Monday, September 24, 2007
sometime i wonder... is my life getting better or simply as bad as before? Tml another brand new day at a brand new environment to work... if my life is good... why would i still have to leave my job and join them.... haiz... as usual.. i dunnoe!!! kind of frustrated now... and dunnoe why.... may be because i argued with my mum bah.... haiz.. realli dunnoe what wrong with her lar.. buy snack desert home for her to eat and she dun even appreciate and start nagging lar... what the helll....just because i never go back and eat dinner? or what haiz.... fuck lar!!!
so dam sick of life now!!! not being pessimistic or what... just realli dam sick lar... thing isnt going the way i expected and i realise that i have not realli enjoy my holiday .... and now...there are still so many thing i haven think yet... WAT THE FUCK!....
tired tired tired... that how i can describe myself now... not realli physically tired... but mentally too tired to think of animore things and worry bout animore other things... i just want to be alone at time... i realli wish....yet there are so manithing that i realli cant bear to leave them....
Oman... i am simpli just so contridicting...just pray hard that i can disappear completely from this world now!
aniway french and photography were what i have chosen for my IS module... haiz... photography... it seem kind of sick to me... cause simpli no more interest in it? or may be i am simpli tooooo complacent to think that i am the best and why should i take but the basic again? i noe i am not pro... cause i isn't.... but haiz....... what eva it is .... it is being chosen... luckily got my friend to be in the same class... hope that i can realli enjoy it thou i noe that it isnt likely how i will feel! hmmm french seem more interesting... learning third language.... at least i can gossip about other people without the person noeing me? or simpli just take the module and forget it once i pass it,....
toking about test... i am still waiting for my advance theory... no mood to touch the book too... wonder how am i going to pass.... noe it isnt going to be like my basic test which i can simpli tickam and hamtam.... and i have yet to apply for PDL... if i have already apply...at least things will be easier now! cause i realli want to drive.... and to drive legally!
if there is a fastforward button in my life.... i will use it very frequently than i dun have to expereince anithing which piss me off or what.... press the button once and i can skip one of a misearble section of my life... and move on to the next happi section.... how nice ......if anione can control my life...can you press it now.... i wun even mind you press the power button
it's you and me <3
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