Monday, July 23, 2007
may be when i am kind of moody i think slightly serious... not realli that moody today.. but just the lack of slp and the rainny season make me feel just kind of tired... while waiting for my bus home today... i was like stone there looking at how the rain hit the ground....i was just like completely isolated despite all the people trying to scream and shout till their first milk they ever drink in their life come out...
during the time while i was like on my isolated mode... i was thinking...seriously..... and i have realise how PREPARED i am to do things.... i simply have not make full use of my time.. i dunnoe why... i realise that i have time at home to study but i was like listening to radio and rot... and now.. tml test.. and dun even have the mood to study.... somepeople might blame it is relationship... but to me it is not..cause even before me get into the relationship me already wasting my time... i just dunnoe why.... may be i should realli look into how i spend my time and money... i this year was like a bad year for my finaicial... just be cause i working? or just because me dun want to loose to other people... i just dunnoe! semmly dunnoe... the last time i have this type of mood was 2 year ago... after some very bad thing just happen to me... today notin bad happen to me...other than me realise that my time is like dam short... and me have been wasting it.... but it make me feel the same again....
i realli dun wish to study lar(may be just dun feel like nia!) project was like so dam lots.. not sae i cant manage... i can manage.. but just dun like the time that u have to do everything again and again... like looking ur lecture notes for like 10 time without anithing getting into your brain? what more u have to work? especially working is now getting more and more boring? with more and more politics? wth you noeing more and more poeple's true color... (just becasue of money and love!) and that happen in your wokrplace... gosh!
whateva unhappy thing i just mention...all can simple be forgoten when i tok about my dar dar... just dam happi when i see her... and beside her... hmm i must be humble.. cant think highly of myself.. haha so i am not going to sae like she cant live without me ... but i am going to sae i cant live without u.... everystory will have its own ending.. and i hope that our story can end in the happiest andbeautiful way.... cause dar i realli love you!
it's you and me <3
5:50 AM
