Friday, June 13, 2008
After a long week, finally friday have arrive. Friday the 13th was indeed unlucky for me.
Hours spent at work seem to be very long today as i was kind of moody. Had a drawing test again and still i did not pass (what the fuck!). Did not even finnish my lunch which kind of shock my colleague (normally i am the first to eat finnish all my food!). I can feel that they are concern about me. They did not even throw away my rice as they were though that i can eat it after my smoke. But after the smoke break, i still do nothave the mood to eat. By the way Thanks Pal! Really feel kind of touch especially Shikin who was trying to cheer me up, play some music and accompany me to smoke.
I was almost got hit by a car while crossing the road toward my block. The fucking driver lower down the window and fuck me upside down. Fuck the driver back! Why can't he open his eye bigger when he turn in to the small road? Why must he make such a big turn? Why must he speed is lousy trash (A very very old model Mitsubishi lancer!)! Chee Bai! Hope you fucking car's engine start to cough and sneeze!
My parent quarrel again. What the fucking problem with them? Quarrelling over minor issues which irritates me to the core. Why can't my mother give in and why can't my father just tolerate?
I feel so lonely. Having all my feelings bottled up, having so much trouble/stress which i have no one to talk to, having shows which i wish to watch yet everyone seem to be busy to accompany me to watch and doing things which i am not even sure whether it will really be possible and will it be use. It seem that all the only way to feel better is by smoking. From 4 sticks to 8 sticks a day, from 3 times day to 5 times a day.
Tommorrow will be another day of working and luckily i am on afternoon shift. Sunday will be on morning shift and the day after next will be a long week for me. Major activities will be carried out in the plant and i am hopping that i can render some help instead of trouble(s).
it's you and me <3
6:52 AM
