Wednesday, March 26, 2008
hmm.. it like 2 week since we met... hmm just waiting anxiously for the next meeting.... attachment drew us apart.... sometime i just don't feel any warm from you at all.. yet sometime.. i feel that you are still caring for me.... my feeling and senses always contradict to what i am thinking.....
don't want to feel stress now... getting weaker and weaker..... both physically and emotionally... yesterday was a very bad day... vomited in office... and start to have headache after i reach home.... started vomiting when i reach home and went to clinic at around 12 plus during the night.... 80 dollars spend yesterday.... what a great start to my payday!
receive a message from my girlfriend when i was at my aunt house... asking me out.... i was simply over the moon as finally i can meet her.... but after several round of messaging, she decided to postpone the meeting to next week....
next week..... i am just kind of scared.... wondering how she define her next week... and what will it be? after decided on a date... is she going to postpone it again....
tired of attachment... tired of life.... how i wish i just can be alone.... alone in a no-man land... BE FREE..... do what i want to do and don't have to bother about how people feel and how people think of me.....
it's you and me <3
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