Sunday, June 29, 2008
Finally back home after working. A bad day for me as I only have 2 customer. Didn't manage to hit my target for today despite the target was as usual amount. Anyway, talk to one of my ex-school mate sister. She look so alike to her sister who is just a few months old. As friendly and cheerful as her younger sister (jie ting). It been a long time since i ever contacted Jie Ting. Well... if we meet in school (few month later!) as she is currently on her attachment. It is just so strange, she live so near to me and we hardly meet even went we go to school.
Work over time by 30 minutes today (no really over time as I am not being paid for the 30 minute) just to help me colleague to sort out the price tag. Well good news for me and sad news for people who are using lancome product(s). The price is going UP and UP and this few weeks i will be hearing aunty screaming into hear, complaining about the price of the products. Expensive mean more money to get better quality products and staff. Better quality product with the help of the quality staff, your face will look even radiant/smooth/fair/matte. With more money, we have more money to get better quality material, giving you the best of everything. We can't use any material from China and tell you quality assured right? We can't get our product manufactured in China and tell you that it is French Brand and Europe no 1 luxurious cosemetic brand right?
Well, the day have finally arrived and our relationship is 1 year old! Hurray! All i wish it will last till eternity. May be not eternity but till the very moment we take our last breath together. =)
it's you and me <3
5:30 AM
Friday, June 27, 2008
There is something i have miss out in the post i have posted yesterday. Today 28/06/08 is 365 and 0.25 day together but i have not state that tomorrow 29/06/08 is the actual 1 year anniversary getting together.
Today i will be at home, doing my favourite: rotting till i time i go sleep. Literally nothing for me to do (those i like to do) and the rest left are thing i really abhore doing. I should have work today, how i wish someone will call me and ask to work for them today!
Tomorrow will be working, converting my time use in rotting to cash for me to spend. Hope god will bless me with good sales
it's you and me <3
9:11 PM
My last post seem to be weeks ago! Finally is friday and 3 weeks to my driving test! Have not much confident for my driving as my driving still suck terribly! Less than 8 week before i will end my attachment. Should i love my attachment as it is fun or hate my attachment as it limit my time spend with my girlfriend (let not count the weekend as both of us hardly meet during weekend)
8-5 seem like a office job which simply require you to seat in front of the office, drinking a warm cup of coffee while typing a page of documents. My 8-5 seem to be more demanding than that, having to do so much physical job (luckily we have fitters to help us!), so much risk involve (inhaling vapours, coming in contact with nasty solvent, high pressure vessels and pipes, and many many more!) But no matter how risky it is, i still love the job except the long travelling journey!
The word "driving" start turning me off now. It had cause my family members to go it separate ways. It started off with the phrase "I think you do not have the chance to drive dad's car"! And now the house seem to be lifeless, everyone talk very little to each other, my mum and dad relationship turn hostile and everyone seem to have turn to be roommate instead of family member. And because of the phrase, i am learning my driving till i am really going insane with the car, trying not to mount the curb, turning the car in the proper angle. Feel like giving up as i really have no interest in learning driving at all! Learning for the sake of pleasing my father and just want to have the feeling when people start to praise you for having your license at young age. Hate my instructor to the core and almost hit him in his face. Argue with him and the car seem to be wreck by me very soon!
My mouth have few ulcer, growing 1 after another and some of it grew in clusters as well. My braces metal wire came out of its pocket and started to poke my mouth! My next appointment is like on September and my last appointment was like February 08 before new year. My poor teeth!
Yesterday i was question by the lead commissioning engineer of the office on why do me and my classmate have to pack 11 pack of lunch back. His questioning seem like interrogating me and making my blood boil. Have been packing back to the office for couples of weeks and the aunty at the cashier already knew both of us. Imagine 2 person carrying 3-5 fully filled plastic bags into the office? All i can say is the 2 of us seem to have irritate all of our fellow colleagues.
Show Senthil (my colleague) some of the photo i have taken in New Zealand and Australia few years back(even before i start to attend my diploma course!) and was seen by Stella. What really piss me off was her comparison of my photos with professional photographer. HELLO i don't even had any proper training on photo taking until i enter to polytechnic and I am using a 3.2 mega pixel Epson compact digital camera with no extra accessories and the picture she compare with was a totally different genre . I am not saying that what i have taken was a perfect shots but i really don't like people to compare my pictures i have taken with professional with proper training and with full set of accessories to fit on the latest and powerful camera. I am just a person who pick up photography when i am secondary 1 and learn from every picture i had taken, scolding receive and comments from people who know how to tell me exactly what i can improve. And the camera i have is some old camera which do not even have the program/specification to help in improving the quality/lighting of the picture. I do not even have a tripod for my camera let not say other more sophisticated accessories such as external flash, colour filter, noise filter and all that!
