and it was really honoured that he is willing to bring us out for dinner as he can actually just bring his girlfriend out only. Thank Bro! We ate claypot rice at geylang and after the dinner, we wonder the geylang streets like a detective, trying to admire all the ladies standing on the road side. Sadly, no one approaches us. After roam the streets, we went to ate Durian! Durian season have arrive and the price of durian seem to have drop! Great News!
Friday was the boring day. I went home after work just for driving. Its friday and i can't go out. Freak!
On wednessday, my father fetch me home from my aunt place after tuition. On the way home, he mention that he knew that i am doing something behind his back. At that very moment, i was shock, squeezing my hand into my bag, trying to make sure my cigarette box is not being exposed. I am not sure what he have knew and he really sound so serious. Honestly, after so many thing have happen to me, how am i able to cut down smoking? I know is determination but everytime i try to quit, things start to happen and more and more trouble start to appear. And this habit have make a very big hole in my pocket. Damn it! Almost 40 dollar spend on cigarette a week. Now i am really a poor boy!
it's you and me <3
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