Wednesday, April 30, 2008
If you ask me to describe my mood with a color, the color will be blue. DARK blue to be precise.
So many things have happen recently, so many truth i get to know and so many argument i have.
Since some of you are kind of curious why i am moody recently or what ever, this are the things that had happened to me.
1. Despite the birthday party had past, but my mother and father still feel very hostile. I know thing are improving but the rate it is improving is just slower than i have expected.
2. Have not been sleeping very well. The frequency of waking up seem like the frequency i goes to the toilet in the day time.
3. I am getting sick of travelling a very far distance to and from home. Squeezing into the train and stand for the whole journey. Torturing is the word to describe the process.
4. Working does not interest me any more. After i realise that my back was filled with so many arrow shot by my classmate. Can you imagine the group in-charge wanted to transfer me to another group for 2 month before i join back the group. And what was the reason? One of my classmate started to gossip about me and one of the girl in the group which they know that i will definitely stick to her when i am in the group. They don't want me to be in the group affecting the girl work as she is rushing many test before deadline. Being in the group and following her, i don't see any drop in her productivity and efficiency. And before we change of group, my classmate have already talk bad about me. What a condition to work ?!
5. My report is due this month and i am simply clueless on how am i going to write for my report and what will the content be like. My presentation for my supervisor is not completed yet and many thing i have to do for my presentation.
6. Currently i am teaching my cousin for her O' level and at the rate she is preparing for her exam, she will not be able to complete revising and practising for her O' level. I am totally lost on how to encourage her to study and help her with her work. 4 subjects for me to revise with her. Tough but hope everything will be fine.
7. My driving exam is coming in 2 month time. I have not enter the circuit, have not even practise much on my parking. My turning was like shit and worst is that my instructor seem to love traveling. I have already postpone my driving test date once and i do not want to do it the second time. I just want to Finnish my driving fast so i have more time to do other things.
8. Because of my terrible mood, i have been arguing with my girlfriend frequently. Getting more and more sensitive and seem to be impatient. Dear i really hope that you can give me more time for me to settle my stuff before i will be back to normal.
9. Quiting smoking is really not easy for me. Tried time after time , yet i simply can't reduce. Irritated my girlfriend time after time with my smoking problem. Determination and some push is what i need as i will be helpless and simply unmotivated.
Honestly there are still more things which is kind of too sensitive to be written online. Patience is what i really need from all of you.
it's you and me <3
8:07 PM