Tomorrow 28/06/2008 at 19:26, it will be exactly 365 and 0.25 day of our relationship (remember there is 29 day on the month of February) 1 year might seem short comparing with their, 1 year might seem just another day of life But to me, this day mean alot to me. Been through few relationships, this is the longest and this is the one and only i had placed almost my whole life in it. Been through many ups and downs together, spending times together (not alot but i am content despite the fact that i am persuading you to go out more) and understand each other more and more after somethings have happen. Sometime i really do not wish that we are in boyfriend/girlfriend relationship but in a husband and wife relationship, committing ourselves in each other life's. Dear, I do not want to have just only memories in my mind forever as it meant that i have lost you. I want you to be with me till eternity, creating memories every step we takes, every breath we take and everything we did. Dear let the first year anniversary be the second chapter of our love story and let us work hand in hand to create the thickest and never ending story.
Argue with my girlfriend again. I did something which she hated it (to the core)! I message her friend to ask about my girlfriend condition (as she is sick) and whether she attend school as my girlfriend did not reply most of the message i have send. I know her condition from her blog and her friend only. And you must be guessing how my girlfriend knows about the messages i have send to her friend right? Let me fill you in, there is this boy/girl (do not exactly know his/her gender) who is my girlfriend's friend' friend and he/she saw the message and went to tell my girlfriend. What a NICE person he/she is! After knowing that this person told my girlfriend about the messages, the next few messages i send to my girlfriend's friend was full of COLOURFUL language scolding the NICE person (who will not?!)! Trust me, any anxious person who is worried about his/her girlfriend/boyfriend will try his/her best to find information about his/her partner if he/she is unable to get any respond from his/her partner and the way of find it might be even worst that what i have did.
Crying in silence, living in my own world, my fairytale, my dream
it's you and me <3
5:57 AM
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Finally the day have arrived after such a long wait! It had been a very long time since we laugh so loudly during dinner time. A simple dinner yet a dinner filled with joy. It really a dinner which i will really wish to have everyday.
Today, I was suppose to have tuition with my cousin but she cancel it as she has a campfire to attend. A very tiring day indeed! Shikin wasn't present at work today, meaning that I have 1 less smoking partner. Luckily, I got my Lead Tech and Supervisor to accompany me to smoke. Apart from smoking and lunch, the rest of my time was spend at Level 5, inspecting the solvent filter! The solvents smell was so unpleasant that i felt so uncomfortable after inhaling the solvents' vapour. Filter of nasty chemicals were being inspected by Elmar (our trainer!) and our Lead Tech. As one of the 2 heroes inspected the filter of the acetate acid (Vinergar) and were being expose to it for about 5- 10 mintues, they became a walking vinegar bottle. The smell was so strong that the office was filled by the smell when the 2 heroes enter it.
Nothing much for me to do now while i am waiting for my mp3 to be completely charge. How i wish i can be on my bed now, hugging my pillow and get my whole body to sleep! I really need to recharge myself as i think i am going to be totally exhausted very soon! Luckily 2 day of afternoon shift for my part time job will come in handy! But it will be shorter than what i have plan as have to tuitor my cousin on saturday morning. ARGH!
it's you and me <3
5:05 AM
Friday, June 13, 2008
After a long week, finally friday have arrive. Friday the 13th was indeed unlucky for me.
Hours spent at work seem to be very long today as i was kind of moody. Had a drawing test again and still i did not pass (what the fuck!). Did not even finnish my lunch which kind of shock my colleague (normally i am the first to eat finnish all my food!). I can feel that they are concern about me. They did not even throw away my rice as they were though that i can eat it after my smoke. But after the smoke break, i still do nothave the mood to eat. By the way Thanks Pal! Really feel kind of touch especially Shikin who was trying to cheer me up, play some music and accompany me to smoke.
I was almost got hit by a car while crossing the road toward my block. The fucking driver lower down the window and fuck me upside down. Fuck the driver back! Why can't he open his eye bigger when he turn in to the small road? Why must he make such a big turn? Why must he speed is lousy trash (A very very old model Mitsubishi lancer!)! Chee Bai! Hope you fucking car's engine start to cough and sneeze!
My parent quarrel again. What the fucking problem with them? Quarrelling over minor issues which irritates me to the core. Why can't my mother give in and why can't my father just tolerate?
I feel so lonely. Having all my feelings bottled up, having so much trouble/stress which i have no one to talk to, having shows which i wish to watch yet everyone seem to be busy to accompany me to watch and doing things which i am not even sure whether it will really be possible and will it be use. It seem that all the only way to feel better is by smoking. From 4 sticks to 8 sticks a day, from 3 times day to 5 times a day.
Tommorrow will be another day of working and luckily i am on afternoon shift. Sunday will be on morning shift and the day after next will be a long week for me. Major activities will be carried out in the plant and i am hopping that i can render some help instead of trouble(s).
it's you and me <3
6:52 AM
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Saturday and sunday cost me more than $130. Cabbed to work and cabbed back home. Book a cab to work for both saturday and sunday afternoon as my housing estate seem to be too poor for cab to pass by. Booked a cab home today. Cab have already cost me near to $80. Meal was expensive in town and is cost me about $20 for the 2 day dinner. The hair cut i had yesterday cost me about $13. Supper which i had with Aaron yesterday was almost $10 and my pack of cigarette was $10.20.
