Monday, December 3, 2007
What a day... everything i done does not seem to be very smooth...
attended my first french lesson today... did not realli think it is easy... and think that i going to take a long time for me to learn since i was bad in my language... FREAK.... 4 hour of french was interesting yet tiring.. trying to pick up every word coming out from my teachers mouth.... but realli have to thank my teach angelo for making the lesson dfun and interesting... if he is like other lecturer... i think i will be sleeping throughout the whole 4 hour of lesson... 1 hour of english lesson during my secondary school time is enough to make me feel slepy the whole day... muhaha now is 4 hour... gosh!
before i started my 4 hour of french.. i went for my driving class..... travel a very long distance today... notin much happen.. but just that 1 accident almost occurs... because of me,.. i noe i noe... it is me again... (that why i am unlucky today!).. my instructor mix up with the booking timing and came to my house 1 hour earlier... and i have to rush everything.. because he say is it possible to have the lesson in half an hour time... hmm... since he is already waiting for me.. i have no choice but rush everything ... it was bad... no coffee today.. and not even breakfast... so this explain why i am kind of feeling fuck up....
after my french class... i went out with fangyi, chun rong, sam and jia jun to go yishun to makan popiah.. but fuck... the shop is close today.. so no choice. ate a little bit of laksa than i go home...haiz... waiting for 965 seem like eternity...
slept through out the journey.... i slept till i almost drop the wallet... but before the wallet drop i almost jump out of my seat... i dunnoe why i did that.. but realli kind of malu because i think i scared the uncle who sat beside me... haiz....
back at home... thing was even worst... had a small little arguement with my sis because of some stupid stuff... and feeling just so tired that i dun feel like doing anithing... cause i literally do not have any strength to do anithing...
just now tok to my dar just now... wanted to try to please her but it does not seem to work... my dear seem even angrier... i think i am just hopeless....
but what was worst was that my dear dun even trust me....dear.. i noe i am crappy at most of the time... but i dun find any benefit if i tell ruiting the wrong thing.. i am very sure with what i say... especially something which is apply on the face... why would i tell her some stuff not suitable for her when i dun earn a single cents? honestly i am realli dam dissapointed with the statement u told ruiting asking her not to listen to me because i talk rubbish.... hope u can give me ur trust... to me.. the worst time in the life is that ur love one dun even trust u..... so one word to descript how i am feeling now is terrible
i feel very not myself this few day... having lots of mixed emmotion in me... was it because of stress or was it because i am simply paranoid.. common test is comming and yet... haiz... sometime i realli wish to lock myself up in my room for as long as i could.... alone in the room.. with no one bothering me..... no more trouble... how nice it can be... that what i am realli hoping now.. i realli dun want to have any arguement... i dun want to have any cold war ... any more nagging... and stress... i just want to be isolated from everything...
so manithing i wanted to type yet notin come out........... hope tml will be abeta day...
it's you and me <3
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