Thursday, August 30, 2007
today was just another boring and sian day... even going out to teach my couson dun even made my time pass very fast... i dunnoe why... haiz.. may be my mood?? may be i am simpli just wasting my ime....
when you have notin to do ... ur timewill pass slowly.. even i have thing to do... i dun think i can achieve what i have wanted to do when i am doing the thing...sometime i feel that it is simply waste of time doing thing...when... haiz....
i realise that people from nchs look mmore xia lan day year by year... omg even the student walk like going fighting like that haiz... so scay lar.. today go compass point make me feel like going to a battle ground like that... all like ready to fight like that ....
few more day than i can go to work.. reali sick of my present life.. simply just dunnoe why... cause am i trying to keep my dream alive or simply the dream have start todissapear.. i realli dunnoe.. day by day i seem like i dunnoe what am i doing... living aimlessly? or what... or am i simply living for the sake of somthing...
i am not going to commit sucide..so dun worri.. but sometime.. when i reflect i feel that i am simpli wasting my time and making myself miserabledoing something i dun realli wish to do .. or even not doing anithing...
if i realli can chose my life.. how i wish i can travel alone.. going around the world taking photo(may be... and that what i think i will do... cause that what i am interested in).... dun have to worry so much... dun have to think money enough to spend ...how to sustain or to imrove relationship... or even whether the person beside me is happi....
haiz... if onli i can....
it's you and me <3
7:56 AM