This few weeks my sales seem to be getting lousier and lousier. Not much customer in town which results in the sales we are going to make during the weekends. And the amount of money i earn per weekend seem to be lesser than the amount i spent.
Yesterday was really great as i finally met my best friend after a few months. We started filling each other on things which each other have miss out and thing which we have hide from each other. Aaron get to know i smoke and he was kind of shock and disappointed (expected!). And we chat till 130am before we head home.
Another great thing was that both me and my girlfriend start to talk again! It really torturous not being able to contact your love one!
And after this 2 great thing had happen, i was feeling so great today till i reach home. My mum was furious with my mum and my sister for buying the GPS system for the car as she find it waste of money. Well, i am not so sure how is the war going to end, but all i know that i already have a white flag hanging from my door. I SURRENDER!
it's you and me <3
6:15 AM
Friday, June 6, 2008
Another week have pass and kind of big thing have happen to me. I am being transfer from the reactor to the solvent group, getting the heat exchanger, tanks which holds the solvent use in the heat exchanger and charging of the tanks with the solvent. A very interesting group to work with as it does not happen most of the time especially when the plant is in operation.
It was kind of demanding at first, having 3 meeting a days, tracing the line of at least 15 (including those traced wrongly) EFD, engineering drawing. After tracing for more than 2 hours, our team in-charge was asking me and daren to draw out the EFD we have been tracing. It is really crazy. And guess what? The one i drew just score 3.5/10.
Met amanda's aunt, my senior's mum, on thursday to clarify some doubt she have with some of the products she have gotten. A very nice lady indeed, open minded and friendly but did not really talk much as was kind of moody on the day.
Today is friday and the second works end, it is the start of weekend! Finally, we presented our safety presentation today. I was kind of stress, thinking how to present as most of them seem to be too serious for the jokes we plan to crack. After some discussion, we decide to put some entertainment element into the slides. It seem very entertaining to all the audience who have attended today safety rollout. But sadly, some of the jokes which we expected some respond was a failure. Another interesting happen to me. I was being splashed by solvent. Scary right? Luckily it is not corrosive/toxic but it is just so oily. Wash my face straight after i reach the office. It is some experience that people wish to have it yet hesitate to have it. Apart from the splash, Daren and I also did something which people do not really have a chance to do.... Spilling of Solvent. I was pouring the solvent into a tank when the flow of the solvent was simply too fast, causing a small spills. It seem like today was really not in the mood to work. Even during lunch, suppose to buy 3 set lunches while i just buy 2. Have to ask someone to go back to the canteen to buy. Felt kind of embarrass. While buying lunch, met my god-mother. She is the industrial nurse of the company. She was asking why i have not visited her for sometime and after that she start to tell her colleague about her GOD-SON and she gave me a hug! And after hearing what she say, during tea break, i gave her a surprise visit with my colleague (not really surprise as i already told her that i will find her during tea-break). As usual, chat with her while she get me the medicine both my colleague and i have requested.
Anyway, she is not those type of nurse you think she is. A 40+ woman (that why she is my GOD-MOTHER) who tend to dress very sexy and talk like a gangster and yet she is a nurse. A devilish nurse who once open a pub! Overall, she is a nice person to chat with after working for long hour in the plant. My colleague and I simply just to chill in her office. We even played some of the instrument in the office. Sound fun right?
My colleague was asking me to accompany them to the IT shows which i was simply not interested at all, 12-15th of June, and all the day it seem either i am busy with my work or busy with my personal issue. Looking forward for 13th June as my colleagues and i are going to Sesha. (not sure of the actual spelling!) Kind of excited as this is my first time trying it. My younger cousin had already tried it. Hope it will be very pleasant experience.
2 month and 1 week more before my attachment ends. Final report is something i wish to start doing now but determination seem to be missing.
Had an argument with my girlfriend again. Did not speak to her for more than 10 sentences during her journey home. Felt kind of bad as i shown her attitude and i was really petty yesterday. Gave her a warning about my bad mood once i met her. She also warn me about her attitude beforehand. 2 hot blooded people have mini-explosion while waiting for the bus home which left the 2 person mute. Personally, i agree with what my girlfriend told me before, understanding and caring are no longer being offered as much as it was in the past. First thing i should learn now is to control my mood/ temper as my mood/ temper affect every single part of me, even my understanding/caring part of me. Have not message her much today as she had inform me that she will not have the mood to reply my message/call. I just wonder when will she have the mood? Hope it can be soon, got to be soon.
Tomorrow will be another day of working, 21 more day to my only off day of the month. The reason why i did not want to work as it was a saturday and is 1 day before a very special important day. Looking forward for the very day. Yet there are still a question mark whether i am able to meet my girlfriend on the very day which i really wish to do. Wish me luck and hope everything can turn out well in order for the important day remain special.
You are everything, everything that i wanted!
it's you and me <3
5:28 AM
