Friday, June 27, 2008
My last post seem to be weeks ago! Finally is friday and 3 weeks to my driving test! Have not much confident for my driving as my driving still suck terribly! Less than 8 week before i will end my attachment. Should i love my attachment as it is fun or hate my attachment as it limit my time spend with my girlfriend (let not count the weekend as both of us hardly meet during weekend)
8-5 seem like a office job which simply require you to seat in front of the office, drinking a warm cup of coffee while typing a page of documents. My 8-5 seem to be more demanding than that, having to do so much physical job (luckily we have fitters to help us!), so much risk involve (inhaling vapours, coming in contact with nasty solvent, high pressure vessels and pipes, and many many more!) But no matter how risky it is, i still love the job except the long travelling journey!
The word "driving" start turning me off now. It had cause my family members to go it separate ways. It started off with the phrase "I think you do not have the chance to drive dad's car"! And now the house seem to be lifeless, everyone talk very little to each other, my mum and dad relationship turn hostile and everyone seem to have turn to be roommate instead of family member. And because of the phrase, i am learning my driving till i am really going insane with the car, trying not to mount the curb, turning the car in the proper angle. Feel like giving up as i really have no interest in learning driving at all! Learning for the sake of pleasing my father and just want to have the feeling when people start to praise you for having your license at young age. Hate my instructor to the core and almost hit him in his face. Argue with him and the car seem to be wreck by me very soon!
My mouth have few ulcer, growing 1 after another and some of it grew in clusters as well. My braces metal wire came out of its pocket and started to poke my mouth! My next appointment is like on September and my last appointment was like February 08 before new year. My poor teeth!
Yesterday i was question by the lead commissioning engineer of the office on why do me and my classmate have to pack 11 pack of lunch back. His questioning seem like interrogating me and making my blood boil. Have been packing back to the office for couples of weeks and the aunty at the cashier already knew both of us. Imagine 2 person carrying 3-5 fully filled plastic bags into the office? All i can say is the 2 of us seem to have irritate all of our fellow colleagues.
Show Senthil (my colleague) some of the photo i have taken in New Zealand and Australia few years back(even before i start to attend my diploma course!) and was seen by Stella. What really piss me off was her comparison of my photos with professional photographer. HELLO i don't even had any proper training on photo taking until i enter to polytechnic and I am using a 3.2 mega pixel Epson compact digital camera with no extra accessories and the picture she compare with was a totally different genre . I am not saying that what i have taken was a perfect shots but i really don't like people to compare my pictures i have taken with professional with proper training and with full set of accessories to fit on the latest and powerful camera. I am just a person who pick up photography when i am secondary 1 and learn from every picture i had taken, scolding receive and comments from people who know how to tell me exactly what i can improve. And the camera i have is some old camera which do not even have the program/specification to help in improving the quality/lighting of the picture. I do not even have a tripod for my camera let not say other more sophisticated accessories such as external flash, colour filter, noise filter and all that!
Tomorrow 28/06/2008 at 19:26, it will be exactly 365 and 0.25 day of our relationship (remember there is 29 day on the month of February) 1 year might seem short comparing with their, 1 year might seem just another day of life But to me, this day mean alot to me. Been through few relationships, this is the longest and this is the one and only i had placed almost my whole life in it. Been through many ups and downs together, spending times together (not alot but i am content despite the fact that i am persuading you to go out more) and understand each other more and more after somethings have happen. Sometime i really do not wish that we are in boyfriend/girlfriend relationship but in a husband and wife relationship, committing ourselves in each other life's. Dear, I do not want to have just only memories in my mind forever as it meant that i have lost you. I want you to be with me till eternity, creating memories every step we takes, every breath we take and everything we did. Dear let the first year anniversary be the second chapter of our love story and let us work hand in hand to create the thickest and never ending story.
Argue with my girlfriend again. I did something which she hated it (to the core)! I message her friend to ask about my girlfriend condition (as she is sick) and whether she attend school as my girlfriend did not reply most of the message i have send. I know her condition from her blog and her friend only. And you must be guessing how my girlfriend knows about the messages i have send to her friend right? Let me fill you in, there is this boy/girl (do not exactly know his/her gender) who is my girlfriend's friend' friend and he/she saw the message and went to tell my girlfriend. What a NICE person he/she is! After knowing that this person told my girlfriend about the messages, the next few messages i send to my girlfriend's friend was full of COLOURFUL language scolding the NICE person (who will not?!)! Trust me, any anxious person who is worried about his/her girlfriend/boyfriend will try his/her best to find information about his/her partner if he/she is unable to get any respond from his/her partner and the way of find it might be even worst that what i have did.
Crying in silence, living in my own world, my fairytale, my dream
it's you and me <3
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